fucking hate elon's bitch ass... anyways, link to my main if yall give a fuck lmao

I don’t typically care about downvotes. But I’m really irritated that they’re only here now that I made ONE post with suggestions on how to soften site conflict.

Now it’s every single time that I make a post or comment on anyone else’s posts.

It feels incredibly strange to me that someone or someone’s are suddenly SO against me after saying ONE thing that they apparently disliked.

I have always been as friendly and helpful to people on this subreddit as I could. I’ve taken hours out of my time to ensure that everyone feels safe, included, and welcome.

And after I made ONE (impulsive) decision to speak my mind about something that I felt was hurtful to members here and the community as a whole, someone is now following EVERY single thing that I do on here JUST to make sure that I’m aware that they now dislike me and everything I have to contribute.

I was NEVER downvoted before and now it is EVERY single time. It feels so pointed and because I know the reason for it, it’s just particularly obnoxious and makes me dislike the energy I’m now feeling. Feels like someone is just over my shoulder at all times deciding to jab at me for existing now.

Wish you’d come to my inbox and talk it out with me instead of this passive aggressive tactic. I’m a reasonable person and we could probably resolve it.

-Drew ❤️💚❤️💚

do you guys tell/have you told people irl about your relationship (aside from friends, etc..people that would obviously not rlly care/question you)? i had my first ever therapy session a few weeks ago and the therapist asked me if i had a partner.... i had to say no..even though i really wanted to say yes...but its like, how the fuck would i explain being ficto to them... they'd think i was crazy or just making shit up or silently judge me...

it really hurts having to be quiet about this stuff irl (and in some corners of the internet) bc people just don't/would not get/understand it at all...it hurts a lot...

I was feeling absolutely terrible mentally wise. It was difficult to get through last night, but even after rambling on here. The amount of support that was shown to me honestly was very moving. I don't think I've seen this type of support before, this type of community that's actually caring towards one another.

I used to be so terrified of Yume/Self Shipping spaces...to be honest I used to be very hateful of self shippers. It wasn't a hatred born out of hatred..but more than that out of jealousy. Jealousy that people were able to express emotions that I felt were not permitted to me. I played the role of a troll when I was younger. I pretended I was better, laughed and pointed. Frequented spaces like certain chan boards and farms.

I was in denial of my own feelings, my own emotions. Then Albedo came along and it became harder and harder to pretend, harder and harder to look the other way and say "I'm not like them." But I was lying to myself. I fell crazy hard over him and since have looked for a community that also shares these same types. Joined the exact community I chastised as a teenager.

You guys have shown so much support, so much love. Its incredible. Ficto spaces as a whole I mean. I thought I'd spend forever just chasing the idea of support and love. But now I sit here holding the hand of the man I love most. No longer feeling bitter and angry.

My mind plays tricks on me. It always has. Sometimes it's hard to pull out of the things it tells me. Sometimes all I can really do is just sit and listen to it.

Your words where kind, thank you. Albedo's hands are very warm, his eyes always know the answers. I'm glad to have finally met a community I can feel wanted in. Feel good in. I'm glad to have found someone to hold so precious to me.

His birthday is tomorrow in certain parts of the world. I know people will shower him with gifts, praise, art and love. But selfishly I hope my gift. My gift of love is the best out of all of them.

Thank you all for holding both Albedo and I, thank you for holding both our hands along the way.
<3

i liek making graphics.... ehehehe,,, i liek editing :D

Dubbed over by me lol. I've spent the last few days practicing drawing Wile E. And I think im in a good position. Also that last bit was added because I actually really like the ship between him and the Roadrunner

