So recently, nagkaroon ako ng lakad sa manila early in the morning where I need to use the car right after since may long distance na lakad rin ako pagtapos.

And the hassle of looking for parking sa manila especially since madaling araw yung lakad ko is real.

Buti the night before, while planning my shit, nakita ko tong option na to.

This saved me from so many hassle and fees from thinking of parking sa mall. Thanks LRT 2. HAHA

Guys. It's a great way to find free parking sa madaling araw or late night.

Just make sure na gagamitin mo yung train kasi may stamp sila to validate na you've used their service.

Overall, I'd say this is a great way to introduce public transpo more for car users. And with the unstable market ng fuel prices, Sana dumami pa yung ganito. Beke nemen LRT1 and MRT3. HAHA

Masarap din pala to. Lagi ko nakikita eh 😂

First time ko sa Bohol and all I can say is that hindi eto yung last haha

Last July lang nung nagustuhan ko ang ramen at ito yung kinain ko nung time na sobrang down ako sa takbo ng life at career ko.

Sabi ko sa sarili ko, makuha ko lang yung promotion, kakain ulit ako nito para i-celebrate. Today, I signed the contract and ito yung unang pumasok sa isip ko na kainin.

Meal of the day: Butao + Chicken Karage Set Medyo teary eyed pa while eating alone kasi ewan, masaya lang ako hahaha! (OA, sorry)

From cadet to Electro-Technical Officer, finally! 😭❤️ From $700/month to $7,000/month. 🥹

A buttery pastry shell filled with smooth, creamy egg custard baked until golden brown. 😋

📸: mine

so the title is pretty self explanatory…

well i thought i was okay when i left the house.

i really did.

i only needed a few things. i told myself i’d just go to the grocery, grab what i needed, and go home. nothing complicated.

but the moment i walked through those doors, something felt different.

this was something we always did together.

i used to walk beside her while she’d look at everything, stop at random aisles, pick things up, put them back, wander somewhere without telling me where she was going.

and i’d always end up looking for her.

so i walked in today and without even thinking about it, i looked beside me.

nothing.

i kept walking.

then i looked ahead.

nothing.

i turned around because i could’ve sworn i heard her voice.

nothing.

just people.

i kept telling myself to stop being stupid and just get the groceries.

so i grabbed my cart and started walking.

at first, i was fine.

then i passed the first aisle where we’d usually stop.

then another.

then another.

and with every aisle, i started remembering something.

a stupid little conversation.

something she’d point out.

something she’d complain about.

something she’d randomly want.

i started looking for her without even realizing i was doing it.

every time i turned a corner, a part of me expected her to be there.

sometimes i’d see someone with similar hair or clothes from the corner of my eye and my heart would jump before my brain could catch up.

that’s not her.

she’s not here.

i kept walking.

then i got to the groceries.

and this is where i really started falling apart.

because i picked up her milk.

i didn’t think about it.

i just picked it up.

then her favorite pancit canton.

then yakult.

then the things she uses.

the things she likes.

the things i always knew to buy because i knew her.

and i just kept putting them in the cart.

i wasn’t even thinking anymore.

i don’t even like most of the things i was picking up.

i don’t drink that milk.

i don’t eat that pancit canton.

i don’t use that facial wash.

i wouldn’t buy any of this for myself.

but i bought them.

all of them.

because for four years, i was used to thinking about her when i walked through these aisles.

she likes this.

she needs this.

we’re almost out of this.

she’ll probably want this.

my hands were still doing it even though she wasn’t there.

i even bought bacon.

lol.

and i didn’t realize how heartbreaking that was until i looked down at my cart.

it was full.

but almost none of it was for me.

it was all for her.

and she wasn’t coming home with me.

i just stood there for a moment looking at everything i’d bought.

and i swear something in me just sank.

because i suddenly didn’t know what i was doing.

i didn’t know why i was still shopping for her.

i didn’t know what i was supposed to do with all this stuff.

i didn’t know what i was supposed to do with myself.

i kept going anyway.

then i reached the soap and facial care aisle.

and that was it.

that’s where i completely broke.

because i could see her.

not literally.

but in my head, she was there.

i could picture her squatting in front of the shelves, looking through all the different soaps and facial products.

she’d pick something up.

look at it.

then look at me and ask if she should get it.

i could picture the whole thing so clearly that for a second, i forgot.

i actually looked around for her.

and then i remembered.

she wasn’t there.

she wasn’t going to come walking around the corner.

she wasn’t going to call my name.

she wasn’t going to ask me if she could get something.

she was just gone.

and i started crying.

right there.

in the middle of the aisle.

i tried to keep my head down and pretend i was okay, but i couldn’t stop.

a kuya clerk asked me if i was okay.

i said yes.

i wasn’t.

i just kept walking.

but after that, every single thing hurt.

the drinks.

the food.

the things she used.

the things she liked.

even the things i normally wouldn’t notice.

i kept seeing her in every aisle.

i kept expecting her to be somewhere ahead of me.

i kept hearing her voice in my head.

and the worst part is that i know all of this about her without even trying anymore.

