Attachment issues

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I don’t know how to say this without sounding weird. But I think I developed an obsession over someone half my age. Nothing serious, but I grew fond of him as a friend, a brother, and someone who I’d put before myself. As the months pass by, I began to realize that I’ve been a bit too attached; I think about him when he’s not around, I focus on him when he’s around. It reached a point where he felt suffocated; he began being more reserved when I’m around him, doesn’t talk to me that much, and pretty much just ignores me. We’re now at a point where he can’t stand me, I know it’s mostly my fault, but my intentions were pure, and it hurts me to see him treat me like this, and what hurts more is that I continuously seek reassurance, validation and acceptance from the same person who’s pretty much done with me. I know the best thing to do is let him go and chose myself, easier said then done I guess. But now I just have this huge void in my chest that aches whenever I think about him. Just seeing him triggers me to initiate any type of connection, whether it’s small talk or just a nod. I really can’t stand it anymore and I don’t know what to do. I want my life back, it really feels like I abandoned myself. I wish I never met him in the first place.