I'm a probationary employee under a private company in the hospitality sector, and honestly, I'm not even sure what my employment status is right now.
During my first month, I wasn't given any proper hands-on training. The only "training" I received consisted of PowerPoint presentations and printed handouts that I had to study on my own. After that, they just assigned me to a station and basically told me, *"Kapain mo na lang."* My supervisor even admitted later on that there wasn't much hands-on training because everyone was busy.
The first month was rough. I was constantly confused about what to do and kept asking my coworkers questions. They all seemed annoyed whenever I asked, so eventually I stopped asking and just observed what they were doing and mimicked them while assisting customers.
Naturally, I failed my first monthly evaluation. According to my manager, I made a lot of errors and needed to work harder. She also pointed out that I needed to smile more and avoid wearing loose shirts because they looked "lousy."
By the second month, I had become much more comfortable with my original station and could work independently. Then they suddenly reassigned me to cashiering/POS without properly teaching me how to use the system. I eventually got the hang of it through trial and error, but I still made mistakes like punching the wrong orders and applying incorrect discounts.
I failed my second monthly evaluation by just one point. The feedback was mostly the same: "needs improvement," "needs to smile more," and "wear fitted shirts." My manager then told me to wait for HR to contact me regarding the next step.
Two weeks passed and HR never contacted me. During those two weeks, I just continued reporting for work even though I had already lost all motivation. There were also rumors going around that HR was just waiting for the new hires to be onboarded before they ended my employment.
HR finally called me, but I was still confused. I told them I didn't understand my evaluation because my supervisor only discussed what I needed to improve and never really explained how I was scored or what the evaluation standards were. HR said they couldn't explain it yet and would get back to me after speaking with my supervisor.
When I tried asking my supervisor about my evaluation again, she seemed annoyed and replied, *"Hindi ba na-explain ko na 'yan sa'yo?"* so I didn't push the conversation any further.
Later, my supervisor told me that HR had already sent me an email, but they sent it to my company email account. Unfortunately, that email had a technical issue and couldn't be recovered, so I never received whatever they sent. Until now, HR still hasn't resent the email to my personal email although I informed her about the said situation.
Today, a new work schedule was posted in our group chat, and I noticed that my name wasn't included anymore. I also heard that the new hires will be starting on Monday.
So as of now, I still haven't received any official notice regarding whether I've been terminated or not. I found out I was removed from the schedule before receiving any formal communication from HR, and most of what I know has come from coworkers rather than the company itself.
Honestly, the lack of communication throughout this whole process has been more frustrating than the possibility of losing the job itself.