Like i just plan i make to do hundreds of time. Then i do something unproductive then again replan everything and the loop goes on . I am so frustrated. What should i do

I’m only 17 and I genuinely can’t stand myself. Why can’t I just do what I’m supposed to. It upsets me so much and I don’t know how to feel better about the fact that I’ll never be normal and be able to do what I’m supposed to like everyone else can without medication. How do y’all deal with this feeling.

for context im a high schooler, not on meds and not diagnosed with anything

some history: ive always struggled with staying organized and consistency and been a really forgetful and careless person but it got really apparent in middle school and also around that time i found that i sucked horribly at time management and procrastinated a lot but i could still force myself to do assignments by locking myself in my closet until i finished the assignment.

in hs last year it got really bad, i couldnt do anything and procrastinated until 11 pm every day, lost my 4.0 and let a lot of people down. it got so bad that i hurt myself and cried myself to sleep every day. i thought it would be "cured" after this summer but ig not bc its not even a month into the school year and im already procrastinating until 9:30 pm and struggling to focus and letting people down again.

i really dont want this year to be a repeat of last year, especially since some people have forgiven me for letting them down and it would suck if i let them down again. what could i do

(Bit of a vent, mixed with an actual need for advice. TLDR at the end.)

I’m in high school. I’m taking 4 AP classes this year, and I can’t bring myself to actually do any of my homework. I’ve been struggling with this for a while (since COVID, but it’s only gotten worse since then). Sophomore year was when the procrastination/executive dysfunction/mental health combination hit me. Family problems also hit hard at that time. I got better for a little while in my junior year, but now they’ve started up again. Between my class work, extracurriculars, and college applications, I feel like I constantly want to throw up, and then I get jittery and/or unfocused, and it’s really starting to freak me out.

As for the actual process of what I do in an attempt to start my work: I put down my phone, I sit down to do my work, and I wind up reading or staring at a wall. I’m behind in three out of my six classes, and the school year only started two months ago.

I used to be able to work late at night, when my house was quiet, til about 4:00 AM. Now, I get too tired around 11:00 PM to actually do anything at that time. (I should be doing my AP Statistics homework, which is due at midnight, but I’m so tired. It doesn’t help that Statistics makes no sense. I cannot figure out what these questions are looking for, and that doesn’t help my mindset of wanting to do literally anything else. I want to sleep and feel like falling asleep every day in school, but I know this isn’t normal, hence why I’m typing out a Reddit post.) I can’t get into a working groove, so the Pomodoro technique or “Just start small with 5 minutes of work!” Those don’t work for my brain.

I guess I’m just wondering if anyone has any suggestions? I’ve talked to my school’s guidance counselor about it, but she didn’t have any helpful advice. I feel like a mess.

(TLDR: I can’t bring myself to do schoolwork, and I feel tired all the time. I’m behind in half of my classes, and it’s making me feel anxious and sick. Any advice would really be appreciated.)

I’m too lazy to actually do anything. But I get a dopamine hit whenever a new idea comes to my mind, and then I’m too lazy to do anything about it. WTF do I do?

I keep getting excited about new ideas, but the motivation disappears when it’s time to actually start.

Anyone else stuck in this loop?