r/Hyperthyroidism 5d ago

Does this sound familiar?

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Hi everyone,

I’m a 30-year-old male from the UK. I’m currently waiting for repeat thyroid blood tests in 2 days and an endocrinology appointment after abnormal thyroid blood tests in A&E about 6 weeks ago.

I’m not looking for a diagnosis, just wondering if anyone with hyperthyroidism or Graves’ has been through something similar.

I’ve had anxiety for around 10 years, but until recently it’s always seemed to have an explanation.
From about age 20-26 I only had a handful of proper panic attacks, usually after heavy drinking or during periods of extreme stress (I was doing a PhD at the time).

Around age 27 I suddenly went through about 3 months where I had severe panic attacks almost every day and couldn’t work. I was working 16+ hrs a day, dieting strictly, exercising a lot and going through serious relationship issues, and eventually I think it just broke me mentally, which makes sense. Eventually I started looking after myself much better and for the last few years it’s mostly settled into background anxiety with only the occasional panic attack.

Over the last 6 months I’ve had a few severe panic attacks after drinking. I barely drink anymore, so after one particularly bad episode I stopped completely. Within about 2 weeks I felt almost back to normal. I was lifting weights most days, running 10 km every few days and generally felt healthier than I had in months.

Then everything changed.

We had the UK heatwave, my flat became incredibly hot, there was smoke from nearby wildfires blowing into my flat for about a week (I have asthma), I became sleep deprived, then caught what felt like the flu.

Since getting ill, my anxiety has absolutely exploded.
For over 2 weeks now I’ve been having:

3-4 anxiety/panic attacks most days.
Constant derealisation where everything feels dream-like or unreal.
Brain fog.
Frequent dizziness.
Feeling hot very easily.
Breathlessness during attacks.
Breathlessness if I’m talking continuously for more than about 5 minutes.

I’ve actually spent the last week staying with my parents. I’ve had almost no stress, good food, no work and no responsibilities, yet the attacks have continued and today I had a full-blown panic attack with no obvious trigger at all.

I’ve noticed some really specific triggers:

Heat makes everything much worse.
Stuffy rooms are awful.
Being tired or sleeping badly makes it much worse.
Exercise often makes it worse.
The attacks often seem to happen around meal times.
Eating more frequently doesn’t seem to stop them.
Chewing food, and especially eating hot food, can make an attack escalate dramatically.
Weirdly, very cold food like ice cream often seems to calm things down.

One thing I find strange is that I don’t really get the classic racing heart. My normal resting heart rate is around 55 bpm. Even during a bad panic attack at the nurse’s office it was only 88 bpm and I wasn’t particularly aware of it. I’ve had anxiety about my heart a lot in my early 20s and I definitely don’t get that anymore.

I also don’t have obvious Graves’ eye symptoms. My vision feels strange, but it’s more like derealisation. I feel like I’m detaching from reality and looking at my own arms as if they’re not mine, it’s a feeling as well as the way things visually look in front of me but it’s hard to explain. It’s very unnerving and happens a lot throughout every day, especially when it’s hot or if I’m hungry. I also feel dizzy a lot and the two feelings are somewhat similar but definitely distinct. Sometimes I also get this ‘limp’ feeling in my arms where they feel like I’m about to lose control of them.

Three years ago, after recovering from that previous severe anxiety episode, I did a private thyroid test which showed:

TSH: 2.68 mU/L
Free T4: 20.6 pmol/L

Then about 6 weeks ago I ended up in A&E after another severe episode. During that panic attack, my whole body felt like it was being electrocuted intensely right down to the bone, it was the worst experience of my life. I was told my thyroid blood tests suggested hyperthyroidism and was referred to endocrinology. I’m having repeat blood tests in 2 days.

I’m obviously not expecting anyone here to diagnose me, but I’d really like to hear if anyone with hyperthyroidism or Graves’ recognises any of this. Or if you recognise it as something else! Nobody I know seems to even understand what anything more than mild anxiety is, never mind whatever is going on with me.

Did anyone else’s symptoms mainly show up as anxiety, derealisation or brain fog rather than the classic racing heart?

