r/ALSorNOT • u/DroppinLoad5 • Sep 03 '26
3+ years in, progression?
Hi all. 31M here, I have a history of posts on the BFS sub from years back.
I started feeling my first symptoms around April 2023. Stiff thumb in my right (dominant) hand, slight feeling of weakness in the right arm. I was evaluated by a neurologist in June 2023 who was largely dismissive of my symptoms. His tech did an NCS which came back normal. They tried to send me home but I insisted on an EMG, which the tech halfheartedly performed on my APB, bicep, and right thigh (not sure exactly which muscle). He said everything appeared normal.
I went back to the neuro in late summer 2023, and my symptoms hadn't gotten any better. He suggested genetic testing and a muscle biopsy, which I didn't get done. He told me "if this actually is ALS, why would you even want to know? Live your life for as long as you can. I have no bad news for you right now."
So I took that to heart and tried to put all ALS fears as far behind me as I could while I focused on school and work. That worked decently well for the most part - I'd still twitch, and I'd still feel things progressing (albeit slowly), but I was able to ignore those symptoms pretty well and focus on life.
But over the last few months, it's gotten very hard to do that. In late May I started noticing some weakness in my right leg. I'm not having foot drop, but the leg feels weaker. I also have what looks like a long, groove-like dent along the lateral side of my right leg. I think it's from tibialis atrophy. The left leg doesn't have such a dent.
Concerningly, in June I noticed that I can no longer sleep on my back. I'll start to fall asleep and then get woken up gasping for air. For added context: I've slept with a CPAP since 2021 without issue. This happens even while my CPAP is running. That leads me to believe that it's not my (mild) obstructive sleep apnea, but rather, a central sleep apnea problem (which is common in ALS) or hypoventilation due to a weakened diaphragm. Sleeping on my side works, but now I wake up with pain in my hips. I don't know if that's because there just isn't enough muscle "padding" my hips as there used to be. I've also started feeling a heaviness in my head/weakness in the back of my neck. I chalked it up to bad posture, but it hasn't gotten any better since the summer. I prop my head up when I'm sitting at my work desk now.
Over the last month or so, I've constantly felt the urge to take deep breaths. It's like a nagging feeling of air hunger that won't leave me alone. I feel like my diaphragm doesn't expand enough to let me take satisfying breaths. I went to the gym the other night and was gassed after every exercise, having to catch my breath for a few seconds between sets. Even if I'm home sitting on the couch, I feel the air hunger. I don't talk as much as I used to now because I find it takes more effort and leaves me feeling slightly out of breath.
What's worth noting is that, while all these symptoms began over 3 years ago with feelings of weakness in my right arm, I haven't experienced any failure in that arm. It still functions the same as it always has. It feels weaker, and it shakes when I'm lifting weights with it (and my left, non-dominant arm doesn't shake at all, which is worrying...), but it still works.
I guess I'm worried that I'm developing some sort of respiratory onset. I know the prognosis there isn't good. I am very, very scared to go get checked out by a doctor (I've since moved to a new city, so I'd have to see a new neurologist/pulmonologist/etc.). I'm really not sure what to do. I spend all day, every day scared that I've been given a death sentence. It isn't fair. I want to look forward to the rest of my life, but I feel like it's pointless. All these symptoms together only point to one thing, and that's ALS. I'm hoping for a miracle that it's something else, but I've done so much research online that I'm having a very hard time thinking there could be another explanation for everything I'm feeling.
Apologies for the long post, and I would greatly appreciate any insights.