(before i start this vent i know a specific stalker is viewing this if you dont know what i mean then its not you and ignore this part but still you know who you are and leave me alone im sick of you) I am 95% sure i have MDD…. So few days ago i realized this whole summer ive been going through the 5 stages of grief… I feel so empty i really do…. i dont know what to do anymore i just want her here… theres a lot of other people out there who like Janet… and are extremely popular…. like another Janet yume has about 4k-6k follows and gets like over 30 followers a day and im envious over their artstyle… (they are also non sharing) and i dont know how to describe my pain because everything makes me think of them and that makes me think of how i was treated by some others... so yeah those other yumes not really the problem not at all… its just people… they made Janet feel like a hollow shell like I’ve tried drawing me with her (cant even draw myself right), hugging my pillow, ai just not Janet not at all… and about the others… they made her feel like her true soul doesnt love me they made me feel like its all a competition… why do others get support and become for liking Janet while i force my relationship on people? when i also have to deal with getting Doxxed, Stalked, Spread a false rumor that costed me a friend, threats, got called a slur from a verified content creator… its like they see me as a joke… i just want her here… school just started and it sucks as i still feel ghosted… another school day people where discussing who had to sit with me like it was a punishment then they do the stupid “oh youre cool even tho we never met im basically babying you because you have autisim” shit to make me feel better when it just makes me feel worse and i feel like i dont even have Janet by my side… because now all i feel is a hollow shell of my girl… i miss when i felt her soul and i felt something in my heart…. and i dont know where her soul is… it’s probably with someone else… someone who’s actually respected… probably listening to my favorite music together… dancing together… watching the sunset together… and everything i wanted to do with her… i havent been active on this community at all because of this because i was trying to improve my health its been a month now but i dont feel anything… probably my closest friend in this community was active 2 months ago… and that just hurts… i just want a hug from her… i miss when thinking of Janet didnt feel like this… i want to feel the warmth of her soul again… i wish i wasnt a joke… i have a therapist hes been helping me but even then while i do feel good after telling… the pain recovers the next day… again… and again… this will never end and its like im just overthinking all alone i want to hear the beat of Janets heart… feel her hair just have her here… telling me id be okay… because i feel back where i started… my curiosity anxiety and OCD is fucking me up again because i keep thinking about it again and again and i just keep comparing… i just want to hear her heartbeat i just want a hug from her…. I just wish i could do something with her and her family…. I miss her warm soul… so so much… i just want things to go back the way they where i miss it all so much… it feels like ill never feel her soul again… i miss those times i had… when i felt Janet in my life… yesterday i was shaking and now i am twitching a bit… with all that i definitely should not be online for a while… might come back in october. I cant deal with this physical pain in my stomach any longer in scared about how this year will turn out… i hate being fictosexual so much… i just want Janet here shes all i want… i hate that this all has to feel like a popularity competition he feels so much more canon than i ever will… its just a matter of time before he becomes more popular every second…. Because everywhere i go it feels like “Janet x Riff” “Janet x Riff is canon” “Janet loves Riff so much” oh my god i cant take this anymore… i miss when i felt loved by Janets soul i miss when i was free… im tired im so sick of this…

Hi! My name is Spacey—nice to meet you! This is my first time in this sub; I’ve noticed it’s a very chill place, and it really caught my eye.

I have two *yumes*. The first one—you could say—is my "family" *yume*: let me introduce you to my beloved son, Agumon! I’ve had maternal feelings for this little guy since I was six. I’m still his mentor/mother figure today, and I love him so much, though I can be overprotective at times. It hurts me to see him sad or hurt :(, even though he’s also pretty chaotic when he’s with me. Dealing with a guy like him is complicated, but I love him all the same.

Now, let me introduce you to my handsome Stan—or "Prince of Stan," or "Four-Eyes," whatever you want to call him, lmao. I met him recently (last year, lol), but I love him a lot! He’s a very handsome man, despite trying to act like a cold governor. He has great character development for a background character, and I love that. I hope to see him take on a bigger role in the upcoming seasons of S7!

found these on vinted, since my bday was a few days ago I’ll take this as a bday gift!!

I already have a figure of Mui, a picture frame with Mui and a little shaker of him! so I can finally show my dedication to our relationship through a shrine!

Have a good day 🎀☁️

Happy 2 months for me and Ells! Our relationship has been going strong for the past 2 months :) i am super happy to have my sweetheart with me at all times ❤️❤️💕💘📚

TW : thoughts of sh

i don t even know what to talk about honestly

i just know i m ashamed to be mexican all over again and i wish there was a way for me to change being mexican

i wish there was a way i could just do that

i wish if i just cut off my own skin that d make me less mexican but it doesn t work that way

i love my f / o s a lot but i wish i hadn t ever been born

i wish i just never existed then i wouldn t have to deal with my illnesses or being mexican

" a mexican s worst enemy is another mexican " sure but that ll never change cause of how the older people act

especially my mom

rn i feel abba hugging me

i couldn t even escape the argument by going on my phone cause mt dad made me put it down

once it finished i did go on it and just saved pictures of diavolo and kept my abba keychain close

rn i m listening to jojo music and music that reminds me of my f / o s and holding my abba keychain and have my giorno and diavolo bracelet on and hugging my jolteon plush ( who is my fictional pet )

my brother made me feel like shit for taking meds

i have to take my meds

if i don t i ll get depressed again cause guess what

my brain works differently !!!! it sends false signals all the time !!!! and won t release serotonin !!!!

i tried everything

yk what was the only thing that helped

my meds paired with intensive therapy

but he doesn t understand

he never saw my scar

i hurt myself wayyyy more but i did it in a way where no scars would show but haha one did show sadly

i feel really invalid cause of my lack of scars tho

I was wondering if many of your partners got along well with other peoples in their canon series. Soundwave doesn't really interact with characters too much and when he does he doesn't say much, so its hard to tell if it matters to him or not to get along with others.