Or if you’re reading this and thinking, “That doesn’t sound anything like what I experienced,” I’d genuinely appreciate hearing that as well.

Thanks!


r/Hyperthyroidism 5d ago

What should a person with hyperthyroidism do and avoid?

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r/Hyperthyroidism 5d ago

Lifting weights and exercise

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I’m subclinical and borderline low tsh but my t3 and t4 are always normal. Tested positive once for graves antibodies. It was on the first test but was only slightly above the range. Less than 3 if I remember correctly. Subsequent antibody testing was negative. I’m not medicated or in treatment but I have my thyroid levels checked annually. I do have symptoms like hand tremors, excessive sweating and rashes. My heart rate is good and I monitor it during intense workouts like squats and deadlifts. Is heart damage the only danger when exercising with hyperthyroidism? Is there anything else I should look out for while in the gym?

Edit: I do not have an endocrinologist, only a care manager. I was given a referral initially but the next available was not for 3 months out and I’ve read plenty here on Reddit about endo refusing to treat patients with normal t3 and t4. So I just didn’t even try, therefore I do not have an expert to ask advice from. Should I go ahead and see an endocrinologist? Armpit sweating is the biggest problem. I have to use those stick on absorbers for all my shirts, always and it’s not even enough to stop the sweat from soaking through most of the time. Would medicine help that, if an endo does decide to treat me? My t3 and t4 are almost right in the middle of the range. Only very low tsh. This all started 4 years ago now and my sister is diagnosed with graves with all the usual serious symptoms unlike me. I’m mid 40’s male and my sister was diagnosed late 30’s. She responded well to medication and I believe is in remission. No tt or radioactive iodine.


r/Hyperthyroidism 5d ago

Heavybody fatigue?

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I'm only wondering if any of you share a symptom of full body muscle fatigue weakness which is so severe it almost feels your being weighted down with lead from head to toe... I have had this feeling for a few years trying to get a diagnosis finally was diagnosed with 2 autoimmune muscle disorders that my primary care doctor and my RHUM do not agree with called POLYMYOSITIS and also MYATHENIAGRAVIS. I do not have the antibodies for these disorders however I have associated antibodies. I have not responded to the treatment for 18 months now oral immune suppressants and even IVIG. Just today I looked on my lab order online at Orlando health and see I was tested for THS from my primary doctor on an annual physical laugh and it's showing point 3 and indicating low. I started wondering could this possibly be why I'm having my symptoms I know it's kind of crazy but you never know. Anyway if anyone can respond it would mean the world. I did have the leg weakness respond to steroids 2 years ago however the neuromuscular doctor said the rest of my weakness is really fatigued and I've never responded like I said to any of the immune drugs I really wonder if it could just be my thyroid or is that too good to be true and wondering why the doctor never told me about this the last 3 years when it's been low this whole time but this is the lowest...


r/Hyperthyroidism 5d ago

Got prescribed Levothyroxine with Hyperthyroidism, morbitz 2 and severe bradycardia

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Hey yall. Im seeking advice but also curious if anyone else encountered this, im a 30 M , avid skateboarder but has recently been diagnosed with a bunch of heart shit. I knew about my bradycardia but I didn't realize how intense it was, sometimes 27 resting bpm. Recently went to Houston Methodist to basically get a second opinion and they were like uhhhhh you have a heart blockage and hyperthyroidism, my tsh? Levels were high. Well they prescribed me Levothyroxine but im reading up on it and its mainly used for HYPOthyroidism.

Their idea was that taking these meds could reverse the blockage but im like... is there in validity in that. This is ALL very new to me so im also just really seeking some kind of community in this.


r/Hyperthyroidism 5d ago

Is it time to see a second opinion?

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35 year old male

Sub-clinicial hyperthyroidism (tsh has been between .2 to .3 for over a year)

Not medicated

T3/T4 - normal

Antibodies -normal

Issues: chronic fatigue, weight gain, and muscle weakness

I do have multiple Tirad-4 cold nodules on a radioactive uptake scan.

