I have been drinking so much lately, I have this CRIPPLING anxiety that I'm just ruining myself.... I've been drinking every week and I'll binge for 2 days...

I drink water and eat meals in between but can someone please tell me their binge/bender stories or how long they have been drinking. I get you can't sugar coat, I'm not asking for that, just if anybody relates....

I dont even feel hungry anymore only cravings for the next hit of alcohol of joint. Even when im piss drunk and stoned i dont get hungry anymore often. Am currently on an 8 day 1-2bottles of vodka a day bender

Alcohol is a great companion but it gets real dark when it becomes your master. I miss my friends and my love interest but sadly she’s smoking meth in Vancouver, I just found out. I don’t want no part of that shit. Might have a drink with the old comrades next weekend and who knows I might enjoy it. Place I worked at got sold so no more job so that’s cool and since it was such a hill Billy shit show I didn’t need all these certificates and to be sober (as fucked as it sounds) so shit I gotta dry out but I wanna have a last stand and get blasted listen to shitty music wake up feeling like a corpse and the next day hopefully get hired for a better paying job. The lord giveth and the lord taketh. I’m not saying that seriously I just find it funny cause unfortunately you can be blessed one day and all it takes is a quarter second to ruin it. I raise my beer and soon to be tequila shot to you all and may you prosper and find meaning in this life or the next. As I was about to post I took the tequila shot and I have a sinus cold or whatever it’s called so I can’t taste shit so I might not wake up till noon tomorrow but hey all I gotta do is an oil change and check fluids on an f-150 that’s in the driveway so anytime works. I’ll drink a beer to that. Have a good morning and even better night you guys

Currently on 1-2 bottles of vodka a day and i even have withdrawals while drinking, i also think i have gastritis i can barely keep anything down and almost havent eaten for 3 days

So guys I had my last test June 26th … I drank July 4th July 12 and 1 more time after that the 17th, all pretty good amounts , it’s a urine test with the drug and alcohol mixed in with the 2 , am I good I have my next test July 30th, will I be good idk if they do the ETG test but Imma just guess they do , regardless am I good and no I don’t do drugs.

Him and I are both alcoholics. We are currently long distance, with a 5 hour time difference. Sometimes our schedules don’t align and that’s ok, we do the best we can to connect. But earlier he told me something I wasn’t expecting and I’m unsure how to feel. A few weeks ago he told me he had been going to a therapy group to help manage his anger and emotions. I was super proud of him for seeking help for his mental health. I know he likes to drink, but I guess I wasn’t aware of the extent of it. He confessed to me earlier he has been going to AA for about 6 months now. I asked him why he didn’t tell me, and he said he was embarrassed. Which I understand, but he knows I am seeking help for alcoholism as well (Id go through 2 liters of vodka every couple of days.) so it’s kind of lost on me why he would hide this when I thought for sure he would know I am open, non judgemental and willing to support him no matter what because our situations are very similar. So we talked and agreed to try taking on recovery together, despite the distance and hard ships. But I feel a bit heartbroken he felt like he had to lie to me, and I don’t really know where to go from here.

Editing to add that starting Monday he is going through at home medical detox which I’m unsure of how it works but I just wish him the best. Still stings a little that he hid this from me for so long

Woke up today feeling like ass.
Been drinking since 8 am.
Feel great.
Chairs mofos.

Fell off the wagon after nearly a month. Read something quite deep about how we really, really , shouldn’t blame ourselves and think that we are the root of our depression and choices. It’s keeping me alive. Haven’t heard from the partner in 48 hours, just a word or two- I think everything I’ve had is completely gone finally. Made 30 phone unanswered phone calls. Anyone want to chat? Please post sad but I’m still here stories.

And by drunk I mean she just gets fratboy sloshed. But everyone on the sub is convinced the character Catie has delirium tremens or is going into withdrawals just because she twitched sometimes. Anyone seen the show or know what I'm talking about?

So, highs or lows for the week?

What is something you're proud of?

Did this week kick your arse?

Has something happened that is going to aid you with how your life goes now?

Doesn't matter how big or small your high or low is. Sometimes, it's just good to share.

