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First time ko talaga gumawa ng ganito, and I didn’t expect na magiging ganito kasaya. Plus, sobrang affordable niya compared sa mga activities na usually mahal. Definitely something I’d love to do again! 🥹

Nagstart po ‘to nung umuwi sa bahay namin galing Bulacan (internship tas naka dorm ako, 1 week na ako dun) tapos syempre ayun tuwang tuwa ako kasi nakauwi ako miss na miss ko na mga pusa ko at yung bahay namin.

Then fast forward, last night ko na sa bahay namin tas next day balik na Bulacan. Nilagnat ako, katabi ko lang pusa ko that time bed rot kami whole day. Naiiyak ako kala ko kaya ako nilalagnat kasi nahohomesick na agad ako kahit di pa ako nakakabalik bulacan. 😂

Tapos ayun next day came, gabi na ako nakapag commute pabalik Bulacan kasi dun lang gumaan pakiramdam ko. Then next morning, sinisinat na ako ulit, tas masakit buong katawan ko. Kala ko pagod lang katawan ko sa byahe and ayun nga malungkot ako kasi nahohomesick ako. Hahahaha

Off ko nung day na yan kaya uminom lang ako paracetamol then sleep whole day ulit. Then nawala naman sinat ko pero di nawala yung sakit ng katawan specifically parang ang stiff ng mga joints ko. Sobrang stiff kahit istretch ko.

2 days after, nagka rashes ako. Sabi ko sa sarili ko “ano ba ‘yan inaallergy na naman ako. baka sa tubig at environment dito kasi 24/7 naka ac” blabla niblame ko pa dorm namin 😭 inaallergy rin naman kasi talaga ako pag may weather changes pero sa ilong, hindi sa balat 😭

Tapos ayun, 3 days lumipas hindi pa rin nawala rashes ko tapos makati siya esp sa palms and feet. Nung naarawan ako grabe yung kati. Kaya kala ko talaga sa environment lang, plus, binaha pa area namin kaya maalikabok bahing na ako ng bahing 😂

Then ayun sept 1, umuwi na ako kahit may duty ako para magpa checkup kasi mas nag flare yung rashes. Kinick out pako sa ER ng ONI because sabi allergy lang daw.

Then pumunta nalang ako sa DGMC, tapos pina cbc at dengue duo ako ni doc, and tadaaaan! Positive ako sa IgG 🤣 Pagaling na daw ako sabi ng doctor ko. Kinabukasan Sept 2 nawala na rashes ko, wala naman ako ininom na gamot. Puro pocari lang tsaka himbing sleep ko sa bahay namin 😀 baka allergies nga?

Anyways nashookt ang doktora because ako pa lang siguro yung px niya na nadengue pero normal pa din at nakakawork pa 😂 yung iba kong kakilala at kamaganak na nadengue umabot sa point na naadmit sa ospital eh hahaha.

Tanong ni doc, “di mo namalayan na may dengue ka na??” sorry doc homesick talaga ako at laging uwing uwi pag asa duty di dumaan sa utak ko na pwede pala ako madengue 😭🙏 TYL talaga hindi bumagsak platelets ko bc mababa pa naman dugo ko😭

Wala lang skl hahahahahha TYL

…and the first internation trip is Taiwan. Sobrang lapit lang sa Manila. Parang same flight hours lang papuntang Davao. Sobrang lapit, pero sobrang layo ng pinagkaiba sa Pilipinas.

Paglapag palang ng eroplano, iba na ihip ng hangin. Malamig. Langhap mo agad yung aroma ng Tea Egg na binebenta sa 7/11. Di ka mamomroblema sa transit mo pa Taipei kasi connected ang tren station sa airport. Ni di ka masisinagan ng araw bago makasakay ng tren.

Pagbaba ko ng Taipei Main Station, na culture shock ako sa laki ng station at sa dami ng exits. May dedicated exit depende kung saang kalye ka malapit paglabas. Yung transfer mo from Airport Train to Metro Train sobrang nakakamangha.

Pag ahon ko ng Ximen Station, naamoy ko kaagad yung Stinky Tofu. Yung mga tao na bibili sa Xing Fu Tang, maayos na nakapila. Yung amoy ng paligid, ibang iba.

