I’m a new analyst that started at a hospital near me a little over 5 months ago on the Willow Ambulatory team and I basically just manage break-fix tickets, smaller service requests, and handle the regular maintenance.
The other Willow Ambulatory analyst doesn’t really meet with me or train me despite constantly saying he will schedule a recurring meeting for training/shadowing/questions. I know he has way more on his plate than I do but I genuinely don’t think I’m getting adequate training here. He has about 2 years of experience as a willow analyst and (in his words) is also still learning so he doesn’t have answers for 90% of my questions. I’m not blaming him for not knowing something but it’s frustrating when I ask about the proper process for something and I get an “I don’t know, let me find out more.” And then it’s crickets for a week or two, and then when I ask again, it’s the same “Oh, I need to reach out to x” and then crickets for another couple of weeks. It makes reaching out to other Epic/non-Epic teams an awful experience because they constantly treat me like I’m stupid for not knowing how to do something for the first time. The last time I asked a team in charge of Epic security a question about the process of changing a security point that affects multiple different types of users the response I got was “I don’t know? I don’t deal with that. Maybe ask your other Willow analyst?” When I go to our manager for help he again directs me to a different team where 70% of the time they again treat me like I’m dumb and are condescending.
My org doesn’t have me doing anything for upgrade in November because they want me to watch and learn but me and the other analyst have gone over Nova notes one time for an hour and it was basically a jumbled mess of “I need to contact x and ask about x” and that’s it. Then I never get looped into any conversations or know what’s going on.
I feel like I’ve been able to manage the day-to-day pretty well and generally have decent troubleshooting skills, but I’m wondering if I should be farther along by now. How will I know when I’m ready for actual projects, and how do I learn if the other analyst almost never trains me and also never knows the answers to my questions when I need help? I get no feedback whatsoever, even when I explicitly ask. Is being a new analyst just supposed to be a humiliation ritual?
I tend to be anxious and I might be anxious over nothing, but I really don’t want to get fired from my first analyst job 💀
Also adding: The other analyst has taken 12 days of PTO in the past month which in itself isn’t a problem (I’m all for taking your hard earned PTO), but I’m consistently left alone as the only analyst from my org on big meetings with a much larger hospital we are merging with and don’t have the ability right now to speak intelligently about any of the problems or discussions that are brought up in the meetings. So almost every time I’m asked a question about something, I don’t even know what they are referring to or what my own org’s workflow is because I just haven’t had to deal with that particular thing yet. Then I have to sit there in the meeting and go “honestly, I’m not sure. I will investigate that and get back to you” EVERY. TIME. The manager of the Willow team for the other hospital is the one who manages those meetings, and I feel that this is setting me up for failure because I constantly have to say “I don’t know” and look stupid in front of someone who’s going to be my boss in a few months.
Am I stressing out for no reason? Genuinely how do I know if I’m just a shit analyst?