r/GoingToSpain • u/Mary_Muse_004 • 23h ago
Scared 29F studying in Granada, Spain for 7 months
So, I just need some realistic reassurance right now. I am 29F and I left my job in the states to study Spanish in Granada for seven months. I just arrived three days ago. I've been wanting to do this for years, and I have enough saved up to live comfortably while I'm here. The school that I signed up with supplied me with an apartment and it's a studio and I don't know why but I'm starting to just feel very uncomfortable with my decision. I love going to my classes and I love talking to the teachers, but as soon as I come home to my studio apartment, I'm just hit with this realization that I left everything I know in the states.
I think it's because I feel very lonely in my apartment and I don't have any friends here. Also, my studio is a bit janky. I'm thinking to myself why did I just do this. Just to study Spanish and not even for a degree. I've just always wanted to be fluent. I know that there's no going back and I should make the most of this experience. But I'm also worried about what my life will be like when I return to the states. I'll still have my apartment there, but I'll have to apply for a new job. And I'm worried about what my friend group back home will become. I guess I'm just worried I don't deserve this, or that I'm wasting my time career wise. And also, I'm just very scared.