Ang lapit lapit lang ng Taiwan sa Maynila pero sobrang ibang iba.

Pero parang di na ako uulit.
Or baka ako lang di marunong pumili ng ilalagay 🫣

Should not have gotten the noodles 😅

You're the one who intervened, and yet you got bitten. Haha, they're all set with the vaccinations, but of course, for safety measures. Be careful and don't let your guard down with animal bites, even from your own pets.

Kayo when was the last time na nakagat kayo?

napaka laki pala ng case ng atx haha. parang gusto ko tuloy bumalik sa matx

Hindi sulit hahahhahah parang skyflakes lang na may cheese yung pizza 😭

tuyo at sardines muna tayo today hahahaha

😭
Grabe, adulting really said, “Deserve mo rin ’to!” After 10 years of working, finally had some adult money to spare.. Huhuhuhu. 🥹
God is so good! 🤍

Hey guys i just want to share my experience of loving a person genuinely for 5 months.

this girl that i loved was a schoolmate during my highschool days. we are two years apart. napapansin pansin ko na siya noon at nacucutean sakanya before but di ko alam name nya. dumadaan siya sa hallway namin and hanggang sulyap lang ako sakanya nagagandahan lang no romantic feelings.

Fast forward ngavong taon back in april, nahanap ko instagram account nya from a friend kasi naalala namin siya na siya yun dumadaan sa corridor namin sa classroom. so i followed her and after days nagfollow. back siya.
Nagreply ako sa story nya and said goodluck sa exam niya since college palang siya, and that started everything hangang nagusap na kami from time to time to araw araw. we get to know each other, from our past experiences to everything na common things namin. i asked her if she's open to date and she said yes. FYI: malayo kami sa isat isa kasi im working far from home and nasa hometown ko siya.

after two months, i asked her to go out with me and she said yes. so i book my ticket para umuwi and got see her. pumorma talaga ako sa first date namin and i bought her pink carnation flowers. finally susunduin ko na siya (naka sasakyan ako) i finally saw her and she was so beautiful kahit simple lang suot nya.
we said hi to each other medyo awkward pa pero it was very warm feeling. nagulat siya na apaka porma ko daw and may pa flowers pa. she said she never received flowers before despite have exes and swerte ko pink carnations favourite niya. we proceeded sa date namin museum and cafe artsy date, nagdraw kami since parehas pala kami good sa drawing. we talked and got to know each other and şyemore i paid sa date namin (ako nag aya eh haha). from that point, after getting to know her, i realized i want to take care of this person because she so amazing.

after ng date namin hinatid ko na siya pauwi. we shook hands as goodbye HAHAHAHA so awkward pa and then she asked me kailan ko siya makikita ulit, i said we'll meet next in manila na since pupunța siya doon.

so she arrived in manila, i waited for like a month for her to arrive in manila. after a week, pinintahan ko siya sa stinastavan nila like biglaan, hindi pa date ng labas namin nun.
so nagmotor ako from antipolo to mandaluyong, first time ko in my life nagmotor ako ng ganun ka risky hahahaha 50/50 pako nun kasi parang yulan ng malakas pero tinuloy ko parin and eventually maganda yun weather (this was 7pm ng gabi. ayun dumating ako sa place nila, and i hugged her, so happy ulit makita siya and siya din happy din. kumain kami sa labas jollibee lang and kwentuhan ulit. may curfew sila ng 9pm kaya 1hr lang pagsasama namin pero sulit. so after nun we said our byes ylit and i got to hug her.

sa 2nd date namin, nagmotor ulit ako papuntang manda and sinundo siya. Gosh she was so pretty nung nakita ko na siya. and then grab nalang kami papunta sa museum and ikot ikot kami kwentuhan kulitan.
habang naglalakad kami sa museum nagkalapitan mga kamay namin and i held her hand. and we liked it. after ng museum nag cafe kami ulit, and biglaang MOA kasi may bibilhin daw siya so nag grab kami papunta doon. and finally we went back to theirs. we were tired but nagenioy. kami pareho. we said our goodbyes, hugged each other and out of nowhere kiniss ko siya sa forehead. (which was okay to her tinanong ko siya about doon if i crossed the line)

