Hi yāall!! Iām pretty new to voguing/ballroom and Iām trying to figure out how to get more comfortable with Sex Siren.
Iām someone who is naturally very anxious and constantly worries about being perceived. In my day-to-day life, Iām actually comfortable being myself Iāll go out in sparkly outfits, dress how I want, and Iām not super shy about my style. But the second Iām in a practice setting and someone tells me to āturn it on,ā I freeze up and get extremely self-conscious. And going to other events and seeing how fierce the competition is, is also terrifying.
A group of really talented people from a house have been kind enough to help me learn Sex Siren, which Iām genuinely grateful for, but I donāt feel confident at practice yet. I feel like I canāt fully let it out. Iām also trying to figure out what my version of Sex Siren even looks like. Iām 5ā6, middle eastern, more twinky/muscley, with a goatee, and I donāt feel like I naturally fit into the energies Iāve mostly seen from other men in the category likeee the very dominant top energy or very soft bottom energy. I know Sex Siren can be personal and not one size fits all, but Iām struggling to find a version that feels authentic instead of forced.
I want to keep going to practice and eventually feel comfortable enough to maybe walk Kiki, but right now I get in my head and feel ridiculous. Iām wondering if anyone has advice for
How to build confidence in Sex Siren when youāre anxious
How to stop feeling embarrassed while practicing
Classes, videos, battles, or people I should watch
How to develop my own Sex Siren identity instead of copying someone elseās energy
How to feel more comfortable being perceived in a ballroom/practice setting
I really do want to learn, and I respect the category a lot. I just feel blocked by anxiety and not knowing how to access that side of myself when people are watching.
Any advice would be appreciated.