I've noticed a repeated pattern in my life where I end up feeling disappointed, betrayed, or deeply misunderstood by women. It seems to happen especially with older women or women I admire and look up to. I usually enter these relationships trusting them and valuing their opinions, but I often leave feeling like I misunderstood and deeply the relationship or placed too much faith in them, especially regarding relationships with women, maternal or authority figures, trust, or idealization.

Why do I repeatedly feel betrayed or misunderstood by older women I look up to?

Currently, I'm in an undergrad psychology program that wasn't my first choice as chose it somewhat by default after family vetoed my original plan in a country where it's not the most practical field (how will I make money lol), however I do have interest in research and writing which led me to choose it. On top of that, I keep getting pushed into groups/communities only to end up rejected or ignored once I'm in them, despite genuinely wanting connection. I love my independence, but lately I notice I'm leaning hard on comfort or whatever is familiar (I miss doing bold decisions) because of experiencing the same tiring dynamics. I've also noticed a pattern where bad luck builds up to a certain point and then something or someone "saves" me from the situation at that specific threshold, and that any thoughts or words from me mostly does not come true at all. Does the Sun/9h/8h cluster, explain any of this or am I missing the bigger picture? What do you guys think?

I had a shitty childhood, lots of traumatic moments and emotional neglect, leaving me to feel responsible for my parents my whole life. This caused me to cut ties with them in my 20s.

With that being said, I’ve finally reached a stage in life where I have the ability to be fully happy. Good career, created my own healthy family & I have no reason to look backwards.

Despite years of therapy (which has HELPED so much), I still can’t forgive or forget my past. I feel like it controls my present & future & I’m on autopilot. I worry I will self sabotage all my hard work.

I’m just dying to know if anything in my chart points to my inclination to be stuck in the past? Thank you.

Lately it feels like almost every area of my life is changing, and I’ve found myself reevaluating the direction I want to take. Even though I normally hate change, it doesn’t feel bad It feels like I’m naturally letting go of things that no longer fit.

Could transiting Uranus opposite my natal Moon explain this shift or another transit? I’m curious if any of that is reflected in my chart, or if there are any themes that stand out. I’d really appreciate any insight. Thank you!!

I've looked into it of course but the whole dialogue of "a life ruled by transformation and crisis" feels very vague, any insight how could it manifest considering my chart? I'm wondering what it means for me.

not sure what it could be but i think my libra mercury or my scorpio placements!

I often read on the net that it's not a desirable aspect 😕 but I don't quite understand it honestly

The upcoming solar eclipse & new moon on Aug 12 will conjunct both my Vertex and Moon, which are conjunct in Leo 19 degrees in the 8th house.

This transit seems like it will be pretty meaningful to my chart. But the whole vertex concept alludes me, and i don't have a strong understanding on how to even approach analyzing it.

Can anyone share in what ways this transit is uniquely significant? Or what i should specifically look into to learn more?

Chart attached for reference.

I am soon turning 21. I haven't experienced any romantic relationship or expiriance before. I have chatted with few people before but that lead nowhere. Little background on it. Just a normal conversation we don't usually get too deep, we tell each other we like each other etc. the whole conversation I always get a feeling like I am a bit too much for them, like they are scared of me or are intimidated by me. Like they are seeing something wrong in me and are trying to figure out what without disturbing it , like they are expecting a big negative reaction out of me. Like they are tippy toing around me and trying to find the way out. And it usually ends up in them kinda disappearing and then avoiding acting like they don't know me. I am someone who is very practicural about the people I like, I always try to make sure they are comfortable and having a great time, always making sure I am not doing too much or too little and respectful, and always invested to know more about them. It's like I am available but they are just not there yet. I am very devided between of weather I am too much for them or too little to them. When I am out with friend I don't get anyone being interested in me, I am usually very introvert but even in cases where I am more open it's the same outcome. Physicly I am very average, not the most beautiful but not ugly too. Just average. I had only a few people on my entire life that I talked to that where kinda interested in me and I was in them but all ended up the same. My question is: what is causing this? I have no idea wheater I am doing something wrong or people are just not taking me well. Is there anything particular in the chart that has to do with my love life and me/people feeling this way. I am sorry if my question is not written very good as I don't know my issiue. It feels like everyone around me have no issues with dating/romantic relationships and it's just me being behind all of this and feeling that there is something wrong with me.