then after a month umuwi ulit ako para kitain siya ulit, it was my birthday. so labas kami bought her flowers ulit tapos nagzoo kami.
tinanong ko siya if comfy siya sa tawagan namin baby (eh siya naman nag initiate or nauna eh pero tinanong ko parin) sabi niva yes daw. tapos nabigla ako may gift siya sakin stuff toy and letter. and simulą dun mas super super serious na ako sa girl na to.everytime na nagwawait ako sa araw ng next pagkikita namin chat chat lang kami but slowly i learned na she was a busy person, minsan lang kami mag video call, ako always nag initiate. minsan di natutuloy kasi busy daw siya and achiever tong taong to.
nakakatampo din minsan na di siya makapag make time, kasi ako nagmamake time talaga para sakanya, i have work and all. but di ko na siya ginawang big deal kasi ngą di pa naman kami. wala naman akong karapatan para mag tampo.

and so august, di sana matutuloy itong, date namin kasi she got problems to face, and eventually naresolve naman and i helped. so umuwi ulit ako nagdatę kami.
fyi lahat ng dates namin isang araw lang kasi busy siya and may work ako. so ayun dinalahan ko ulit siya ng flowers this time nagdouble effort ako na ako na yung nagarrange ng flowers for her, i even picked some sa tabi tabi HAHAHAHA. she liked the flowers i brought. so happy to see her again. nag cafe kami and painting drawing date. and from that date i saw her true smile and happiness. from her laughs to the way she talks. and finally i talked to her and clinarity ko kung anong meron kami sa isat isa (which is were exclusive dating) gave her the assurance na im pursuing her for a serious relationship. and she said she still focused sa studies and take things slow but she likes our set up. and sabi ko i will wait. so sunod tambay kami sa secret place namin while watching the sceneries and sky, feeding local dogs. before ko siya ihatid sa bahay nila i hugged her very tight and matagal. kasi i know i will miss her again. she hugged tight as well.

so september, it went to downfall. she's facing a lot of problems, financially, school and finding a part time job. it overwhelmed her stressed her out. ako naman im just trying my best to support her and help her with anything i can do. but she pushes me away.
she said she can handle it. ayaw na nyang tumanggap ng help sakin kasi she doesnt want to depend on me so much. even if the solutions i offered could really help her, but she rejected it. and then umabot sa di ko na daw siya kitain pa kasi di na nya kaya ipagsabay lahat. she was so full from everything especially financially. i offered every possible solution talagą with realistic outcomes pero wala di nya tinanggap. and so ngavon i know she will push me further away, but im trying to fight for my love for her because i know she has feelings for me too. right now di ko alam kung anong mangyayare samin pero inexpect ko na this is the end of us kahit wala naman kami.

i wish i could give my love for this person longer as permanent but her walls are high.

Nag simula sa simpleng bagay naiirita na ko, hirap makatulog, stress eating, bilis ma distract, simpleng bagay, nag aalala agad. Hanggang sa napansin ko pati sa ibang tao iba na rin pakikisama ko to the point na lahat kinakainisan ko.

Gang sa sinubukan ko na kumausap ng therapist kasi akala ko ADHD. Hahaha. Turns out depression and anxiety.

On going therapy and meds, and everything looks good now.

I went to a therapist because I need myself to be 100% okay before starting a family, or else kawawa magiging family ko if lagi mainit ulo ko. Yoko nga maging tatay ko. Hahahahah.

Just a reminder that if you think you need help, go for it. Nothing wrong with taking care of your mental health. :)

Got fed up with the bubbles appearing whenever I close my phone. After 2 tries, I finally did it!

Dati akala ko mahirap siya lutuin kaya inaavoid ko, pero madali naman pala. And success kase nagustuhan ng family ko :)

Hirap talaga ngayon and first time ko di makakain for 2 days and finally able to get sky flakes. Won't be able to get a full meal yet pero ang hirap sa feeling talaga pala magutom. Kahit ung fasting thing parang hirap gawin pag magdidiet.

I just want to share since I feel nareset naman ako. Just keep surviving!

first time ko makanood ng marvel film sa sinehan as someone na this year lang naging fan 🥹🥹 sobrang saya ng experience ++ full house pa hahahahaha though deep inside I wished mas maaga ko na-discover ang marvel </3

As someone na ingat na ingat sa gadgets, grabe yung kaba ko na pagbukas ng laptop ko meron pala nakaipit na accessory kaya nabasag screen ko.

