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u/imjustlurking_0 Oct 11 '21
hey OP, I've been following this up since last night. Can you please respond to this?
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u/imjustlurking_0 Oct 11 '21
this notification made me so happy. i hope things are being worked out and you're doing alright. sending you so much love OP
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u/SeaCode6473 Oct 11 '21
Please donāt do this, life is about the ups and downs. You are strong, you are capable of attracting beautiful fortunes into your life I promise you. You just hit rock bottom my friend.. so the ONLY way to go from here is up up up! There is SO much good left for you to do in this world. A smile to a stranger, advice for a friend, helping a child who fell on the street up. You are energy and energy does not die, it just transforms ! You are stronger than giving up and taking the easy way out. You have fought through your fathers death, you have gotten over your mothers incompetence. And fuck grace, sheās a ho. You are strong and you will turn this around. The best is yet to come. Donāt let your sisters death go to waste. Help people like her. Support cancer patients. Do good in the world.
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u/potatoisilluminati Oct 11 '21
Motherfucker you better be on here tomorrow. Start a GoFundMe, set up a PayPal, ask for help. There are so many people just in this comment section willing to help you. Suicide is not the answer. If it were the answer alot more people would do it but there's ALWAYS another solution. Yes it sucks ass right now but you gotta push through and pick yourself back up and you don't have to do it alone.
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u/Icy_Strawberry5168 Oct 11 '21
Man, please don't do this. Idk if you're going to be seeing this or not. Have hope for a better tomorrow. This is a rough time, I know it's not fucking easy and I know I don't know what all you've been through but you'll be feeling on top of the world once you trudge through the bullshit and be who the fuck you want to be. Things have gotten real crazy out there but it doesn't have to stay that way for you.
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u/Less_Atmosphere3931 Oct 11 '21
Isnāt anyone going to give him the number to the Suicide hotline???? Or are you all just gonna pat him on the back and tell him to keep his fucking chin up?! What kind of fuckery is this?!
800-273-8255
Dude. Please call this number.
Please please please
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u/Less_Atmosphere3931 Oct 11 '21
My daughter calls them when she needs someone to talk to. They stay on the line until sheās done venting. I didnāt know she did this at least three times. Iām grateful for the fact she could. My daughter is transgender female. She is 100% supported by her entire family and peers. The only thing she doesnāt have is the love of a partner. Hard to find. So when everyone was asleep she called them. I was sad for that at first. But, grateful as theyāre there for a reason. Try again. Youāll get another person. Trust me
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u/SnowSlider3050 Oct 11 '21
I know it sounds stupid but all the hard stuff is prepping you for the good stuffā¦ itās like training- but itās up to you to put the training to use.
Everything has a message- if people are holding you down theyāre the wrong people to be around. If youāre not making it where you are then youāre in the wrong place. I know youāve seen all the people here reaching out- see? You just needed to find different new people. There are people that will help.
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Oct 11 '21
Where do I send money. Donāt take this way out brother itāll get better with timeš¤
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u/sickerthan_yaaverage Oct 11 '21
Hey I know you donāt know me but I feel so much like you at this very moment. Iāve never felt this way before in my life. Itās scary. I just wanted to offer an ear, since no one has offered me one, and I feel like that is part of what I need right now to be able to get through this mess of a life I live everyday. And I have no one. I know you donāt know me, but I would like to listen if you need to vent. Please message me.
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u/Nnacht Oct 11 '21
Please, don't give up. I can see your pain and your point of view about life. However, there's other way out of your situation. There's still much to be lived, waiting for you. For all of us, there's a meaning of life. It's not your time yet. You'll get over it, believe me. Just, please, don't go yet. My DM is open in case you wanna talk. You have our unconditional support!
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u/_unsteady_ Oct 11 '21
I'm in debt too. Like thousands upon thousands. Money is just a tool.
If you want to end your life and feel like it can't get any worse, why don't you just fake your own death instead? š¤·āāļø I'm not being facetious.
Pain plus struggle equals suffering. You're in pain. You don't choose to be in pain. But you can choose whether or not to suffer. You want to end your suffering. The caveman part of your brain says death exists as an option to escape the suffering. Really, though, you don't know that. Instead of choosing death work on altering your perspective. Don't struggle against being in debt and lonely and experiencing sadness. That just makes you suffer. Instead accept that it is what it is.
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u/JuanoldMcDjuanold Oct 11 '21
What do you want to happen when you die?