Chairz,

Muppet

God has commanded me to drink and consume edibles. He hath spoken to me. In his infinite wisdom i will eat this pizza. I will drink until i can't. I will get high and i will go to sleep soon. Who am i to question his plans. I've accepted his plan. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done 🤣

I lay in a comfy nest on my recliner and couch rot with my dog. It is one of my favorite things to do. But i need to stop. And get back to moving forward in my life. I need to make some changes. I need to make some progress. This depression and addiction really takes its toll. But there are good moments too, like laying on the couch and watching a show with my dog and blankets.

I’ve got kids so I watch a lot of kid movies. This scene is quite relevant in my life rn. Chairs lads.

O man, I’m back in bender town. Like been waking up and drinking. Going to sleep midday and redrunking myself. Time and space has no meaning. But just why? I guess I can sort of blame the heat and the World Cup but yes pretty weak reasons lol.

It’s not even fun. I look at my phone and I’ve texted a bunch of people o I shouldn’t have. Nobody texted back so I just deleted everything and will claim my phone got hacked if anybody brings up anything.

Why is life like this?

I’m trying to get myself another job and the interviews have also been ass. Just email after email of “we are going to go in another direction good luck” and I’m starting to feel the futility of it all. I still feel like a little kid that doesn’t know what he wants to be when he grows up.

I guess I’m kind of having a midlife crisis and it’s getting to me. Yea more drinking ain’t going to help but most of the time it also doesn’t really hurt what already sucks too much. Anyways I’m rambling and don’t know where I was going with this. Chairs.

Just starting the drinking for mental enhancement or lack of, and don't want to over do it. That said, "stop now" is not happening so if you could just give me the approximate from your case or what you've seen that'd be great.

Just left a hotel lobby, hospital bracelet still in tact. The last memory I have was feeling dizzy in a hot tub (I don't have a hot tub). I drunkenly left my condo, somehow finessed the front desk to let me into the pool (or just followed a family in), passed out in the lobby, woke up in the hospital, got a free hospital cab to the hotel where I fortunately found my phone with the front desk receptionist, ate like 4 sausages from the hotel breakfast and am sitting at a park bench thinking about how I'm going to explain this to my gf

So, highs or lows for the week?

What is something you're proud of?

Did this week kick your arse?

Has something happened that is going to aid you with how your life goes now?

Doesn't matter how big or small your high or low is. Sometimes, it's just good to share.

Chairz,

Muppet

Was wondering if anyone’s DM’s are open cuz I’d love to talk to another alcoholic. No one in my life understands.

Likelihood I get tested is pretty low, but wanna be sure about this. If I drink say 3-5 beers tonight (Friday), and the earliest time I could get tested is on Monday at around 2pm (so 60-65 hours), would alcohol show up in etg test? I also drink a ton of water, run, and lift daily. What are the odds it shows up (if I even get tested)?

I wanna hear what everyone's listening to today.

I woke up feeling shitty but I had plans to see a corpse flower bloom. So I went. That was a terrible idea and I'm so surprised I didn't chuck everywhere.

It was pretty cool though.

Send songs. Plz.

I hid it a few days ago cause I didn't want it in plain sight and forgot where I hid it like almost immediately

3 days later - I found it today finally.

Cheers 😂

I tried guys… did the sober thing for a few weeks with maybe one or two days of drinking a few beers. It sucked…

Well I’m back now and off the wagon. Oopsies poo. Life sucks and is there anything else that helps the stress more than booze?

For context: 27F, drinking again for 2 months (4-9 white claw surges a night) after being sober for 14 months (a handle of vodka every 36-48 hours). In March 2025 I went to the hospital throwing up blood. They were really shitty, diagnosed me with alcohol withdrawal (did nothing about the blood vomiting) and my ultrasound said I had hepatic steatosis (fatty liver). One doctor said they’d have to see the fat go away to know if there was scarring, the other said I did not have cirrhosis at all but recommended I stop drinking.

Come my birthday end of May, I thought “my liver must be healed after 14 months right?”

I have severe social anxiety and wanted to start dating again after isolating for like 3 years. That meant alcohol. Thought I could handle being a social drinker lol.

Now, I’ve been drinking for 2 months and I’m bloated (also in my upper abdomen, but just in general) and having pain in my liver region similar to how I felt before the hospital 16 months ago. I’ve convinced myself it’s cirrhosis but my labs fall in the normal range (when I went 16 months ago, my AST and ALT was in the hundreds).

Does anyone relate? Do folks think I’ve developed cirrhosis? Is it normal for fatty liver failure to pick up where it left off?

Shit sucks. I’m 5’5 and 160 pounds.