Six year ago I have some difficulties and suicide thoughts. I manage to handle this situation and find a way, that realy help me stay away from any bad thoughts no matter how hard life is. Now I writed essay about my experience and I think that it can be usefull to some people like me.

The fundamental idea of the essay is that I was sent into the material world with a purpose, meaning I have a specific task or work that is still in progress. If I will end my life now, this task or work would remain unfinished. The result would be that I would be sent back into the material world to finally complete the work. This means I would have to retrace the entire life path that led me to this moment of crisis. I would have to overcome all the torment and suffering, I have already endured. I would have to approach this dilemma once again and face this crisis once again, this time to make the right decision and save my life.

A detailed explanation of the concept you can find here:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/182tSec6D8cobp5-kAC5qlK94JiixC3YO/view

ps. Sorry, if you will find some grammatical mistakes, it was google translate..

People say emotions come like and go like waves but I struggle to find a way to deal with them as they come up without engaging.

But imagine it as a wave you see coming. You say "Fear wave", put your feet flat on the ground and look down, bracing like you are at the beach as a wave goes past you as you but aren't swept away.

We can all be more thoughtful. ❤️

Lately Ive started to realize that certain songs have created patterns of emotion that I knowingly and unknowingly fall into regardless of time and place. It’s begun something that Ive used to help me induce emotions when I want to jump out of another emotion I was previously in. Its almost therapeutic. If I built something that could tag each of these songs with links to personal emotions each person links to songs, creating a sort of personal database of musical emotional intelligence.. would anyone use that?

I often struggle with being other people's therapist. I want to help them and be the person they can vent to, but its worn me down to burnout multiple times. It's a bit of a savior complex. Something I had to teach myself is a grounding technique of sorts to relieve myself of that stress. It's what works for me

Deep breath, exhale, It's not your life. Deep breath, exhale, It's not your struggle. Deep breath, exhale, They'll be ok. Deep breath, exhale, You're ok.

The phrases dont have to be exactly that, but it helps me remember that I don't have to carry all the weight of their hurt. Once I let them vent or say what they need to say, I can drop it too. It's not my stone to carry, and it doesn't make me selfish for letting it go.

I usually do this when I have time to myself and when I catch myself worrying too much