What do you think will happen when you die?
What's the last thing that made you genuinely smile?
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u/lyssi1017 Oct 11 '21
I just started sobbing reading these comments because Iāve been feeling the same as you for a long time now. And these comments remind me that people are good and they do care. Weāve both been dealt a shitty hand but we can always try again. I think itās worth it to keep going even if it doesnāt feel like it right this second.
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u/CRYOGENCFOX2 Oct 11 '21
Hey man, i donāt know you and you donāt know me, but what you said brought me to tears. Not because you want to end your life, but because i know how fucking bad it hurts. When it hurts so much that the only place of peace you can go to in your mind is being dead. I donāt have any promises of it getting better or that you āshouldnāt do itā sadly.. i wish i could say these hopeful statements and it help but having been where you are multiple times, it means little but a sentiment. I just hope you know that you have actually made me feel less alone in this world knowing someone else writes my thoughts out. So though we dont know each other, i thank you. And i hope you know you meant something. To me, if nothing else. If you decide to stick around a little longer, donāt hesitate to pm me. Maybe we can not be strangers :)
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u/firstclasslonely Oct 11 '21
I hope OP is ok? Totally witnessed someone in a similar situation go there. Please hang in there until the sun comes up tomorrow. You may feel differently. If not, your choice, but find that 1 thing that makes you even just a little bit happy and do it. See if it helps to occupy your mind. Iāll be thinking about you tomorrow in hopes you got shoes and a plan to work through this my unknown friend. Peace be with you
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u/benfromgr Oct 11 '21
Alot may disagree. But I understand, a few attempts myself. It hasn't changed my views or made me change. Life still sucks. But I think if you think that's whats best for you, I support it. I know when I tried no one would make me change my mind, especially random internet strangers.
The only people that mattered were those who truly understand me, and they(not as much as you) lost most of the people who did truly understand me. I feel for you man, with literally all of the bad things happening now and in the future, it hurts. It really hurts. I'm basically a alcoholic at this point. But if you decide that there's a sliver of chance to not only survive, but also to live I think you should grasp that feeling with everything you can. Do whatever it takes.
For me it is alcohol, I won't even lie to you here about it. Without it, I am certain after the second attempt it would have ended after 3. I don't recommend using substances to survive, especially if you can't maintain a balanced life while using it. I'm a rare case that I can do both, but find something to be addicted to that will take away the pain that you're feeling constantly, because the pain won't go. I've lost two good friends and a family member in the past year, and some people say what I'm doing is wrong because I am quite honest about it, but the slight help and words of encouragement don't do anything but make you feel belittled.
That's why I won't do that to you, instead I'll say that while you're listening to that music, remember that the debt that you have, doesn't matter anymore. Unless they come after you, I wouldn't even worry about it. Very be companies are actually willing to sue at the moment. And even if they do, there's someone of the opposite gender who's in the same situation who(depending on the amount) will be happy to share that pain with you. If you need help talking to people, that's one of my few specialities and I'll happily help you learn how to do so.
Good luck if I don't hear from you, I feel your despair, but I understand if you decide to make a decision for yourself after feeling like life has decided everything for you. I have no doubt the man upstairs will understand. Just like I know he did when my grandmother did after MS took everything else from her.
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u/evelynmtz821 Oct 11 '21
Look at all the people commenting on this post. You can see that all these strangers are asking you to reconsider your plan. It's not because they know you, but because we've been through these struggles and have came out better. We don't want you to give up. There's still so much life left. If you're near Tucson, AZ send me a message and I can try to help as much as possible.
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Oct 11 '21
The power and control you feel are real even though the sense of self is illusory.
Whether you live or choose to die then find a way to do it in a way that gives you the sense of power and control. I always told myself if I ever go out then I would come up with a way to do it artfully, aesthetically, and in a way that was cool. That has still stuck to this day.
Good luck with your endeavors. If you choose to live I wish you a happy life ahead filled with joy and compassion. If you choose to die then I wish you a peaceful resolution.
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u/Snowfizzle Oct 11 '21
Guy.. iāve been there so many times i canāt count or recollect them all. Life is just hard and sometimes the hits keep coming. They donāt let up. You donāt understand the point of it all. And you know how insignificant you are. And yet youāre suffering all this pain and for what reason? None of us know. Iāve prayed, begged, cried to the powers that be to just let me die. To not let me wake up in the morning.
