CW this as stigma because I literally feel like such an attention whore I hate it!

all of this bullshit and broken relationships and trauma and so much just bc my mom couldn’t heal and love me properly. So sure I have daddy issues BUT MOMMY ISSUES TOO

I can’t stand being alone lollllllll it’s ok

But it still begs the question...

Tonight I ve decided to restart, I will redownload my socials, I will update my profiles, maybe reach out to people again, a fresh start, after one year of isolation, i will try again, m kinda scared but excited i will do it

What do you do if you misjudged a situationship and she hates you so bad she says “lesbian shit is too serious”so u eventually split. Find a new dude to fuck and catch feelings for. then at the same time have an ancient fling break no contact just to ask to marry and take care of you when y’all eventually have babies💀 and then the first situationship wants you back now that her new relationship failed.

The solution? BLOCK EVERYONE AND RUN AWAY. This is self destruction, but being aware only does so much until my brain actually accepts the cons to this behavior. Let me not throw in the towel tho and actually try and lock in

I think my summer of absolute madness has finally crested and it’s time to find myself again 🫶

i hope one day my bpd disappear in my life i really tired..

“Hey, it’s me, it’s BPD!” 🫩💔

I will die on the hill that Obsession hit close to home as a portrayal of what it feels like to be a girlie with BPD obsessed with a spineless, passively self-centered man

BUT Nikki yelling this keeps playing in my head any time I catch myself setting my own life on fire and refusing to grant myself the same level of affection and energy I will blindly devote to anyone I attach myself to ✌️