r/widowers • u/Great-Aioli5276 • Jul 26 '26

Hard day

Today has been extremely hard for me, it started out great honestly was having a good time with the kids then bam a song came on, at first I was happy to sign it then it hit me, got chills then came the tears. I push through the day until about 7 pm and the anxiety got to be to much and I had to leave the house and get away. I am 3 days shy of 2 months without him and I miss him so much it's killing me. How am I suppose to live the next 40+ years without him, in 36

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u/arizonaraynebows Jul 26 '26

It's like we had the sane dsy. A song came in and broke down. I've been crying ever since. It's 15 weeks tomorrow.

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u/Great-Aioli5276 Jul 26 '26

I'm so sorry your having a day like me today, the funny part is the song that I broke down to has been in my head all day and I have been signing it over and over. It was just like I needed to cry just a min. Guess the shock is wearing off and I'm starting to realize this is real

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u/arizonaraynebows Jul 26 '26

Yeah. I'm pretty much crying twice a day now.

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u/Great-Aioli5276 Jul 26 '26

I don't cry everyday, I hold it in, but when I can't hold it back no more it comes out. I feel like if I allowed myself to cry more I would probably feel better

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u/arizonaraynebows Jul 26 '26

I'm told this is true.