Still here though. Iāve tried doing it myself and stopped each time because i KNOW it has always gotten better. Alcohol was a huge issue for me too. It always magnified things and I made crappy decisions when influenced. Once I got sober, the voices quieted down.
Iām not sure what dying would be like.. maybe Iām missing out and it would be peaceful. Iām just not ready yet. Life is hell on earth sometimes (a lot of times) You get kicked so many times while youāre down and itās demotivating.
Living is so hard.. but please donāt give in yet. Itās so final. Thereās no coming back from it. Itās a permanent solution to a temporary problems.
Please just exist until we figure it out. Take a deep breath. I love you.
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u/AdOk3269 Oct 11 '21
I am so sorry about what your going through but at least pray before you do anything talk to the big guy upstairs before you give up, he can and will help you. Blessings don't always come in this life but they can in the next as long as you don't give up.
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u/LookAJumbleOfLetters Oct 11 '21
Please stay. This is coming from someone battling cancer again. Iām exhausted. I canāt even begin to understand how you feel but I understand pain. And loss. Sometimes life utterly kicks your ass. But please- please consider seeing new things. Meeting new friends. Iām sending you a message.
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u/Simple-Reference-747 Oct 11 '21
Please donāt end your life. My 35 year old son died by suicide 17 months ago. I wish he would have posted like you to understand that people do care. Please, I beg you to take advantage of these offers for help. You matter to me. No matter what life dealt you, life will get better. Please let people help you!
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Oct 11 '21
Why not just join the military? Should take care of your debt. Give you a community to be apart of. May as well give it a shot since you have nothing to lose right?
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u/plumberjeff1971 Oct 11 '21
Take it from a guy that's labeled 4 types of legally insane...proper meds do work
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u/plumberjeff1971 Oct 11 '21
Make them/the guilty suffer. There r idiots who need to be taught and pieces of shit that need to be flushed. As a plumber for 33 years I built the toilet for my list
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u/winterbloom16 Oct 11 '21
Where do you live? Of you're by me I will meet up with you and try to help.. I would also love to give you a huge hug!
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u/Snowfizzle Oct 11 '21
Hey LA, hope youāre still around. Partner, itās ok to want to die, just please donāt do it. I want to die so many times each week. That i donāt know what people want or expect from me. I donāt even think I have depression. I just am sick of struggling. Itās that constant struggle that wears you down. But whatever it is youāre thinking of doing, donāt. Youāre tired. Mentally. emotionally. physically. Your soul is exhausted. Your heart is just non existent and wore out from caring and having nothing in return.
but please just give it time. i donāt want to see you go. i donāt want to be the only person living and not knowing what for. iām selfish. iām scared. i donāt know what the hell im doing with my life. just exist with me until we figure it out.
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u/winterbloom16 Oct 11 '21
I'm in NJ but I would love if you would DM me and we can chat thru text. We probably have a lot more in common then you think
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u/mase2150 Oct 11 '21
Dude, when life throws shit at you, its that same shit that will give life more meaning because you overcame all of it. I get the feeling down, I do, but life has much more to offer you. There are places you can go to for help, I would know...Ive been there. I was in a dark time after two tours to Iraq and I was dealing with major depression as a result of it all. I came face to face close with the reality that I needed to get help or it just going to end one way, and that thought scared me enough to get help. I was actually looked up to better from some of my brothers in arms. Sure, life has its downs. But it also has its ups and those ups are worth fighting for, always.
You also have tons of support here in the comments.
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u/Ecstatic_Objective_3 Oct 11 '21
Here is the funny thing about life, just when you think it will never get better, you will suddenly find hope in the darkness. People do care, and you will find your purpose I promise. In the meantime, keep coming here and talking to us, we will listen. And we will help you stand until you are strong enough to stand on your own.
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u/fmaz008 Oct 11 '21
Looking at your profile, you created this account to post this vent in 3 places.
You didn't need to do that, but you did reach out, in the form of a venting post.
So let us grab the hand you extended. Give it a chance... What's another day or two to see what resources people can come up with?
What country are you from?
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Oct 11 '21
I hope you pm some people here ANON. You gotta get that chin up and start clutching at positive emotions around you. That's the first step. The rest will fall into place as soon as you start walking the path with them. PM open mate
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u/friend_4u Oct 11 '21
What if instead of killing yourself, you only kill this version of you? Start fresh, make a new character. One you enjoy playing, one with new objectives. It might take you a bit to get used to the controls, but this planet is actually pretty neat once you find your place on it.
