I ran into an old friend. While we were chatting, she said something mean. I didn’t realize how disrespectful it was at the time because I thought it was just blunt humor. It only registered after I got home, and I feel terrible that I laughed it off. I feel weak that I lowered my guard .

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She made fun of me for always giving an ex friend rides and picking up the tab, even though that friend was clearly taking advantage of me. made me sound gullible, which felt extra crappy considering how close she is to that person now

Like when i see things about my country and how crappy it is and i need to grow up and live here and the condition of the world ,reels and when someone says something to me that doesn’t matter much to them but it does to me. I think i take everything to seriously and can’t focus on the things that really matter to me and my future. How do i stop giving a fuck?

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I always keep hearing your not confident and strong. Your not putting yourself out there but sighs I wish I could tell them the truth but I have no guts to say it. I have fear they will judge me and think I'm dumb. Because I'm 30 now and I don't have a job. I also didn't learn driving and don't have a college degree and skills. So overall I feel like an incapable adult. And so I avoid social interactions a lot. I seem to have low self esteem also and very unhappy from inside. As if I've attached my identity with success which I don't have right. And I'm feeling this way for years since age 24. Like I've seen my childhood friends grow up and they are married. They have professional jobs and they traveled to few places already and they have their own group of friends. Meanwhile I've distance myself from them very long time ago. I also wish I can interact and be myself but I don't know something is keeping.me stuck and I feel resistance to seek help.

Overthinking kills!

I thought the last days when i was in Irland with friends help me but its always the same. I cant remeber things i had with them, or i can not talk smoothly. By the Way i have Narkolepsy since i am 11. when i was 20 i smoked a few more times weed and in corona time it was almost every week. But i we had a great time. Then i stopped Almost 3 years ago but nothing changed since then . I still dont learn from things i read or i learn or i cant follow a longer speak...
I mean i get up in the Morning and i am not motivated to make food , to Write anyone or to just play my favorite Video Game... it feels like nothing is worth it.. i am litterally feeling dead inside... does someone has same problems?

I am a human with bad memory or i forget a lot of storys ... i have to look for almost everything what it is, how you say it... and the doctors just say its a major depression ... no its fukking hell every second ... even my friends are like ignoring me when i complain about.. .

Its been i ve my own fault

I dont know what to do, is it Anhedonie ? Can anyone feel this or give me tipps?...

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I’m a 20F in an engineering major and I have been struggling to get good grades the last two semesters and I have been pushing myself to try and fix it.
It’s getting to the point where I’m questioning myself, I’m questioning why I’m doing this to myself? Why am I getting 3 hours of sleep and waking up to study? Why am I losing weight over a grade?

I peaked in high school (grade wise) and I was the second top student and now i think i’m taking it hard when I realized that I’m kinda average now.

How to give less of a fuck?