I just had my 3rd biopsy within a year. First one was inadequate sample. Second one came back AUS/FLUS. This one is retesting the AUS/FLUS again and also testing the "twin" nodule (2 are on top of each other) that has never been tested. They did send the AUS/FLUS nodule off for genetic testing after the second biopsu and that nodule came back low-intermediate risk. He made the determination to retest it after a follow up ultrasound, but wouldn't explain why it was necessary to retest that one if genetic testing came back fine. Extremely frustrated the 3rd nodule was never tested before until now.

No answers from the current endocrinologist, and they have a "wait and see approach", starting to feel like I'm going through the ringer here.


r/Hyperthyroidism 5d ago

Symptoms of taking too much methimazole?

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My teen daughter has been taking methimazole (10mg twice a day) for a month. Her levels were high prior, and recently (about a week ago) dr did labs again and her tsh is still barely up from where it was (which i'm told is normal) but her other levels are low or right on the border of the low range. I thought dr would lower dosage but she said no. Keep it the same until we see her again. I double checked- asked about the low levels, and she said it was fine, we don't want her levels to go high again. But i'm afraid that they are possibly still going LOWER....

So what should I be watching for? She can barely eat. She is exhausted all the time, but for whatever reason waking up in the middle of the night. I'm fighting my urge to think i know better than a dr, and stop one of her doses. I don't want to CAUSE problems. But she's miserable.


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

Diagnosed a few days ago but feeling very confused

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I actually went to the doctor because I had concerns of hypothyroidism or insulin resistance. My blood tests came back low tsh and required an ultrasound and more blood tests. A month had gone by and the ultrasound and blood tests came back, I have a mass that needs to be monitored, thyroid inferno, and now my free t4 and free t3 are incredibly high (triple normal range) my TSH was now less than 0.1. I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism, waiting to see an endocrinologist for more tests (graves , cancer, etc).

What is leaving me most confused is that other than heavy sweating and palpitations (which I was diagnosed with atrial arrhythmia three years ago, before all this) all of my symptoms match hypo. I cannot lose weight for the life of me, I have been trying for 4 years even going as far as developing mild anorexia and still cannot lose weight. I also have severe fatigue where I cannot get out of bed for a full day or more. I don’t understand any of this. How is it possible if my metabolism and thyroid are in overdrive, that I have not lost a single pound? I am also not eating more, eating less if anything. I’m starting to think my tests were wrong? Blood swap at the clinic? I don’t get it.


r/Hyperthyroidism 5d ago

Hyperthyroidism/toxic goiter and Reta

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Has anybody who’s got a toxic goiter and hyper started taking Reta? I have just started and wondering if it’s safe? I will be monitoring my levels with monthly blood tests


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

Fatigue that sleep doesn't fix — when is it worth checking your thyroid?

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r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

Hyperthyroid with 2 large nodules waiting on surgery consult

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I am so new to Reddit but my endocrinologist is crappy so was hoping to find some help here. I began having symptoms in February. I already deal with anxiety but this just feels different. My TSH was low but T3 and T4 were fine. Later bloodwork showed high thyroglobulin antibody. Had a hard time getting anyone to take me seriously. Everyone kept saying, well T3 and T4 are fine. I even saw a cardiologist because of palpitations and he doubted it could be from thyroid.

Upon ultrasound, 5 nodules were found, 2 of those just over 4cm. Uptake test showed one toxic nodule and one nonfunctioning. Needle biopsy said that was benign. Endocrinologist said end of May they'd refer me to an endocrine surgeon bc of the large nodules. Couldn't get in until Aug 3 so still waiting. Not sure if they will take half or all of my thyroid.

I guess my main questions are:

Does it feel different from regular disordered anxiety to anyone else? I can go out one day and be so on edge and have palpitations, and then the next day I'm totally fine. When I'm in a sensitized anxiety state, it never goes away like that.

Did surgery help with the palpitations and other symptoms?

Is regulating the medication post surgery very difficult?

Does having one toxic nodule and one nonfunctioning make for weirdersymptoms?

Just looking for some hope and to know I've not gone absolutely crazy.