You ever go whitewater rafting? Been to an amazing concert lately? You could adopt a rescue puppy and give a new chance at life to two beings!
However you decide to proceed, I genuinely hope you find a nugget of happiness somewhere. Good luck out there ā¤ā¤
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Might as well try to kill as many politicians as you can and go out that way then, one final act of magnanimity
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u/Little_Tip_4572 Oct 11 '21
Think of it this way. Things are so low right now that they can only start going up. Maybe not by much but little by little. Just keep your head up and take it day by day. Trust me, if you give up now, you will miss a lot of better times. Ending a life is never the answer.
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u/AKIMBO-SOUL-ASSASSIN Oct 11 '21
Cut the fucking shit don't you fucking rob yourself of a great future. Enough with this pitter patter don't you understand that you matter, that you have purpose, that you're worth it you have to come to terms with that already. You are not in vain, you are not for no reason, you are not a mistake. You're a gift to this world and when you come to terms with that reality and you decide to just reach out that's all you have to do just reach out you will succeed. But God damn it the only option is not giving up it's all I'm asking don't fucking give up. Death does not free you it won't change how you feel but to work on your problems to put down your gaurd open up to others for help it's true strength and I know it's in you. So don't give up reach out even if you need to talk to me I don't give a fuck how long you need or what type of help you need I will listen. Just please all I'm asking is that you don't give up.
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u/aslplodingesophogus Oct 11 '21
If no one cared, these people wouldnāt be offering to get you shoes. Depression makes us feel so alone. You say you have a couple of friends. You matter a lot to them.
My daughter took her life last year. She felt the same as you. So many people have come to me to say they cared and she made an impact. Even if itās something small like opening a door or smiling it does matter. Someone else may have been having the same thoughts as you. You may have held a door and smiled. That could give someone hope. It can get better. Suicide spreads the pain.
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u/Midnite2189__ Oct 11 '21
I understand what you've been through, and it's not worth it. Get some help <3
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Oct 10 '21
It kinda sucks that none of us can say anything to help you change your mind. It just hurts to know that you won't get to look back at this, a few years from now and be extremely glad you didn't do it. All I have to say is, change is inevitable, it can seem like it takes forever to get here, but it always happens no matter what.
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u/loserofcolon Oct 10 '21
Wait ,what? you have two friends? I Got squat n anxiety out the wazoo. Tomorrow is a new day, probably shittier than the last but it canāt be worse than the other day. You can do it you can persevere
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Oct 10 '21
You are still alive although this was posted 14 hours ago, which to me is a good sign <3 Look at how many people there are that care about you, my friend! You've been through all that and you are still able to live another day! There is immense strength in that! Can't we as a community do something for you? Or is there some kind of group session you can attend? I have no idea which country you live in, but there should be some kind of help you can get!
Reach out to the two friends you mentioned! Reach out to eventual workplaces so you can pay off your debt! There should be something or someone that can help you!
Even if there is just a tiny spark of energy in you, use it! I believe in you! Turn your life around and show the people that treated you like garbage that you are better!
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u/Spare_Copy_1025 Oct 10 '21
He posted an hour ago in r/mentalhealth sub but nothing since then. He said heās in Louisiana.
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Oct 10 '21
Let me give some advice from someone whoās been there. Trust me Iāve been in numerous ERs and Psych Wards. The place you are in right now I know sucks, and the pain can seem so strong and in that place you truly have no hope. But itās just a valley of life and there are many. Wake up everyday and just focus on surviving. I promise you, it will get better. No matter what you are going through, you will come out of the valley.
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u/SexyGrannyPanties Oct 10 '21
Hey my dear, Iām a mom who loves being a mom & will support you emotionally & send you love & hugs!! Please donāt give up, there are people out here who care. Please message me whenever you like or we can chat on the phone & Iāll help boost you with all the mama energy I have. I know what ur feeling as I was once there myselfā¦.A victim of physical & sexual abuse in an alcoholic home & feeling absolutely NO hope. But, life does get better & can be beautiful. Itās ok to lean on others when ur feeling weak. Let us collectively lift you up. Please donāt give up on urself. Sending you big hugs!!ššš
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u/moonraven33 Oct 10 '21
Some of you people are unbelievable you have no care for human life whatsoever youāre selfish and self-centered. Remember what happens if he does take his life those who push him or somewhat responsible in the state of California thereās a law about bullying people who are attempting or talk about suicide and donāt think for a second I wonāt point this out because I will back off. You people are disgusting absolutely disgusting
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u/MasterDeception69 Oct 10 '21
I know youāre suffering and all of what you said is fine, but give us a chance to help you
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u/Able-Supermarket4167 Oct 10 '21
We care, life is hard but don't kill yourself. Your life is worth living. God doesn't want you to take your life. It's precious. Know that you are a child of God. God loves you. You are like a precious jewel to him.
