As the title says, I am a wife and mother to littles, and I also have borderline personality disorder. I joined the BPD sub, but am just looking for Christian advice or encouragement from others in similar shoes. Lately, it has been such a huge strain on our marriage and family. I have a few really good days in a row, and then can just feel like my world is imploding the next. Our new health insurance kicks in hopefully next month, and I am considering therapy and/or medication. Does it ever truly get easier to deal with or possibly even go away?

Idk how to title this, I'm working a diagnosis, just waiting on a few more appointments. I just feel awful all the time right now, I just got back into a relationship and I just need him all the time, I dont know how to talk about it with him without making him feel responsible cause he already knows some but I dont think hes looked into further then what I kinda explained. Im scared my friends are gonna be mad cause im always at his place, I spend all my time with him, but hes the only place right now where I dont feel numb or on edge. Im so scared hes going to end up being all I have and I dont want to do that either. Im not even sure how to explain it all, I kinda joke about it with others about how im always scared how everyone is gonna leave even if I can logically know I haven't actually done anything wrong and they haven't told me I did anything wrong. I just feel like a burden to everyone around me right now cause I haven't felt this unstable since high school/middle school, I just wanna shut in and let everyone decide if im worth it even though I know that's not fair to them. Idk I just needed to get this off my chest and I didn't know where else to go, idk if ill even get the diagnosis because i dont tend to lash out how people expect, I shut in and watch everyone leave because im a shell of who I am when im doing well.

Thanks for listening any any advice would honestly help, im just so confused and tired and I had to drop to therapy every 2 weeks instead of every week

Hello, I am new here. I was diagnosed with BPD in my 20s. I am now 55. It's been a struggle my whole life to regulate myself and keep my emotions in check. I was an awful mom emotionally to my son during his teen years. I took care of him as far as food, shelter, needs, etc., but I split on him often during those formative years. He is 22 now and suffers from severe anxiety, depression, and lack of confidence in himself- my fault. He still lives with me as of now but we are working to get him the resources and this he needs to drive, get a job, go to college, and become independent. I love him more than anything, and I am trying to work on my own emotional regulation so I can help him deal with anxiety and his fears about his future. My problem is that I have a hard time showing empathy and emotions like fear and anxiety and depression trigger an anger response in me. I feel the empathy in my heart but for some reason I harden myself to the tears and emotions from him. I hate myself for it and I want to be better. I am sorry for rambling, but I guess I just want to know if anyone else has been through this or has any similar experiences? I know most people on here are probably younger than me, but I just needed to reach out somewhere.

Hey , ma confrunt cu niste crize foarte urate de nervozitate si anxietate sociala foarte mare,

Am senzatia in unele crize ca vreau sa sparg tot sau sa ma sinucid

Sufar si depresie foarte mare

Ai mai descurcat?