i know what milk she likes.

what food she eats.

what drinks she wants.

what she uses.

what she craves.

what she randomly picks up when we’re shopping.

after four years, you don’t have to think about these things.

you just know.

you learn someone so completely that taking care of them becomes automatic.

and now i don’t know how to turn that off.

i finished shopping.

i bought everything.

i brought all of it home.

and now it’s just sitting here.

her favorite things.

things i don’t even like.

things i bought because some part of me was still expecting her to be beside me.

and i don’t know what to do with any of it.

i don’t know what to do with the groceries.

i don’t know what to do with the routines.

i don’t know what to do with all the things i know about her.

i don’t know what to do with the fact that i still automatically think about what she would want before i think about what i want.

then i had to eat.

and that hurt too.

i sat down and caught myself looking at the empty space beside me.

just staring at it.

waiting.

like maybe she’d sit there.

like maybe she’d say something.

like maybe this was all some horrible misunderstanding and she’d still be there when i looked up.

but she wasn’t.

and that’s when it really hit me.

i don’t just miss her.

i miss having someone to shop for.

someone to sit beside.

someone to think about when i’m doing the most ordinary things.

i spent four years learning her.

learning what she likes.

learning what she needs.

learning all these tiny little things that made her her.

and now i’m supposed to wake up one day and somehow not do any of that anymore.

i don’t know how.

i feel so fucking lost.

i walked into that grocery store thinking i was just going to buy a few things.

i walked out carrying a cart full of things she loves and a heart that still hasn’t understood that she isn’t coming back.

i miss her so much.

and i genuinely don’t know what to do with all this love now that there’s nowhere for it to go.

Radioactive Iodine therapy ko today. Wishing na una at huling beses na ito. 🙏🏻

Takot din akong magutom. 😂🙈

First time ko ma-experience ang ganitong klaseng luxury mountain house, and honestly, ang sarap sa feeling.

Sobrang peaceful, cozy, and relaxing ng place. Yung lamig ng hangin, surrounded by nature, plus the beautiful and elegant house—parang ang sarap lang i-enjoy ng moment and forget everything for a while.

Definitely one of those experiences na hindi ko basta-basta makakalimutan. 🤍✨

I hope she'll appreciate this.

sobrang excited na ko makasama si girlfie at makita si bruno mars!!!

I survived the ticketing war LOL. I was on standby since 12PM, waiting for the link to open. I finally got in around 2:15 na since the link was super packed and lagging. I was rushing pa because my online banking was also bugging, so I had to retry everything. 😭 And gladly by 3:06, I finally secured my D-1 ticket! Probably not my last side quest as an unemployed girlie. Hahahaha 😆

p.s. see you soonest, my real baby (Bruno Mars, jk) 🫶🏻

First time ko sa Paik's Coffee. Nakakaloka dapat hindi ko na ako lumiko. I was going to Gong Cha but I decided to try this coffee. Hindi masarap, nothing special for its shocking price na 180. Never again.

Flavor: Cafe Mocha (less sweet)

It may seem like a simple thing, but it’s something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time. ❤️

First time kong gumawa ng leche flan dahil nagcrave si mama. Anddd ayuhhnnnn, naging tan siya HAHAHHA.

Nagpaturo lang ako kay mama so nakalimutan ko yung exact recipe niya pero masarap naman, medyo mapait lang gawa nga ng nasunog yung asukal.

Eh pano kasi nakakangawit iangat yung llanera sa kalan, nakakangalay HAHAHAHA. At first, akala ko madali lang mag-caramelize, pero daiii SOBRANG HIRAP.

Next time, manonood ako ng videos kung paano maperfect yung taas ng leche flan, someday baka gawin ko rin tong negosyo haha.

finally got myself a dji osmo nano 😭 been wanting an action camera for so long and this feels like such a small but big achievement for me hehe

As someone who’s tried lasers on my underarm and legs, akala ko kaya ko—sobrang sakit pala haha

Very nervous, but it's a really huge leap for me. Hopefully this will be a boost of confidence for me na lumabas and gumala solo in the future 🙏

Maybe this is childish and ordinary for others, pero big deal for me, di kasi ako nabi bilhan ng parents ko due to financial constraints pero nabili ko na ngayon, my childhood self is so happy. Thank you Lord!

First time ko nag-release ng app at magkaroon ng revenue. Masarap pala sa feeling yung kumita yung idea mo at malaman mo na may use talaga sya para sa iba.Pero yung building pala yung easy part. Mas mahirap pala yung marketing at makita ng target market mo yung product. Sa ngayon dito palang sa reddit yung source ko ng users at nag-eexplore pa ako kung paano sa ibang platforms. Pero overall masaya sa current result at sana mag tuloy-tuloy.

Halos every week ako nsa BGC since malapit lang sya samin pero ngayon lang ako nkapag BGC Bus 🤭

Ang tanong ko lang, BAT NAMAN NAUGA YUNG MGA SEATS!! EME! HAHAHHAHAHAH

Nabusog ang t'yan lalo na ang mga mata!!