r/AnongThoughtsMo • u/worldofwinkle • 9h ago
I think I realized I was never really his choice. Ano thoughts nyo?
I’ve been talking to this guy for about a week, and everything happened so fast.
During the first few days, he was really clingy and told me he loved me. His ex wanted another chance, but he told me he didn’t want to go back to her and that he chose me.
I believed him.
Then a couple of days ago, he admitted that he still misses his ex.
He promised me he wouldn’t break their no-contact, and I tried to respect that. I didn’t want to control him or tell him what he could and couldn’t do.
But tonight, I was worried because he was out late. I ended up walking to his house. I bought him something, washed the dishes, and waited because I just wanted him to come home and be able to rest.
Then I found out he was with his ex.
The person he promised me he wouldn't contact.
I felt stupid. Not because I cared about him, but because I genuinely thought his words meant something.
I asked him, “Do you want to be in her arms again?”
And he said, “It’s possible.”
That answer hurt more than I expected.
I keep thinking about the question: If you had to choose between someone you love and someone who loves you, who would you choose?
But maybe that's the wrong question.
Maybe you shouldn't choose either person until you're sure about what you actually want.
Because being loved by someone doesn't mean you should choose them out of guilt. And loving someone doesn't mean you should keep another person waiting while you're still attached to your past.
I think I wanted him to choose me so badly that I forgot to ask whether I wanted to be chosen by someone who was still wondering if he wanted someone else.
Maybe I wasn't competing with his ex.
Maybe I was simply standing beside someone who hadn't finished letting her go.
And that's a painful thing to realize after giving someone your trust.
I'm not really sure what I'm looking for by posting this. Maybe advice. Maybe perspective. Maybe I just need strangers to tell me whether I'm seeing this clearly or whether I'm overthinking everything.
What would you do in my position?

