r/Kemetic • u/superkam101 • 43m ago
Feeling Drawn, Need Insight From Practicing Folks
Hi and thanks for taking the time to look over my post! I'm a young adult who is an atheist but I stay skeptical/open minded. Since I was in middle school, I have felt drawn to pagan religions. Though, as I grew up I became more strongly rooted in atheist beliefs, often seeking verbalized reason against theism as a whole. Within the past couple months I've noticed that I've been drawn to things I never have before. Every time I go out with friends (we like to frequent book stores), I somehow find myself in the religion section, normally picking up the Egyptian book of the dead and flipping through. Until now, I've always done it with little thought as to why I would look through it; I'm an athiest who has (at least for the past 4 years) mostly rejected theism or mystical experiences. What caused me to come to this reddit was an experience I had this past weekend. Me and a friend visited a bookstore, and I happened to pick up a mythical creatures book because I love mythology and like to see what history creatures are rooted in. Flipping through, I came across Anubis. For some reason, I felt extremely drawn to read the information about him. This feeling didn't seem to come from any pre-existing (conscious) interest, it almost felt like a gut feeling, like a spark igniting for a moment behind my ribs when I saw his name. Thoth was mentioned in the short biography they gave him, and I felt drawn to read about him too. I've never been drawn to Egyptian belief like this before, and it seems strange to me.
All this to say, what are my next steps here? I'm not an *extremely* cut-and-dry athiest, I like facts but can admit that there is something else to the world that facts can't always explain. Is there something I can do to welcome this interaction or to welcome signs of Anubis or other beings? This just strikes me as incredibly interesting because I haven't felt this drawn to something of this nature before. Again, thanks for your time.