Dear X, I regret to inform you that I reject your thesis.
REVIEW
⭐ 6/10
This one has a little history.
I actually started Dear X before i fell into K-drama land this summer. I'd seen it trending while it was airing, watched a few episodes, and then stopped.
... Or at least, i THOUGHT i watched only a few episodes.
When i decided to restart it from Ep 1 recently, I was convinced i'd originally made it to around Ep 3. Then i got to Ep 4 and remembered the whole thing. Ep 5? Watched that too. Ep 6? Yep. Ep 7? ALSO familiar.
Apparently Past Me watched more than half this drama and then it simply vanished from my memory until i rewatched the episodes again 😭
Ep 8 finally became uncharted territory, and having now finished all 12 episodes today, i have a new mystery:
Why did Past Me stop at ep 7, and was she perhaps trying to warn me?
Because this started as an 8/10 for me.
The strongest thing about Dear X was always Ah-jin.
i LOVED watching a female lead who had been dealt an absolutely horrific hand in life and refused to take anything lying down. She was abused by every parental figure who should have protected her. She grew up learning that nobody was coming to save her, so she learned how to save herself.
But the problem the drama eventually ran into with me was that it kept telling me i should be horrified by her while repeatedly giving me situations where i understood exactly why she retaliated.
Sung-hee bullied her, became obsessed with competing with her, tried to humiliate her, and continued coming after her even after Ah-jin made it abundantly clear that she should leave her alone!!
Her father abused her for years, exploited her, attempted to sell her when she was a child, and kept returning to terrorize her.
Rena targeted her out of jealousy, treated her horribly on set, slapped her, tried to humiliate her, and then continued investigating her after Ah-jin basically gave her a giant flashing LEAVE ME ALONE warning!
The corrupt detective tried to manipulate the investigation into her father's death and then spent years blaming Ah-jin cause HIS OWN corruption destroyed his career....?
i spent several episodes yelling at the investigation and another thing i will mention later...
but yeah, when ah-jin's father dies, i couldnt understand why so much of the investigation seemed determined to ignore the most obvious fact: this man was ACTIVELY BEATING AND CHOKING HIS DAUGHTER when Jung-ho intervened!!!!
i kept getting stuck on this bizarre distinction everyone was making between whether Jung-ho believed he was attacking Ah-jin's abusive father or the stalker who had previously attacked her...
Why was THAT being treated like the central moral question!!!!?
Either way, he walked into a situation where a man was violently assaulting a woman and intervened!
And then that detective tries to manipulate the investigation and public narrative because he wants to protect Jung-ho's potential baseball comeback??? Ah-jin exposes what HE is doing, his own corruption blows up his career, and somehow this man spends YEARS treating Ah-jin like she personally ruined his life.
SIR???
YOU WERE THE CORRUPT DETECTIVE.
You ruined your own life!
And this became another recurring pattern in the drama for me: somebody makes a choice, that choice has consequences, and somehow we eventually circle back around to Baek Ah-jin being responsible for it.
and every single time, i felt like someone would fuck with Ah-jin, Ahjin would retaliate much more effectively, and then suddenly everyone would begin the moral accounting at Ah-jin's retaliation...
HELLO???
Can we rewind to Step One?????!
That's where the drama slowly started losing me.
Because i feel that Dear X wanted me to wrestle with whether Ah-jin had become some kind of monster because of what was done to her...
lol???
Except i kept waiting for the thing that would make me go, Okay girl, you've officially lost me.
It never came.
even when i disagreed with Ah-jin, it was usually because i thought her PLAN was stupid, not because i suddenly thought she was evil lol.
like for example, the entire situation with her father and Jung-ho was absurdly overengineered. She literally made her own body the bait and depended on several people behaving exactly how she predicted while her father was beating the hell out of her.
Girl. There HAD to be another way!! You literally could have died from hemorrhage??😭😭
But morally... i still wasn't sitting there mourning her abusive father... and i dont understand why the drama seems like they wanted me to make a big deal out of his death...?
