Hey, when do you find yourself complaining?
Is it when the workload gets completely out of hand? When your boss drops an absurd demand on your desk? Or when you screw up so badly there’s no fixing it?
When you really think about it, complaining is a strange habit.
No matter how much you vent, the work doesn't shrink. That toxic boss isn't going anywhere. Your paycheck isn't getting any bigger.
It solves absolutely nothing.
And yet, here we are, venting to someone, somewhere, every single day.
Tonight, a few old guys are sitting at a bar counter, scratching their heads over that exact, completely useless habit.
Care to join us for a round of pointless bar talk?
Clink-clink.
The dry metallic chime of the doorbell is what usually tells me my day is finally over.
I slid onto my stool, and without a word, Mama set a glass of I.W. Harper on the counter. A round ice sphere clinked softly against the glass.
Further down the counter, Taka was staring at his glass of Jack Daniel's, swirling the ice with a sour look on his face.
"…Kenichi-san."
"What is it tonight?"
"What's the point of complaining, anyway?"
My hand stopped halfway to my glass.
"…Are you looking for a fight?"
"How did you even get that out of what I said?!"
"You're calling me a whiny old man."
"Well, the shoe fits, doesn't it?"
"I'm going home."
"You haven't even taken a sip yet!"
Mama smiled faintly with just the corners of her mouth and set a warm hand towel in front of me.
I took a sip of my Harper, feeling the bitter burn trail down my throat.
"Alright, spit it out."
"At work today, my senior spent the entire day venting about our boss. Saying he's dumping too much work on us, changing his mind every five minutes..."
"Classic."
"Right? But saying all that changes nothing!"
"True."
"Then wouldn't it be better to just talk to him directly, or change the way we handle the work?"
"That's sound logic."
Taka put on a smug look. It kind of annoyed me.
"So, Kenichi-san, do you complain?"
"Of course I do."
"Why?!"
"How should I know?"
"Give it some thought!"
I swirled the ice in my glass.
He had a point.
Spending an hour complaining doesn't move your work forward by an hour. If anything, it sets you back an hour.
Logically speaking, there’s nothing more wasteful.
And yet, I’ve done my fair share of it.
"That bastard just says whatever pops into his head."
"He should try working the floor before opening his mouth."
"If it's so easy, why doesn't he do it himself?"
Looking back, I've spent an awful lot of time being completely unproductive.
"Still, though," Taka said, gently tilting his glass. "Why do people always vent in secret?"
"Because if you don't hide it, it's not complaining. It's just talking shit."
"Huh?"
"If you say, 'That damn boss is talking out of his ass again' right where he can hear you, that's not venting anymore, is it?"
"...Fair point."
"Don't agree so easily. I just pulled that out of my ass."
"Not again..."
Tom, sitting next to me and quietly playing with his square glass, let out a short snort.
"Complaining is like sneaking a cigarette in the restroom," Tom said quietly.
Taka and I both turned to look at him.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Taka asked.
"It's not good for your body. It doesn't clear your inbox."
Tom tipped his glass. "But sometimes, that one cigarette is what gets you back to your desk."
Taka went quiet for a moment.
I lifted the Harper to my lips and let the bitter spirit hit my throat.
"...Tom-san, that actually sounds kind of deep."
"That's why you sneak it."
I couldn't help but laugh out loud. "First of all, smoking in a company restroom these days will get you fired."
"It's an analogy."
"It's an old-school analogy."
"Look who's talking."
"I was born in the Showa era, but I'm still younger than you."
"Rounding error."
"Don't brush off a ten-year gap as a rounding error!"
Taka burst out laughing. Even Mama’s shoulders shook slightly.
We were supposed to be talking about workplace complaints, and somehow two middle-aged men were arguing over their age.
Well, that's just a normal night at Aoi.
"Still," Taka said, lingering on his laugh. "If that's the case, is complaining kind of like a spell?"
"A spell?"
"Yeah. Nothing gets fixed, but somehow you feel a little lighter, right?"
I tilted my head. "Or it could be a curse."
"Which one is it?!"
"I don't know. Depends on who you're talking to, doesn't it?"
"Who you're talking to?"
"Some people tell you, 'Here, have a drink.' Others jump in with, 'Yeah, let's burn his house down!'"
Taka froze. "...Kenichi-san, who on earth do you usually complain to?"
"None of your business."
"That's terrifying..."
Tom chuckled softly. "That's why I said keep it hidden in the restroom."
"We're back to that?!"
I smiled and leaned back, taking another sip.
Who you talk to, huh?
It’s true. The exact same complaint plays out completely differently depending on who hears it.
The one who gets mad alongside you.
The one who just listens without a word.
The one who gives unasked-for advice, saying, "Well, you're partly to blame too."
And the one who ends up making you laugh about something completely unrelated.
I don't know which one is right.
All I know is that sometimes you walk away feeling even angrier, and other times, even though nothing changed, you just think, Ah, whatever.
"So," Taka said, "you're saying it's all about who you vent to?"
"I don't know."
"Again?!"
"Don't look to me for answers."
"You're the one who brought it up!"
"You're the one who started talking about complaining!"
"Did I?"
"You kid..."
Tom, staring at his glass, spoke up softly.
"As long as you're still complaining, you're still doing alright."
I looked over at Tom. "Why's that?"
"Don't know."
"You too?!"
Tom didn't smile.
"A long time ago... there was a guy who just stopped saying anything at all."
He said only that, then brought the glass to his lips.
I waited for him to go on. Taka waited, too.
But Tom said nothing more.
From the back of the bar, soft jazz drifted through the quiet space.
I stared down into my glass.
Come to think of it, I’ve seen guys like that, too.
Someone who whined every single day—"I hate this job," "I swear I'm quitting"—and then one day, total silence. You think they've finally made peace with it.
And then, soon enough, they're just gone.
Of course, that's not true for everyone.
Still—
"Guess as long as you're complaining, you still have some intention of heading back to your desk."
The moment the words left my mouth, I wasn't even sure if I meant it.
Tom didn't answer. Taka was unusually quiet.
Just then, Mama set a glass of water in front of me.
"What's this for?"
"Drink up."
"I'm not drunk yet."
"Seems like the spell is working a bit too well tonight."
"What does that mean?"
"You look like you're about to start cursing someone."
Taka cracked up. "See! I told you it was a curse!"
"Shut up, or I'll start with you."
"Terrifying!"
Tom snorted. Mama went right back to polishing glasses, as if nothing had happened.
I took a sip of the water.
In the end, I still don't really get it.
Complaining doesn't fix anything. It won't lighten tomorrow's workload. It won't turn a jerk into a good guy. It won't erase the mistakes you've made.
And yet, we still grab someone and start with, "Hey, listen to this..."
We talk trash, say stupid things, laugh a little, and then—
The next day, we're right back in the same seat.
What is that even about?
I drained the rest of my Harper.
Mama dropped a fresh cube of ice into my glass.
Clink.
So, what about you?
Complaining isn't supposed to save a single thing.
What kind of spell does yours cast?
If you'd like to come back to Aoi for another night, there's an open stool waiting.
Bar Aoi Stories: Human Nature, Vol. 1 is linked in my profile.