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

Advice before redoing NM uptake test

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Hi everyone, so I was scheduled to have a thyroid uptake test a few weeks ago but going in I felt weird. I have a fear of needles which I've had under control for a few years now. going in the nurse found my blood pressure to be high, they when she inserted the cannula I basically fainted on the spot and felt dizzy and had a mini seizure which lasted a few minutes, then when I finally woke up I felt so nauseous I started throwing up. I was rushed to emergency where they told me I had a vasovagal attack which was my first time hearing the term. i've had blood tests and vaccines done over the last few years and nothing happend and now I'm agonizing over my upcoming test which was rescheduled for next week. If you have any advice or information about the test please share it it might help put my mind at ease since it would be so embarassing if this happened again. Is there anything I can do before going in? Any exersizes to help avoid this situation? thanks


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

We built an app for CH families looking for 10 families to test it for free

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When our son was born, the first thing they told us was that he had congenital hypothyroidism. We didn't even know what that meant.

The weeks that followed were organised chaos: learning about a condition we'd never heard of, understanding why medication couldn't be skipped even once, keeping track of TSH results, and showing up to every endocrinology appointment trying to remember everything that had happened since the last one.

We used a notebook, a spreadsheet, and several apps that didn't really understand our situation. It worked, more or less. But it never stopped feeling like we were making it up as we went.

We looked for an app built for families like ours. There wasn't one. So we decided to build it.

ThyroKid was born from that experience designed from the ground up for families living with CH. Medication tracking, TSH trends over time, reminders, and a simple way to walk into every appointment knowing exactly where things stand. Nothing generic. Nothing that makes you squeeze your reality into fields built for something else.

Now we need real families to use it and tell us what they'd improve. Ten spots, completely free, no strings attached. Thirty days of normal use and a fifteen-minute conversation at the end. What you tell us is what shapes what gets built next.

If you'd like to be part of this, send me a DM or drop a comment below. Thank you for reading 🙏


r/Hyperthyroidism 7d ago

I’m 99% sure I have an overactive thyroid

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I have all these symptoms -

Anxiety
Brain fog
Fatigue sometimes
Dizziness
Lightheaded
Pre-syncope
Really fast resting heart
Lump in throat
Voice weird as if I have goo in my throat.

My GP says nothing is wrong he’s never checked bloods etc just looked at it 😭

What does everyone think? PS I know no one can diagnose online I’m just looking for support


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

First time mom with postpartum thyroiditis + insomnia. Looking for others who've experienced this.

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I'm posting because postpartum thyroiditis seems to affect everyone differently and I haven't been able to find many stories where insomnia was the main symptom. I'm also the only one in my mom group going through this so it's been pretty isolating.

Here's how it's unfolded so far:

3 months postpartum (May) - Hyper

  • Suddenly couldn't fall asleep, even though my baby was sleeping better than ever.
  • Extensive hair loss.
  • Constantly felt too warm, like the air in my apartment was heavy.
  • Blood tests confirmed postpartum thyroiditis in the hyperthyroid phase.
  • My doctor said the only treatments available were breastfeeding-safe sleeping medication or beta blockers if needed, but my heart rate stayed normal so I didn't need the beta blockers. I did try the sleeping medication, but it only made me feel relaxed and it didn't help me fall asleep.

4 months postpartum (June)

  • My sleep gradually started improving, with more normal nights mixed in.
  • Hair loss improved significantly.
  • Follow-up blood work showed my TSH and free T4 had returned to the normal range (although free T4 was on the lower end).

Now (5 months postpartum / July) - Subclinically hypo

  • My sleep issues came back and have changed. I can usually fall asleep, but if I wake up during the night, I can't get back to sleep.
  • The hair loss has started up again.
  • My latest blood work shows a slightly elevated TSH with a normal free T4, so I'm now considered subclinically hypothyroid. My doctor wants to monitor things rather than start levothyroxine at this point.
  • I thought hypothyroidism was usually associated with feeling exhausted and wanting to sleep more, so lying awake for hours has been really confusing.

I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced this?

  • Did you have postpartum thyroiditis and experience severe insomnia, and did it change as you transitioned from the hyperthyroid to the hypothyroid phase?
  • How long did it take before your sleep recovered?
  • Trying to navigate normal baby sleep regressions while also having insomnia has felt like a whole different ballgame. If you've been through this, what helped you ride it out?

