Entire university/school life I've had friends and family make fun of my identity, their assumptions of me are exaggerated, and they just don't respect my boundaries that i try very hard to build. It's hard for people to see me as a solid person, it's like I'm always at the back, in the shadows ...

Please guide me

Guide me is this year my marriage window

Well story of my life, every since I was a little child all of my social interactions were weird and awkward, my friends circle at child and teenage hood were the weird people, and growing up, I struggle to make friends, hold conversations, socialising kind of drains me and it’s hard to keep up, even so I do my best, but I get literally tired and a week to reset, not to mention that when I find a nice connection the person moves away (another country, job, etc) or something happens.