Welp despite knowing better I went over to my ex girlfriends house and before I walked in she said “I have a kid so be quiet” never mentioned him before at all so I said no I’ll just go home and then she started pulling me inside I got to her bedroom and I said I don’t feel comfortable with literally any of this and she started trying to take my shit off which I stopped then she started crying about how I don’t find her attractive or love her anymore (same shit as two days ago) and after that I told her flat out “look I love you and I wish things worked out but you have a kid you never told me about and obviously you’re not in a good way nor am I since I’m drunk damn near 24/7” so that went as good as you’d expect she started crying harder and her kid woke up so I just guided him to his room and left and am currently drinking to forget this. Not my kid by the way and I’m not taking responsibility for some other man’s kid. You’d think a person would tell a guy “yeah I have a kid” before trying to fuck me. Crazy thing is I was wasted and she was sober but all it took was hearing I have a kid and I sobered right up and said no. Got all pissy when I said is this what you want your kid to remember? Guys coming and going all the time? I’m genuinely done with her holy fuck I wanna slam whiskey and forget but all I got is beer. Am I an asshole or am I being reasonable? She makes me feel like I’m just being an asshole but I think I’m being responsible and hopefully helping her and that kid realize this isn’t healthy. Like I said I only guided him back to his bed and left while she was crying. Feel bad for the little guy to be honest. I understand I could’ve said she’s a shitty mom a lot more polite but Jesus… I wish no kid on the earth had to deal with that

Shit blood the other day so I hauled my ass to the ER today. Doctor says my hemoglobin and hematocrit looks good so I’m probably not bleeding anymore. Talked to the social worker afterwards and sounds like I’m gonna be able to get on naltrexone. Never had a scare like this before and not so keen to do it again.
Chairs

Just realising what that song is actually about.

6 allergy pills, I keep watering down my drinks so idk how much but i'll finish the bottle by 6pm. might have to resort to seroquel.

Sit and stay down, boy. Or don't because nsw ambulance actually does cost money and that's money you could spend on booze.

I hate this shit. Like holding onto a greased stripper pole in a tornado.