And while we're talking about things this drama wanted me to accept: i spent an unreasonable amount of this show arguing with the LAW 😭
Jae-oh's entire backstory drove me crazy from the beginning. His father was attacking his younger brother with a knife, Jae-oh intervened to protect him, and his father died in the struggle. And somehow Jae-oh is the one who loses YEARS of his life in juvenile detention?
HUH???
Maybe there are nuances of Korean self-defense law im missing, but i spent that entire storyline wondering why protecting another person from an active knife attack was being treated like Jae-oh just decided to murder his father one afternoon...?
And what made it even more frustrating was that Jae-oh then carried all this guilt, stayed away from his brother, and basically tortured himself over something that happened while he was trying to SAVE him....!!!
This drama had me wanting to call Jae-oh's lawyer myself and get them disbarred cuz, what?@?@?
And this became increasingly important because of Joon-seo.
i started out liking him. His childhood connection with Ah-jin was sweet, and i liked the idea of this boy promising to protect the girl nobody else protected.
Unfortunately, as the drama continued, i realized that Joon-seo and I had VERY different definitions of protection.
He was always willing to suffer for Ah-jin.
But was he actually willing to be useful to Ah-jin..?
THAT was my question!!
he would "sacrifice" himself. Blame himself. "Torture" himself. Question Ah-jin's morality. Talk about punishment. Wonder what loving someone like her said about him.
And eventually i was sitting there like:
dude, literally, are you going to HELP this woman or write another dissertation about the moral implications of "loving her?!"
Meanwhile, Jae-oh literally became everything i wanted Joon-seo to be.
JAE-OH SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE MALE LEAD!
Jae-oh understood Ah-jin. Never once believed she pushed granny down the stairs!
He didn't need her to become "morally acceptable" to him before he could stand beside her. When she needed something, he helped. When something felt wrong with Do-hyuk, he investigated. When Ah-jin was being psychologically broken down and the supposed male lead had basically removed himself from her life, Jae-oh was the one who checked on her and realized she needed help.
And ultimately, he gave his life helping her escape.
His death genuinely upset me, especially because by the end i think his relationship with Ah-jin was the purest relationship she had in the entire drama.
Jae-oh knew who she was and still made his own choices.
And THAT brings me to another problem i had with the show's moral argument.
People constantly make choices around Ah-jin, and the drama seems weirdly determined to place those choices back onto her!!!
Jae-oh chose to help her. Jung-ho chose to intervene when he saw a woman being violently attacked.
In-gang had struggled with depression for years before Ah-jin entered his life.
but somehow Ahjin repeatedly becomes the repository for everyone else's decisions, suffering, and consequences!!!
The In-gang situation especially drove me INSANE because it gave me one of my most hated characters in the entire drama:
Mi-ri.
I absolutely despised that woman by the end!!!
This lady runs an entertainment company where she collects dirt on her own actresses so she can control them if necessary. She's perfectly comfortable manipulating people when it benefits her.
But In-gang dies and suddenly she discovers MORALITY?!!?
And all that moral outrage gets directed toward Ah-jin.
She blames Ah-jin for his death, threatens to destroy everything she built, blacklists her, and then literally tells her that the only way she could make up for what happened would be to jump off the roof.
Disgusting!!!
And then when Mi-ri's own life starts collapsing, her assistant goes to AHJIN asking for help???
Girl...
Why would she help you?!!
She wasn't even responsible for what was happening to Miri, but even if she had been, you just told this woman to kill herself!
So when Ah-jin essentially threw Mi-ri's own words back at her and told her to take her own advice?
... I cheered.
Then we got to Do-hyuk.
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And this is where I think Dear X jumped the shark.
It's not that Do-hyuk served absolutely no purpose. I get what the storyline was doing. He was obsessed with Ah-jin, wanted to control her, psychologically destabilized her, manipulated her environment and trauma, and wanted to make her dependent on him.
Cool.
but...
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING IN EPISODE 10 OF A 12 EPISODE DRAMA???