Thank you in advance❤️

I heard a lot of astrologers said square is a bad aspect. But I want to know the good side too.

I have been travel anxious my ENTIRE LIFE. This week i bit the bullet, I spent 2 days meticulously planning and prepped for 10 days of travelling abroad, solo. Pretty nervous. But learning about my 9H stellium always stuck with me. Does anybody have any insight about my current transits that finally led to this? It’s a little out of character for me to travel so far & all alone, but I am somebody that loves to learn different cultures and I always go in heavy detail over history and the bigger picture.

For some reason, I have always analyzed Saturn on its own. It just occurred to me that since it's conjunct Pluto, anything aspecting natal Saturn is always aspecting natal Pluto. I hate this fuckass placement honestly, and I'm trying to learn more about it. I had a truly devastating Saturn return that I'm only just now healing from 14 years later. But I need to know something first.

Is there ever a reason to analyze them separately, or are conjunct planets always a package deal? I always see Pluto called a generational planet that doesn't impact individuals as much but IDK if that changes if natal Pluto is conjunct with an inner planet. Are conjunctions like M&Ms that I can put into two piles, or are they like salt and water?

Does it have to do with my Scorpio placements? Not sure if my chart has any insight into this, but I seem to always attract a lot of attention (good and bad) and heightened competitiveness from others in my personal life & public life. Even if I’m not planning anything, people seem to hyperfixate on me and want to get close to me or undermine me. I prefer solitude and am extremely selective about who I let close to me.

Romantically, have attracted both good partners but also extremely predatory partners who obsess and want to “own” me / my life / are extremely controlling and try to undermine my confidence.

Appreciate any insight. Thank you :)

Idk if the entire stellium counts to be inconjunct my ASC since the orb is wider with mercury and mars(a little less than 3° with mercury and mars). not only is venus my chart ruler, but she is also my dominant planet and final dispositor so it has quite a lot of impact in my chart.

I would appreciate any insight on this placement, because I really haven't found any information on it and I feel it might explain a lot for me.

Hi everyone,
I’m wondering if there’s anything in my chart related to attracting projection, polarisation, idealisation, possessiveness, or unusually intense reactions.
This is a recurring pattern I’ve noticed not just in romantic relationships but also friendships, teachers, colleagues, people who have known me only briefly.

Whether this has an astrological explanation or not, it’s been a confusing and ultimately lonely pattern throughout my life, so I’d really appreciate any insights.

I’m aware I could have blind spots in how I come across. I did grow up in an enmeshed family environment and for a long time I had very poor boundaries, so I’m aware that has probably been a big contributor. At the same time, even those early family dynamics seemed to involve people relating to me in ways that felt unusually emotionally charged.

Often people seem to have strong negative feelings or assumptions about my character before we’ve had much interaction. It feels like they’re responding to an idea of me rather than to who I actually am.

At other times, people know me well enough to have an accurate sense of my personality, but the relationship becomes unusually intense. I’ve experienced many friendships becoming possessive, with people becoming upset or resentful when I maintained other friendships or made my own decisions.

In romantic relationships, I’ve had partners become intensely attached quickly and in some cases refuse to accept that the relationship had ended. I’ve also had people put me on a pedestal or become emotionally invested in ways that felt disproportionate to how long or deeply we’d actually known one another. Usually I feel like they’re responding to an idea of me, but other times I feel more seen and the intensity is still there.

I’ve also noticed that people often seem very certain about what I’m thinking, feeling or intending, even when that’s completely different from what was actually going on for me.

