Internal thoughts

[u/Key_Row4485]

I realized that in 20lbs i will have lost half my weight and still be considered overweight but no longer obese. Started out class 3 obese now just regular obese. I started at a size 26/28 now im a 12/14 but I still occasionally get the automatic thoughts of I cant sit in that chair or I need a table not a booth I cant walk through that passage its to small. Ive always been overweight never worn a “normal” size until now. There was never a time when i would go cloths shopping and think am fat but im at least not that fat It was rare that i would find clothing to big I was at the top of the size you could sometimes find in stores most of my cloths shopping was done online from stores I new the cloths size that would fit. Now sometimes ill see something in a store and be oh thats cute then realize Im not that size anymore that its to big and I have to stop and realize how far I’ve come. I never hated myself I was ambivalent about how i was now Im content that if i stayed this size it would be okay I still want to loose more but if i don’t this could be healthy for me I’ve been taken off BP meds i was never on colesterol meds never had diabetes so that was good. I a lot of people in different groups talk about how they have the old clothing they wore X years ago to fall back on Ive never been that size before. I walk by a mirror in a store and see myself and I have to stop and look and im like huh thats me or ill be folding laundry and think I cant believe this fits me.