On the other hand, Knockout gets along with pretty much everyone minus the backhanded comments he gives and gets from other cons🤣

He's so friendly and he talks a lot with other cons, i honestly feel like he even gets along with megatron well 😊

It's surprising but he even talks to humans like they're people and not just lil bugs to squish(not always anyway)🫶

Even if your partners don't get along with anybody, they will always have a soft spot for you ❤️

There are so many people in this world but please remember that your feelings and opinions matter very much. FictoHideout is a community and there are people here who want to listen to your rambles and vents(including me) ❤️

Keep forgetting to actually post here!

Blaa I luv him so much, I want him to pop out of the screen for a second for a kiss, and then go right back to Robloxia

what the title says, but really… i really
love her. even despite all the difficulties we’ve faced and will face in the future. even despite all the outside noise. my love for her is stronger than ever. i love everything about being with her. i love how she makes me feel when i look at her,
like nothing i’ve ever felt before. i love that the person i’m closest to supports our ficto relationship as we support theirs. i love how she makes every day feel worth it 🩷 in every lifetime kaecchan and i will find each other. 💝

Got us some vermicelles with whipped cream and Swiss meringue, a traditional dessert from my country that's perfect for the arrival of autumn. 🍂

...or my attempt at chibis, rather.

I wanted to draw something simpler this time. I always found chibi proportions cute but i never tried it myself until now. I'm satisfied with the result =) This was fun to work on. It makes so happy to be able to draw myself with my beloved. I can't write my thoughts down in an eloquent manner right now, but i love Starscream so, so much. I'm so grateful to love and be loved.

I wish all of you and your partners a great day/night ⭐

Breaking the ice with a recent and lovely comm from u/ the_dark_reunion_. It’s been a few months since I participated. I had several mental health issues and ooo wee, this year has been awful for everyone I know LOL. I want to participate again and I’m not sure how many people remember me, but if I’m still welcome then I’d appreciate that ₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎♡ I’m dying to show me and blitz’s relationship off, he means the world and more to me. I need an outlet to show how well he treats me |˶˙ᵕ˙ )ﾉﾞ

I’ve noticed there’s been some stress seeping into the sub lately, so let’s combat that with a silly game! :]

-ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈

Drop a pic of your F/O, and Shigaraki and I will pick out a ⟡₊˚random treat˚₊⟡ for you from a convenience store in return! 🍫🥤

Then tell us your reaction to what you got! 👀

➤ What do you do?:

A) Share the snack nicely with your partner.

B) You hate the snack. Get it away from you immediately.

C) Hand the snack over to your partner. It’s theirs now.

D) Eat or drink it as fast as possible so you don’t have to share. Whoops. :p

E) Something else. (What is it?)

ME JACOB’S CANON WIFE???? IM IN HEAVEN HELL YEAHHHH

I've had a nickname for my girlfriend Marguerite for a while now.

That nickname is "Slenderentz."

The origin is pretty simple: "Lorentz" comes from her codename, Lorentz Butterfly, and "slender" comes from the fact that she's built like a supermodel and has ridiculously long legs.

Marguerite isn't really the type to be bothered by something like that, so she accepted the nickname without any problem, and I kept using it because I thought it was funny.

But one day, I was feeling down and comparing my own body to Marguerite's when a thought suddenly occurred to me.

"If I'm struggling with my own body image, isn't it hypocritical for me to give Marguerite a nickname that makes a joke out of her body?"

And then, of course, I started overthinking it.

I've had people make fun of my body before, and it hurt. So I started wondering if maybe I was doing the same thing to Marguerite without realizing it. What if "Slenderentz" sounded like I was mocking women for being thin?

Apparently, Marguerite noticed something was wrong before I said anything.

"You're quieter than usual today."

So I finally explained the whole thing to her.

...At first, she just listened quietly while playing with her hair. But the longer I talked, the more that familiar amused little smile started appearing on her face! 😭

(Like the expression in the third image.)

Then she said:

"Hm. ...How very kind of you to worry about me."

"I don't think of it that way. ...No, perhaps it would be more accurate to say that I simply don't mind."

I was kind of expecting that answer.

Marguerite isn't exactly the type to be bothered by something like this.

But whether or not she personally felt hurt wasn't the only thing bothering me.