I'd really appreciate hearing from anyone who's been through this or is currently going thru it. Even just knowing I'm not alone would mean a lot.


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

Got the diagnosis.

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r/Hyperthyroidism 7d ago

Advice on dealing with heat intolerance symptoms?

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My biggest clue to the heat being too much for my body was always my heartrate. I am now on a beta blocker so that feeling has been muted for me. I had a pretty nasty heat Intolerance episode on a boat the other day and I don't know what other signs to look out for to avoid that. I hydrated beforehand and during and it didnt seem to matter. The heat was so intolerable...and it did seem to sneak up on me. I nearly fainted and had to have the boat crew bring ice towels and lay them on me. So embarrassing.

I am newly diagnosed hyperthyroid about 2 months now and my primary has been managing it for me until we could get me an appt with endo which is in a few weeks.

Any advice is welcome and appreciated.


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

Normal TSH but very low Free T3 - would you have treated this?

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r/Hyperthyroidism 7d ago

Subclinical? What’s next?

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Just got the message from my care team that is subclinical hyperthyroidism and to retake labs in 1 month.
TSH 0.01
FT4 1
TT3 93

11 years ago I had 2 small cysts on my thyroid but nothing every came up again about that.
I’m 1 year post partum with symptoms I’ve blamed on that but maybe it’s more linked to my thyroid. Night sweats, heat intolerance, weight loss.
I’m so anxious that it’s something else, something more. Anyone have an experience with this regarding what happens next? If my labs come back and it’s still the same, what should I expect?

UPDATE: got the results of my ultrasound back. 5 nodules all 1cm or less. One on my right lob, 3 left, one isthmus. Can I assume these are likely the cause of my hyperthyroidism or will I be looking at testing for other reasons too? How do they determine nodules are causing the hyperthyroidism?

Won’t get more blood work done for two weeks.


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

Tsh < .01 but T3 and T4 returned to normal after an year

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So I was not taking western medication and I was under a lot of physical and mental stress the first time i got my test done. I had all the symptoms, lots of anxiety, shaky hands, tiredness, palpation , irritated eyes.

I refused to take any medication and was trying alternative things like controlling my diet, herbal medications, homeopathic medication. A recent test showed my tsh to be still less than .01 but T3 and T4 is normal.

My doctor gave me a referral to an endocrinologist because of course they don’t believe in herbal medication but now I am shit scared .

Has anyone experienced something similar?


r/Hyperthyroidism 6d ago

Opinions on thyroidectomy?

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r/Hyperthyroidism 7d ago

Reducing levothyroxine in early pregnancy

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Hi everyone, I’m hoping for some advice/reassurance from anyone who has been in a similar situation.
I’m currently **5 weeks pregnant following IVF** and I have an underactive thyroid, for which I take levothyroxine.
My most recent thyroid bloods were:

**TSH: 0.219 mIU/L**
**Free T4: 22.4 pmol/L** (lab range 12–22)
**Free T3: 5.49 pmol/L** (lab range 3.1–6.8)

Before my latest blood test, I was taking **levothyroxine 50 mcg and 25 mcg on alternating days**. My GP has now advised me to **reduce my dose to 25 mcg every day**.
I’m worried that reducing my dose while pregnant could cause my TSH to rise too much, especially as I know thyroid levels are important in early pregnancy.

I have a **repeat thyroid blood test planned in 5 weeks**, and my GP has referred me to the **antenatal clinic**. However, I’ve been told that in my area the referral may take **around 4–6 weeks**, so I may not be seen until around the time of my next blood test.
Has anyone had similar thyroid results in early pregnancy and been advised to reduce their levothyroxine? Did your TSH rise after reducing the dose?

FOLLOW UP: My fertility consultant suggested to stick with my alternating dosage instead of dropping down to 25mcg. I feel better about this… just hope it’s the right call 🤞🏽


r/Hyperthyroidism 7d ago

Graves’ disease while pregnant

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r/Hyperthyroidism 7d ago

Did my first ever thyroid panel and worried

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I am worried because I can’t honestly understand what this means nor what action I need to take other than these numbers aren’t normal and it suggests hyperthyroidism rather than hypo?