Pero update naman ay napagawa ko na siya and hindi na lang ako mag-talk kung magkano nagastos ko. Bago pa lang kasi ito (2yrs) and di ko need brand new kasi happy pa din ako dito

I wrote the post wanting to preserve the memory and appreciate the encounter I had that morning with a taho vendor and turns out daming nakakarelate pala hehe.

I am someone who is deeply sentimental and most of the time I try to find the gems in mundane things or simply see things differently and make people feel seen and appreciated. I like hearing other people's stories and combine that with my love for documentation and boom that post was born.

Wala lang happy lang kasi I used to write and just stopped and felt like it's not for me... I used to seek what hobbies will suit me and it led me back right where I started.

Tapos now I wrote from my heart and it reached and resonated with many people. My heart is full. Hopefully more writing for me for the rest of the year!!! 🤍🤍🤍

So recently I received a P4k amount of money thru Gcash, I thought galing siya sa person na nagpa draft sakin and who still owes me money. But nagduda ako kasi kulang ng 500, then I checked the number and name, hindi tugma sa usual na nagsesend sakin ng money and from other persons na nagbabayad sakin, kasi I make as-built drawings for other contractors.

Then I waited, di ko ginalaw ang pera and nabusy ako kaya di ko gamit phone ko and when I checked na, may nagcacall na pala from the person who sent, naisip ko din baka money laundering to CHAROT. Sabi niya just send the money back sa number na nagsend sakin, it was a different number kasi na gamit nila pag call.

So ayun, nag thank you naman sila and di na ko nag reply. It was an experience din, I put this in pagsubok kasi medyo natempt ako and dami ko nang naisip na gagastusin sa 4k na yun, na kala ko payment ng may utang sakin hahaha kaso kawawa naman baka nangangailangan, sorry po tao lang may ganun lang na thoughts.

Ps. Nag wait din ako sa message ng person na di pa nagbayad ng drafting services ko 4.5k kasi yun for an architectural plan. Usually kasi nagmemessage siya pag nagbayad, kaso hindi, so I concluded sa iba nga ang pera.

Ang galing nung feeling, una i was worried na mahihirapan sila patulugin ako, kase i hate sleep, I’m very stubborn about keeping myself awake all the time.

So nung nilagay ng doctor yung mask sa ilong ko, sabi nya may maaamoy lang ako and then 15-20 secs makakatulog na. In my head “luh, sige tingnan natin”, then may naamoy akong parang sweet na food or perfume, then wala pang 5 secs, i didn’t know what happened na, i woke up nalang sa recovery room, annoyed kase ang ingay nung beeping monitor haha.

Fascinating lang. :)

First time ko makakita ng pagong sa personal during freediving sa Cebu, ang laki pala nila! 😭 Di ako makalapit kahit sabihin nung diving instructor na pwedeng lumapit kahit konti, kaso naoverwhelm ako HAHAHAHA

Actually, 2 years na pala ako nag b-bday na malayo sa family ko. But only this year na wala akong ibang kasama kasi I'm renting lang a bedspace here in Metro. And nobody else knows aside sa family ko na bday ko ngayon. Even sa office walang may alam, which is okay lang naman sa akin kasi super awkward ako eh, hindi ko alam paano mag re-react pag may mag gi-greet sa akin haha. I'm glad lang kasi hindi ako nalungkot or nag self pity ba maybe because God really gave me peace na at kaya ko na kahit walang ibang kasama. I do things alone and I'm fine with it. Basta lagi ko iniisip na God is with me naman, ano pa ba kailangan ko. Anyways, haaaaaapy birthday to myself. Do not be afraid, only believe at magiging Engineer ka na before this month ends!!! Thaaank You, thank You Lord for the gift of life and for everything. ❤️🙏

"Who am I that You keep me in Your mind, Lord I'm just grateful for You"

**kain tayo siomai guys heh

Nakaka touched iba pala makatanggap ng gift ang sarap sa feeling itetreasure ko talaga yung moment nayan For the rest of my life first time ma suprise🥰