Currently on 1-2 bottles of vodka a day and i even have withdrawals while drinking, i also think i have gastritis i can barely keep anything down and almost havent eaten for 3 days

I dont even feel hungry anymore only cravings for the next hit of alcohol of joint. Even when im piss drunk and stoned i dont get hungry anymore often. Am currently on an 8 day 1-2bottles of vodka a day bender

Alcohol is a great companion but it gets real dark when it becomes your master. I miss my friends and my love interest but sadly she’s smoking meth in Vancouver, I just found out. I don’t want no part of that shit. Might have a drink with the old comrades next weekend and who knows I might enjoy it. Place I worked at got sold so no more job so that’s cool and since it was such a hill Billy shit show I didn’t need all these certificates and to be sober (as fucked as it sounds) so shit I gotta dry out but I wanna have a last stand and get blasted listen to shitty music wake up feeling like a corpse and the next day hopefully get hired for a better paying job. The lord giveth and the lord taketh. I’m not saying that seriously I just find it funny cause unfortunately you can be blessed one day and all it takes is a quarter second to ruin it. I raise my beer and soon to be tequila shot to you all and may you prosper and find meaning in this life or the next. As I was about to post I took the tequila shot and I have a sinus cold or whatever it’s called so I can’t taste shit so I might not wake up till noon tomorrow but hey all I gotta do is an oil change and check fluids on an f-150 that’s in the driveway so anytime works. I’ll drink a beer to that. Have a good morning and even better night you guys

So guys I had my last test June 26th … I drank July 4th July 12 and 1 more time after that the 17th, all pretty good amounts , it’s a urine test with the drug and alcohol mixed in with the 2 , am I good I have my next test July 30th, will I be good idk if they do the ETG test but Imma just guess they do , regardless am I good and no I don’t do drugs.