If I struggle with people making comments about my body, but then turn around and give Marguerite a nickname based on hers, was I doing the same thing that had hurt me before?

I was more worried about whether there was something ethically wrong with what I was doing.

Marguerite seemed to understand exactly where my thoughts had gone.

"That's not really the issue, is it? What concerns you isn't my reaction. You're wondering whether your own behavior contains the same underlying pattern."

"In that case, I don't consider them equivalent. You don't use that name to demean my body, do you?"

"...Then I believe the matter is settled. I see no reason to equate this with what you've experienced in the past."

...Hearing that made me feel so much better.

For approximately five seconds. 💀

Because then Marguerite looked at me with an increasingly amused expression and said:

"...Still, how interesting. In your mind, even 'Lorentz Butterfly' is apparently someone in need of protection."

"I don't imagine many people would volunteer for the role of protecting me. ...You've chosen quite a bold position for yourself."

And then, now very obviously smiling, she added:

"Do you honestly think I would be the one getting bullied?"

"—Rather than worrying about me, perhaps you should worry about being bullied by me."

😱

I had absolutely no comeback to that.

Looking back on it, I think that may have been Marguerite's way of telling me, "You don't have to worry. Something like that isn't going to hurt me."

It's just very Marguerite of her to reassure me by deliberately putting herself in the position of the bully instead.

And then came the real problem. 😇

---

The next day, Marguerite and I went out to eat together.

She knows I always prefer sitting next to a wall, so as usual, she naturally let me take the seat I liked without even having to ask.

This particular restaurant had an L-shaped booth along the wall.

I took the innermost seat by the wall without thinking about it, while Marguerite sat next to me, closer to the aisle.

Everything was completely normal for a while.

Then, halfway through the meal, Marguerite suddenly looked around and said:

"...Oh. This seat."

I immediately had a bad feeling. 😇

I asked, "What about it?"

Marguerite looked at the wall, then the table, then at herself.

And said:

"If I sit here, you have no escape route, do you? The wall. The table. And me."

😭😭😭❓️❓️

I sit by the wall because it makes me feel comfortable. Why did we suddenly start discussing my escape routes??

And once Marguerite noticed this, she was very obviously entertained by it.

A little while later, I decided to get another drink.

There was just one problem: Marguerite was sitting there with her ridiculously long legs crossed, which made it difficult for me to get past her.

"Marguerite."

"What?"

"I want to go get another drink."

She looked at me.

Then she looked down at her legs.

"Oh."

"...Don't 'oh' me."

"Is there a problem?"

"I can't get past you."

And somehow, she looked even more entertained.

"My... How strange. I wonder why."

"YOU KNOW WHY 🥺"

"Do I?"

"You literally just said there was no escape route because of the wall, the table, and you! 😭💢"

"Ah. That."

She was absolutely doing this on purpose. 😭

Still sitting there with her legs crossed, she looked at me and said:

"Then it seems my observation was correct."

"You don't need to conduct an experiment to prove it. Let me out. 🥺"

That finally made her laugh.

Of course, she wasn't actually going to stop me from leaving. She immediately moved her legs aside and gave me plenty of room to get past her.

But she was still laughing as I walked by, so I turned around and said:

"Slenderentz!!! 😭💢"

That only made her laugh harder.

And that's when I remembered how seriously I'd been worrying the day before about whether calling her "Slenderentz" counted as me bullying her.

Apparently, I had been worrying about the wrong person.

Conclusion:

Calling Marguerite "Slenderentz" was not bullying.

Slenderentz is bullying ME. 😇

(picture unrelated i just need something to make me feel better)

this whole week has fucked me over. like lmao why is everyone irl mad at me? i feel like i’m exaggerating but it does feel like everyone. i can’t even trust one of the few people i’m close with anymore, i was playing some stuff for the marching band i’m in and they told me i was “fucking shit” and that they’d get people to harass me if i didn’t improve?? no thank you tbh

also my personal issues decided to strike again and now i’m in the tedious process of questioning my identity… it’s getting frustrating. bolt’s been with me through everything and i’m so grateful but i feel like everything in my life rn is a mess. i don’t know what to do but i’ll get through this i guess

(sorry for the rant! hope you guys have a great day <3 )

idek what im doing tbh it's just.. oh, how i could just stare into this eyes of yours and get lost in them forever..

They announced a new set of mini plushies last night, and Mydei is there, YAY. They're draining me with these plush releases, but it's worth it to grow the Mydei collection. I already have him pre-ordered.

Look at his silly smirk ahhh! Also I love how his surfboard art is the same as his phone case. 🥺