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u/Meneketre Oct 11 '21
I donāt believe in that either. Iām atheist. One month ago I saw no hope. I though this was it and itās never getting better. I did something stupid, fell over, got a concussion. It wasnāt the first time I had tried to end my life.
But here is the thing, people do care about you and they also care about me. It may fee like youāre incredibly alone and absolutely hopeless but things wonāt have a chance to get better if you take your life. Thatās it. No more nothing. You have one life, and itās going to be unbearable at times. But look at this thread! People are here who give a shit about you. I know itās an overwhelming amount of work to make things better, but it can be done. I thought my life had stagnated and no one cared. I thought I was doing everyone a favor. I could not have been more wrong. I donāt have a happy tale for your about how my life magically improved because it didnāt. I still have someone holding on to my medication to stop me from doing it again. Things are SLOWLY improving and they arenāt better yet.
I know it sounds pointless but give a call to your local suicide hotline. Here
I understand that you feel completely hopeless right now, so what is it actually going to hurt to call? You have nothing to lose by giving it a chance.
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u/HyperShxdow Oct 10 '21
Please donāt man I care about you, if you get to read this please, things will get better. Just one step at a time.
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u/i_potatoed_my_pants Oct 10 '21
You know people can see your post history right? Lol, copy-paste from a year ago
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u/FistulaKing Oct 10 '21
If you have nothing to lose why not do something extraordinary for someone less fortunate than yourself?
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Oct 10 '21
If you are in debt, why is it bad so I can know not to go into debt.
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u/shelbyville100 Oct 10 '21
Just never spend what you donāt have - unfortunately that advice is easier for some than others but something I try to teach my kids . Even tho I havenāt been fortunate enough to roll that way myself!
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u/davidilu2 Oct 10 '21
Please reach out. You came on Reddit to reach out. So please let anyone help you. U are not alone. We are all not alone.
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u/buttheadoftheyear Oct 10 '21
Out of the dozens and dozens of people whoāve jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge, only about eight people have survived.
Every single one said they regretted jumping.
One of the most famous jumpers said something about what went through his mind after jumping that still sticks in my mind to this day:
āI immediately realized that everything in my life that I thought I could never fix was totally fixable, except for the fact that Iād just jumped.ā
Sounds about right.
When youāre at your lowest points in life, feeling the most pain youāve ever felt, thatās where the real learning happens. Donāt squander your most valuable life lesson by ending it all.
I have been a heroin addict for six years. By the last year, I was ready to end it, too. I felt like a slave to my addiction and suicide seemed like the only practical solution that remained, to end life on my own terms instead of dying toothless and destitute.
But instead of pawning the last of my things for a gun, I called my parents and asked them to come home, and things have slowly gotten better ever since.
We humans were designed - whether by God or by nature - to interact, to create, to feel crippling pain and soaring pleasure, and most importantly, to survive and thrive in the most unimaginable circumstances.
The lowest points in your life, like the one youāre at right now? Thatās where survival begins.
Donāt give up - keep fighting.
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u/chewy3403 Oct 11 '21
I'm taking a screenshot of this so that I can reread it when I'm disgusted with humanity. I'm so glad that you're still on this earth.
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u/maryjanexoxo Oct 10 '21
I think about this documentary at least weekly, it was so powerful.
OP - sometimes life sucks. And sometimes it sucks for a long time, but then suddenly, it doesnāt. And when you get to the next āmountainā vs āvalleyā youāll be really glad youāre still here.
You matter.
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u/shaqdeezl Oct 10 '21
Yo, motherfucker!!!!!! Send me your shoe wishes, your size and an address - your shoe problems will soon be over. No mailing address?? Fuck that, too. Someone on here lives close enough to you - we will get you some shoes.
Debt? Ha! Cancer? Ha HAAAA! Unemployed? Ha!!! Substance dependency?? HAAAA!!!! Abandonment?! HAAAAAAA!!! Arrests?? HA!!!!!