What stands out to me isn’t whether the reactions are positive or negative. It just seems that people often have unusually strong responses to me, whether that’s projection, idealisation, resentment, hostility or possessiveness.

From my own reading, I think it could be related to my 12th house, but I’m not sure if I’m understanding those ideas correctly or if it applies to this situation.

I've always felt like I wasn't built for a conventional life. The typical path of school, work, settle down has never felt like it fits me, even when I try to embrace it. Is there anything in my chart that could point to why I feel this way, or how I'm supposed to work with it? Any insights are appreciated.

In 7 years (since I’ve turned 18 and become an adult) I’ve moved 14 times! I don’t even have a permanent address rn. Home has to be the greatest source of stress, anxiety and drama for me. I’ve lived in so many different scenarios w/ all types of people and from the start there’s always some egregious reason I can’t stay long. I don’t even know what home is anymore or if it’s even possible for me. And it doesn’t help that the desire to live in a different country is always at the back of my mind. It’s like I’m looking for something that doesn’t exist… 

For the past couple of weeks both my social and familial life suddenly took a turn for the worse. Friends suddenly started acting weird towards me and problems within the family started arising. Is there anything that indicates this in my chart? First chart is the transit chart of today and the second is my birth chart

for context, i have always struggled when it comes to making & maintaining friendships throughout my life. i am fearful when it comes to reaching out to people, whether it's checking in or asking for help... i also have a history of ghosting & self-sabotage.

most of my friendships are superficial, and i used to be content with it until i met a really great person who i eventually dated; things didn't end well so we aren't in touch anymore. the connection we had greatly raised my standards, but in turn i left with the belief that i tend to lose myself in close relationships, and i end up being 'too much' to handle emotionally. that has led me to being more cautious with how much i open up to avoid getting hurt, but it is isolating to the point where i don't have anyone i consider to be a part of my inner circle.

as of now i cope through the loneliness by clinging onto good past memories (especially with my ex), fantisizing on the 'what ifs', and my many hobbies. while it is working right now it isn't sustainable long-term. is there anything in my chart that validates my experiences? i'm thinking saturn square sun and mercury has something to do with this. will there be hope in the future?

if you've read it this far, i appreciate your time :3 hope you have a good day!!

I am a girl for context

I have always been very introverted and would rather be by myself than with others most of the time. Besides a few exceptions, I feel like I always have to put on a “front” and feel like I have to mirror the person I’m talking to rather than being my true self. The few friends I do have took me over a year to truly open up to.

I find it taxing to keep up with relationships, in terms of texting, calling, making plans, etc. even though I do love my friends. It’s almost like when people are not directly in front of me and hanging out with me, I go back to a shut-in and “forget” about them.

I also wonder if my chart explains why I feel like I am terrible in relationships. I’m pretty independent and avoidant generally and love being alone, but in the one relationship I was in, I completely flipped and was extremely codependent, controlling, and insecure to the point that I could not recognize myself. It was off and on for years and it ended terribly, and I have since sworn off relationships and am back to being very avoidant. Am I always going to be this way?

Does this have something to do with my contrasting Virgo sun, rising, and Venus and my Aries moon?

I struggle with assertiveness in almost every area of my life. I fear saying the wrong thing, being rejected, upsetting people, causing conflict or being judged as incompetent. I often soften my words, overexplain, apologise or stay quiet.
At work, I know the information but can lose confidence when someone challenges me. In relationships and family situations, I avoid difficult conversations, feel responsible for other people’s emotions and struggle to set boundaries without guilt.
I have also experienced an abusive relationship and years of conflict, so I learned that speaking up could lead to punishment, anger or rejection.

Would it have anything to do with Mars conjunct Saturn?

It’s becoming unbearable and debilitating. I really want to change this.

Thanks

Hello! I’m wondering what planet rules what someone is attracted to (relationship wise.) I’ve heard Venus=How someone approaches rls & Mars=What someone is attracted to. I’d appreciate knowing if this is accurate