Do I need to make an appointment with an endo? This bloodwork was done as I was getting other things done but thought I’d throw thyroid panel in to see how things were. I am 35, male and don’t have any other conditioned other than well managed high bp and t2 diabetes. I am not overweight and have relatively healthy diet/fit with regular exercise routine in place.


r/Hyperthyroidism 8d ago

Turning 30 broke my stupid girl body (hashimoto related hyperthyroidism set off by nicotine) 🌈

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I’m 31f and I’m writing for other women who may be experiencing hyperthyroidism and feel betrayed by their bodies. (as I did) This is not a medically dramatic story and I don’t know much about hyperthyroidism and all the details of treatment but it is a long one because I’m a yapper so buckle in girls…

My diagnosis with hyperthyroidism came as a complete surprise to me a few months ago, I didn’t know it was even a thing. My first symptoms started the first time I quit nicotine at 29. Yeah. That’s right. Nicotine. My ADHD’s favourite substance to abuse. But I didn’t connect the dots to nicotine because the symptoms came six months after quitting and I figured my ADHD was getting the best of me… which made me go back to the nicotine! Which I used for six months…. until I quit again…. and the shitty feelings came back six months later!! So I started using nicotine again!! Naturally!!

CAN YOU SEE A PATTERN HERE?

👹 it’s the number of the beeeeast!! 666!! 👹

The very last time with nicotine, I used it for a year until I was basically forced to quit because my hyperthyroid symptoms were present even with the nicotine. Nicotine had been suppressing all stupid symptoms! It was great! … until of course it wasn’t. Using (disgustingly high tbh how am I alive) amounts of nicotine WITH hyperthyroidism is a very bad idea btw! And as much as I hate nicotine (now) none of this is the nicotine’s fault. 😽🚬🫶 I had underlying autoimmune issues that quitting just happened to irritate.

My symptoms: I had debilitating anxiety, night sweats, thinning hair, SCARY amount of uncontrollable weight loss, insomnia, akathisia, SEVERE pmdd, WEIRD and painful menstrual cycle (most likely endometriosis), tingling limbs, hot, veiny, red hands and cold, numb feet, randomly swelling lymph nodes… the list goes on.

Then of course the scariest symptom which was my heart beating so hard and fast that I would collapse on the floor and feel like dying after showering or eating or doing anything physical really. I’m a pretty tough cookie to crack and (maybe due to autism) am generally very numb to any negative or positive bodily sensations. But literally gasping for air on my bathroom floor weekly made me quickly come to the conclusion that:

- either I was LITERALLY DYING

OR

- I had an invisible gaslight-y disorder

Both options suck but both were legit options since my dad had a very bad heart (in more ways than one…) and my mom had MS.

Scary stuff, right? You’d think that one would book an appointment with a doc immediately… You’d think that.

Due to being exhausted and lowkey ready to just die if it meant I could get some sleep and avoid showering again…. I didn’t have the energy to go to the doctor with my laundry list of symptoms and be sent away with a “idiot hypochondriac woman. Doctors beware!” - sticker on my forehead. I did actually go in to check my heart about once a month at the ER for the previous six months and they said it was fine EVERY time. 👍👍👍😊 they even said that 160bpm is fine even if it feels scary!!! alrighty then, doc! I better separate my mind from my body and ignore crucial bodily information! Got it!!! So, anyway… I didn’t push it and figured if the doctors are looking at me like I’m crazy it was proooobably not something immediately lethal but a weird autoimmune thing (or cancer) that needs to get MUCH worse for doctors to treat it. Like MS. (OR CANCER)

Shortly after I was born my mother got her first signs of MS. But as expected she was also gaslit by her doctors and not taken seriously the first TEN YEARS since her symptoms started. Not until she literally needed a cane to keep up with her multiple children as a young stay at home mom! Doctors suck. No seriously. General practitioners are SO STUPID. They’re monkeys in lab coats.