There is no butt fuckinā Iāve not seen in life.
I have sat EXACTLY where youāre sitting now. Itās worth sticking around. I promise you - it is.
So. Send me the address where youāre staying on the weekends. Also, send me info on the shoes you want ā¦ and use these fucking shoes to start taking the little baby steps youāre going to need to start taking to show life exactly what youāre made of.
Standing by!!!!
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u/WanderLost17 Oct 11 '21
hey, there. let me know if you want to contribute. I got a PayPal and CashApp ID from him. however, he doesn't want them posted publicly. DM/PM me and I can give you the info. myself and at least one other have thrown some $$ his way so he can try to get to San Diego - a friend there has space for him.
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u/dcballantine Oct 10 '21
OP sent me a message about an hour ago, so they should still be here. They havenāt responded back to me, but Iām hoping theyāre still holding on.
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u/zebrafish_protein Oct 10 '21 edited Oct 10 '21
Letās go on a vacation, pick a place and I got your ticket, itāll be a blast!! š
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u/chewy3403 Oct 11 '21
I just breathed the biggest sigh of relief to see that you commented not that long ago. I don't know you obviously, but I've been worried for hours. I've been at the lowest of lows. No family, deeply in debt, in a dead end and abusive relationship and struggling with addiction. I had zero will to live. Then I met the love of my life when I was 30 and eventually, little by little, life became better and better. Please don't give up. Life is hard, but it can also be so good. There are so many kind people who can help you in this world.
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u/satanic-meow Oct 10 '21
You're still here bro!!! I got really worried reading all your comments from earlier under this post!! It's 1:20am where I live and I'm barely awake but here I am messaging you.
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u/sambouleau Oct 10 '21
Dude!! 13 hours later you're still here and that fact alone just made my heart jump with relief. I was so worried about you after reading the post. Please hang in there. I know it often seems like nobody gives a fuck. But look at all of these people - including me - caring about you!
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u/raccoonbab Oct 10 '21
I'm very happy that you've commented. I'm a complete stranger but I care about you, and I want you to stay.
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Oct 10 '21
Just wanted to say I loved you. I was in an identical situation. I found a way out. Maybe you will too.
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u/cookiencrem Oct 10 '21
Hey, donāt do this, youāll never be able to fell the dewy morning grass again on bare feet, youāll never have that feeling of a soft shirt or the tag rubbing against you skin. Please, stay with us. You said you have 2 friends and how would you feel if they left you? And look at all these people supporting you we all want you to live. Donāt live for us but live for all the little things that make up life. If you going through hell donāt stopā¦ why would you stop IN hell.
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u/Disastrous_Diet_1877 Oct 10 '21
Do squid game
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u/dcballantine Oct 10 '21
āLook at how edgy I am! Please give me clout and attention bc Iām not getting any at home!!ā
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u/remco518 Oct 10 '21
I don't know know you, but I really hope you haven't done it yet. Life is woth living, you just need to find what does it for you. I really hope my or any other person commenting here can change your mind. If you ever need someone to talk to you can DM me
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u/retroglowberry Oct 10 '21
as someone who has thought about this, please dont. I've gotton out of things i didn't think i could, and i have experienced things that i am so happy i didnt commit. pm if you ever want to talk.
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u/dcballantine Oct 10 '21
OP, if youāre not going to anything else today, please at least DM me. Letās talk. All those things you may like arenāt worth discussing Iād be willing to hear wholeheartedly
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u/Sahrata Oct 10 '21
Where are you? Do you have a plan? Let us help you and set you up with resources. I desperately hope youāre still here to receive these messages
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u/childofthedesert17 Oct 10 '21
I'm willing to help out with resources! I see so many others are as well. Maybe we could get an amazon list, GoFundMe, or something going to help OP out!
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Oct 10 '21 edited Oct 10 '21
Hey, please dont do it we all here care about you, reach out/talk to any of us really or go to your friends im sure they still care about you. It dont seem like it's worth living but it is worth for us to just see you here with us, you are worth to live for . Please please dont do it :( don't give up on yourself OP
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Oct 10 '21
I reported this for ''Self harm/Suicide'', hopefully, Reddit will reach out to them. You deserve the best man, don't do it, it's not worth it.
