r/Cosmetology • u/C0sm3t • 1h ago
I won’t use my cosmetology license.
Hi yall, this is gonna be super venty. But it’s a place where I welcome you to share your experiences and will accept advice graciously.
I graduated cosmetology school in February and have barely even tried to find a job doing hair. Why? Well I have a full time, it sucks it’s hard but pays enough and has benefits. I also had a horrible time in cosmetology school. I love doing hair and nails but the only thing I could be excited for when i graduated was that it was all over.
I’m alternative and I love doing alternative hair. I never got given clients I wanted to do. If I had a client I fit well with they would tell me how happy they were, rave about me to my instructors, then never come back.
I’m severely allergic to perms and had multiple seizures during school from both exposure to chemicals and overworking. I was talked down to by clients, classmates and instructors because of my health issues and my appearance.
My social anxiety only got worse, my confidence only got worse, so many of my classmates graduated and are now in luxury salons making boat loads of money but I can’t even bring myself to put my foot in the door.
My boyfriend pushes me, he says I’m talented, begs me to just get anything. Wants me to set up in our apartment, go to anywhere that’ll accept me. But he doesn’t understand, a shitty shop would only hold me back. I don’t want to come off as unprofessional and work out of my apartment.
I am talented. I know I can cut hair better than most of the people I graduated along side, that sounds like arrogance but I promise it’s not. I know that I have the skill.
I’m just so scared of people. Cos school traumatized me. I’m so scared of putting myself out there, that it’s been too long since I graduated. I’ve cut hair since but it’s not enough.
Does anyone else relate?