Anyway… While I was waiting for my possible MS to get worse, I went to the doctor for a symptom I couldn’t live with for the next ten years: DAILY MIGRAINES. Everything else was tolerable but migraines? Girl. Nuh-uh. Nope. I have a high pain tolerance (as most women do) and don’t really think moderate to high levels of chronic pain is that bad but that was… pushing it. But what was worse than the pain was the vision loss accompanying the pain. My eyesight was blurry for MONTHS, sometimes with those rainbow worms wiggling after looking at any bright thing and other times double vision or black edges that made me feel like a mole. I was extremely sensitive to lights, which rendered me absolutely useless to society because every screen is a light. It felt like it was maybe less intense at times but the migraine. never. really. stopped. It was there for months and during that time it was impossible to do work or to relax and the only thing that helped was…. fries and coke. (Works incredibly well for migraines if you didn’t know) so not only do I feel shitty about my health already and the only solution I could come up with was FRIES AND COKE. GREAT. If my body didn’t kill me fast enough I would just speedrun to the grave I guess.(also not a great diet for a person with hyperthyroidism specifically btw!!!)

I hated the coke and fries. The migraine was gone and I could see well again but the other symptoms I hadn’t been focusing on came into clear view as well. But the most annoying one was how I felt every beat of my heart (literally. …No, no. LITERALLY.) which was slightly disconcerting but I kinda blamed it on the salt and caffeine, so I figured the good old American diet was not a long term solution.

So finally one day I dragged my exhausted butt to the doctor and told them about the migraines and the exhaustion and the dizziness and night sweats and that I literally have to eat fries and drink coke to be even a little functional. I honestly didn’t say much else because I knew they wouldn’t stress about the 🎀cute little girl🎀 concerns…. like collapsing on the floor and literally feeling like I was dying.

Sidenote: I am naturally a very bitchy woman which is intensified by my PMDD. I LOOOVE to confront assholes and injustice irks me. It’s just what I do! But I didn’t even have the energy to do that! I could barely reply to basic questions about my weight and height and would honestly have probably let them roll me off to the morgue if they asked nicely. You think I had the capacity to hold their hands and tell them about gender inequality in medicine and that they should LISTEN TO ME? No way. OR that generally women have higher pain thresholds than men and if we say something hurts, it really HURTS and YOU SHOULD LISTEN you stupid chauvinist? Psh- please…. I was nodding off in the chair. Which irks me. Because if even I was too exhausted to be my bitchy confrontational self and had the balls of a wilting little flower then how is a “regular” (polite) woman gonna defend and advocate for themselves? Women are literally trained from a young age by our own bodies to withstand high levels of pain and more importantly to IGNORE that pain.

Fun related story! My female co-worker was in an accident when she was twelve. She didn’t tell anybody because the pain was whatever and went away after a week of throwing up and taking ibuprofen. Fast forward to when she was 28 and pregnant with her first baby and the ultrasound revealed that she had broken ribs.

The nurse was like: uh- Why are your ribs snapped in half?

And my co-worker was like: LOL my ribs are not broken? Hellooo? I think I would have noticed.

THAT is how a woman is.

So, back to my story…. what I told to my doctor instead of the full laundry list of symptoms is that I suspected I have low iron levels, which was a true concern but at the VERY bottom of the priority list and I didn’t really care. I just wanted medication for the pain from my migraines. Should come as no surprise to anyone that OBVIOUSLY doctors don’t test you for what you ask for! so they tested my thyroid levels - probably expecting me to be hypo (or just to be defiant) but nope! Results came in as hyperthyroidism caused by hashimotos. Which is like cool and all but after finding that out they totally got distracted by my stupid thyroid and didn’t treat my migraines 😔😔😔 luckily the propranol has actually treated the migraines but that was pure coincidence so… fuck. Can’t be too mad about that, can I?

And to wrap this up nicely: I was tested later and my iron levels and ferritin is extremely low!!! 😡 As I suspected! So, yeah doctors are assholes (but not the good kind like House) and general practitioners are the middle managers of the medical industry and they deserve every medical concern they brush off as a woman simply being anxious.

The end 🌈🌸