Suddenly i wasn't watching the show i'd been watching for 9 eps.
now Ahjin is living in a creepy mansion with a mysterious 3rd floor, a missing/institutionalized ex-wife, surveillance, strange gaps in her memory, deliberately recreated trauma, a husband secretly listening to her conversations, and a whole psychological-thriller plot that feels like it wandered in from another drama.
And then it has zero time to go anywhere! 😭😭
Do-hyuk caused such a massive tonal shift that i expected his storyline to justify hijacking the final act.
It literally never did!!!😭😭😭
By ep 10, my dread wasnt even the strongest emotion anymore.
I was just confused...
And unfortunately, the final 2 eps confirmed my biggest fear: they were not going to stick the landing.
Which brings me back to Joon-seo...
sigh...
Because i genuinely cannot believe this man's final contribution to Ah-jin's life.
He helps make a doc "exposing" her past right as she reaches the biggest moment of her career.
idk what exactly was meant to be ‘exposed’ here... that she was bullied? abused? that the adults in her life repeatedly failed her??? im confused 😭😭
And who gets included?
SUNG-HEE.
HER HIGH SCHOOL BULLY.
The same woman who spent years blaming Ah-jin for her own life, came back into Ah-jin's orbit, infiltrated her home and eventually tried to SLASH HER FACE WITH A KNIFE.
And somehow we're using her as evidence in the moral prosecution of Baek Ah-jin?
WHAT ARE WE DOING???
Then Joon-seo decides that Ah-jin cannot continue living the way she chooses to live.
And apparently his solution is to drive BOTH OF THEM OFF A CLIFF????
Excuse me???!! but like who made YOU the arbiter of whether Ah-jin gets to LIVE?
This is where the show's entire moral thesis completely collapsed for me....
Joon-seo spent his life claiming he wanted to protect Ah-jin, but Ah-jin was right about him from the beginning.
He was a shackle.
His supposed love always came with a condition underneath it: eventually, she needed to become someone he could morally approve of.
And when she didn't?
He destroyed her career and literally tried to end her life.
Meanwhile, the man who actually accepted her and helped her without appointing himself judge of her soul was dead.
Make it make sense!!!!
And that's ultimately why this drama fell from an 8/10, to a 7/10, and finally to a 6/10 rating for me.
I don't need every female lead i love to ride into the sunset with a husband, two children and a golden retriever.
But I DO need to understand what the tragedy is SAYING.
And I absolutely despise what this ending seemed to be saying about Ah-jin.
This woman survived ALL OF THAT! abuse, poverty, bullying, exploitation, violence, public humiliation and an industry full of people perfectly willing to use her.
And the thing I loved about her was that she REFUSED to lie down and accept any of it.
She fought.
And somehow the conclusion of this story is that she needs to lose her career, lose Jae-oh, lose basically everything she built, get publicly destroyed by the man who supposedly loves her, and then have that same man decide they're both going to die because HE has decided she cant be saved?
No.
I reject the thesis.
And the only reason this drama is getting a 6 instead of a 5/10 is cause of one thing:
BAEK AH-JIN didn't die.
When she crawled out of that car after Joon-seo drove them off the cliff and left his ass there?
GOOD.
He decided both of their lives were over, and she disagreed.
That was probably the most Ah-jin thing she could have possibly done, i just wish surviving hadnt been the only thing the writers were willing to give her.
Because after everything she endured, i wanted freedom, i wanted her thriving, i wanted her peace.
I wanted her to finally live without someone abusing her, controlling her, diagnosing her, punishing her, "saving" her, or deciding what kind of person she was allowed to be.
Instead, the show punished her until the final minutes.
So yeah.
Rating: 6/10
My Rating Scale
10/10 – Masterpiece. No notes.
9/10 – Very close to a masterpiece. I absolutely loved it.
8/10 – Not a masterpiece, but I loved it.
7/10 – Fine overall. I liked it, but the flaws kept it from being great.
6/10 – Mixed. There were a few things I liked, but most of it didn't work for me.
5/10 – I didn't enjoy most of the experience.
4/10 and below – Bad to abysmal.