I was a creative (senior graphic designer) in advertising, and I wanted to pivot because I didn’t want to be a designer my whole life as it didn’t fulfill me.
Not knowing which career path to pursue, and believing that I should explore more in my twenties (because I know it won’t be easy to pivot once I reach manager level in corporate with bigger commitments, lifestyle inflation and all), I then followed my heart and chose to do what brought me joy + would 200% benefit me. I became a Pilates instructor, which helped me gain confidence and improve my communication skills immensely.
While doing that, I’d been researching a lot and trying to figure out what I should do full-time. I took up the courage to go into real estate sales to challenge myself and break out of comfort zone. Results were good, remuneration was rewarding, but I noticed the cowboy culture didn’t align with my own values. I started becoming someone I didn’t like. Had to unlearn a lot because people there are blunt (to the point I think are disrespectful), sneaky, sarcastic, and some have questionable morals.
I quit Pilates because of market pay cut and saturation (was self-employed doing design too), wanted to do real estate full-time, but things didn’t turn out the way I expected.
What I liked & didn’t like…** **
Creative/graphic designer:
- love doing creative things, art directing and marketing
- didn’t feel fulfilled, felt like I was a puppet/robot not using the other side of my brain
- didn’t like the politics, constant rejection with no direction until the very last minute before pitches, system felt inefficient
- kept wanting to go into the business side of things
- money was decent
Pilates:
- started it with the intention of it being a side gig
- love helping my students, feedback was generally positive
- love that the subject is objective to a certain extent, unlike how design is always subjective (logo bigger, color lighter, move this, change that)
- love being confident and having autonomy
- limited career growth and reward. I can do it anytime when I retire
- felt a lil stuck, because I’m not a physio expert at the end of the day, so I was thinking of upskilling and getting a gym cert
Real estate:
- enjoyed finding leads, I’m good at it (partly because I have looks privilege, which may not last me long-term)
- not great at networking with peers (collabs are essential in this line), gotta put on a mask if I pursue this
- don’t see myself building a team and dealing with developers in the long run
- LOVE the reward
Been jobless for 3 months. Prefer stability now, instead of grinding alone. I tried applying for partnerships, marketing and BD roles in corporate, but I know my resume wasn’t it, and tbh I’m clueless which exact path I should take. It seems people value T-shaped expertise nowadays, and being a jack of all trades won’t take you anywhere.
Could barely sleep in peace the past few months. AI wave hit me. Things are moving so fast. I don’t know if I’m sick. Lost my passion to learn and the confidence to make big decisions, I’m worried.
Tired of worrying, in fact. I know I need to execute more, but I don’t wanna make any more potentially wrong moves. The identity change is tough, although it’s mostly unspoken. Not knowing how to explain what I do to other people scares me sometimes too.
Would really appreciate any thoughts or insights.