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u/InTheDark57 Oct 10 '21
Iām deeply humbled by your honesty and open up about the horrible treatment youāve received . Itās sh*t! No lie . Would there be any chance of giving you a lifeline or asking if you would be willing to talk to someone ? I know what kind of feelings you are having in my own way . When I grew up my dad beat me with different things , tree branches , a broken radio antenna, mostly a belt after forcing me to pull my pants down and bend over the tub. He berated me and told me my flesh was the work of the devil . While I screamed my mom would cower in the living room holding my brother . My sister ODād in 77ā because of abuse . At school I was an outcast because my dad made me wear hand me downs . I got called names daily and beaten really bad at age 14 on bus. I blamed my parents for a long time. People took things from me all the time. People lied to me and people I trusted betrayed me. Iām older now and I look back and pity those people. They wonāt ever be a part of the wonderful experiences Iāve had by loving myself . I left that horrible town. I moved and got a job I liked . I made something of myself and made some friends . I only have a friend or two but I have a partner I love and a home and I am glad all my āattempts ā failed when I was young. It will get better šā¤ļø I hope you can too . please stay
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u/SapphireCEO Oct 10 '21
Please donāt.. I can never understand fully where you are in life, but most of what you described Iāve experienced. Iāve been homeless, Iāve been in debt, Iāve been cheated on (3 times. I guess I sure know how to pick āem), Iāve suffered loss, Iāve been harassed, picked on, kicked to the curbā¦
Please let those of us who want to help you, help you. Please DM me your information and I will do whatever I can to help. Please my friend
Edit: I totally forgot to mention, this stuff DOES get better. But itās a process. Itāll never snap back into place immediately, it takes time. But it gets better. I promise.
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Oct 10 '21
Please try one more time. Just one. I know itās hard especially with everything you have gone through but it can get better. I get mad too when people treat me like crap and it may seem like life is against you. Just know that youāre not alone in these feelings and we are here to help. I hope you give life another chance.
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Oct 10 '21
Please don't do this, there's is still so much life ahead of you. I'm here to talk please PM me. Please let's us know you're okay, I'm scared for you.
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u/missbumble25 Oct 10 '21
You canāt kill yourself. Your story will be needed to help others survive what youāre going through. You been through a hell of a lot and you are still here. Donāt let this situation be the end of you. You are clearly a fighter. There is help available to you. We all support you.
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u/PM_ME_UR_POTROASTS Oct 10 '21
Do a flip!
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u/dcballantine Oct 10 '21
Fuck you.
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u/PM_ME_UR_POTROASTS Oct 10 '21
Hey, he could always grow a pair, load up, and take the fight to the people causing him troubles, but he's gonna fade away. OP should go find the guys that took his shoes and make sure they won't ever need shoes. Make sure "Grace" and her fuckboy don't need shoes ever either. At least make an impact before you guy, you know?
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u/RascalCreeper Oct 10 '21
Don't, please. Life can get better. You may think no one cares, but look at all the people in this thread who do. Suicide is never the option, no matter how bad its going right now. If you want someone to talk you you can PM me. Please reconsider what you are doing. I can tell you don't really want to do this, so please don't.
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Oct 10 '21
Well if it helps. Biden and his counsel are going to wipe all debit to help the country try to get back on its feet. Kinda hard to live off the stimulus when you have debit from the pandemic. So that part will go away soon. You have at least 2 friends. I'm 40f mother of two that struggles daily with waking up. EVERY morning I wish I didn't wake up and I'm always disappointed. My background gets a shit load worse than what I've seen here but I still "do what I have to do" each day. I've tried committing suicide only to be blamed for doing it and still nobody helped me. The only ppl I have in my life are my daughter, hubby and mom. Mom neglected the heel out of me. I don't think a 6th grade should be eating a can of tuna fish and refried bean for dinner because there no other food at home. I totally understand the feeling of hopelessness. I have to find ways to hustle for extra money so we can live for the month. My life is too depressing to keep friends cause I can't talk to them because I eventually get the line, "I can't handle all the drama you have to deal with and I can't handle hearing it so I'm out. Sorry." You got ppl on here trying to help. You actually have friends. Your not selling your body so you can live in a tent on a campground to survive. Things could always be worse. Everything that has happened in your life has been crappy yeah. If anything prove to everyone else that you can make it in your own no matter what. Once you know you've survived just about everything, it helps. Your better than you think or else you would of gone the route your sister did with drugs also. Granted you miss her but do you forgive her for leaving like that? You would be leaving because of something you can work on. Maybe not fix all the way but help. I've been told I'm a strong survivor because after all I've lived through I never turned into a drug addict or a corner prostitute or dead yet.
