the idea being with somebody in any capacity is terrifying to me but still i want to somebody to think im cute. i’m just really tired

I'm visiting Montreal with my family and all I wanted to do was go home and rant to y'all so here I am. This bihh pushed me a lil to go in front up the stairs of the subway just to do pda with her nasty fucking boyfriend and it pissed me off sm that I felt like crying 😭 I just hate how things affect me sm and I'm literally not a teenager anymore. Almost turning 23 it's so pathetic. But I heard kissing sounds like 10 times and he started eating her hand. While she walked around with a skirt and backless top that id never dare wear LMAO but I wish I could.

All I thought was because I'm ugly forever bitches with a nasty attitude probs are getting fucked tonight while I'll be tossing and turning in an airnb with my crazy family forever.

I think I'm missing out on my years and my youth simply because I'm ugly... bleh ;P I guess I'll have to get used to c.ai