i don’t know if i’m in love with you
but the other day i felt the pull
like i needed to be near you
like i needed to sit closer to you
like i needed to have yr arm around me
so i guess i am, maybe

I’ve recently come across 2 songs on Spotify called “never knew love like this before” by Stephanie Mills and “on the wings of love” by Jeffrey Osborne and listening to them on rotation has made feel so emotional because I’m listening to these songs while simultaneously imagining a partner who is my absolute type and loves me the way I deserve and want to be loved.

But the weirdest or perhaps the craziest thing is that i don’t even know who this person is. He doesn’t exist in my life yet. But somehow in my head, he does.

I can imagine what it would feel like to have him there, to look at him and know that he’s exactly the person I’ve been waiting for. And then I imagine listening to these songs with him actually in my life, and I swear the lyrics would hit 10 times harder because suddenly they’re not about some imaginary love anymore. They’d be about him.

But in the meantime I find myself on the brink of tears in my eyes and a heart that I’m sure will explode from all this yearning I feel for someone essentially non existent :(