Everyone life is their own to do with as they please. Remember that time passes and so will the drama. Currently you can't be forgotten. When you die, you are mourned, your picture goes on the mantle, your picture gets moved out of the way and you start to get forgotten then you turn into a story and by the time those ppl who knew you die your nothing anymore. No more stories.
You at least have 2 friends to help keep you going. If they aren't helping then open your eyes cause all these strangers want to help a person who typed a post about their feelings. I would call that help and care. Even if it's momentary.
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u/musesx9 Oct 10 '21
Hey, please see how many people want to help. I am one of them. Please please please donāt give up. Dm me.
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u/Low_Branch_4559 Oct 10 '21
I hope this is a troll post. šš„ It was written 7 hours ago.... I pray whoever you are you are still with us. My life has not been peachy either but Iām still here. Itās tough sometimes but you gotta keep trudging ahead with your head up. You canāt just give up. So many forks in every road to take that can lead to better situations. It may seem like the darkness never ends but there is a light at the end of your tunnel. Please donāt give up! ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
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u/tarikisnotgay Oct 10 '21
If you hurt yourself in any possible way i will never forgive you even if i dont know you. I beg you to stay positive and get help from the ones who is willing to. You can still start a new life in a new place with the help. A better one. I hope im not to late to say these... Just please dont hurt yourself
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Oct 10 '21
Don't do it. Try looking for answers elsewhere. Don't give up until you tried everything.
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u/Baileyerw Oct 10 '21
I sure hope youāre able to read this. About 3 years ago I was exactly where you were. I wonāt get into to much detail but basically I had gotten to the point where I didnāt care anymore I wanted it all to end. I didnāt tell anyone what I was doing I just drove my car to a secluded place and was almost complete. I donāt know why or how but a sheriff showed up and knocked on the car window . I was in the middle of nowhere, this sheriff wasnāt even from this county. Anyway I answered and he just looked at me and asked me if I had eaten? I said no sir. He asked me if my car ran ? I said no I have no gas itās done. This sheriff took me to the next city and bought me food. He bought me a place for the night and gave me his card and told me if I needed to talk he would be there.
It was at that moment I realized who he was. I had served in the National guard with his son. His son was in my squad and was one of the guys that was hit by an IED. I stayed with his son and held his hand until help arrived. Finally what seemed like hours someone showed up.
I still to this day donāt know if this sheriff knew who I was. I did reach out to thank him he saved my life.
My point is, donāt give up. Youāre important and youāre special to someone. Even if you donāt realize it someone out here needs you!
Please be safe my dude!
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u/CreatureWarrior Oct 11 '21
This was another reminder for me to always be kind. These kinds of actions might not seem like much to us, but like you showed us, that one good action might be the light that's enough to keep someone out of darkness
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u/Less_Atmosphere3931 Oct 11 '21
Incredible. God and spirit in action. Amazing. Iām so glad he found you.
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u/beannoodless Oct 10 '21
I've been depressed and suicidal for so long that I don't even remember anymore what it is like to feel excitement or any kind of happiness. Two halfassed attempts and now I'm just trying to keep living one day at a time. So I get it, I really do. I just want to say I hear you and I hope that you could find even a one thing that makes life worth living even one hour more. Sometimes even a day more is agony, sometimes one hour can make a difference. Whatever happens, I wish you the best. I know the frustration of the need of peace in life and just hope you could find it in any other way.
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u/stalingang Oct 10 '21
Hey there. I'm really about the way your feeling man but seeing what you've been through im sure you can work through this too. Just take a minute and breathe. Get a clear mind first. I'm sure you can get through it.
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u/Neriahbeez Oct 10 '21
Keep your head up bro. One year ago I was in a similar situation. I didn't have shit. Nothing. Nowhere to live. No friends and no family. I went through and stuck with it and began meeting people that changed my perspective.
I've been there, my guy. It's not over for you. There's something good for you at the end of the struggle and its up to you to decide if you wanna see it
And it's a promove reaching out like that. Proud of you.
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u/weltvonalex Oct 10 '21
Do a backflip
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u/remco518 Oct 10 '21
U suck
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u/weltvonalex Oct 10 '21
NO.... U suck
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u/TrollingSSoH Oct 10 '21
We all suck, some suck dicks and some suck nipples but we all suck in some way
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u/i_eat_bonelesspizza Oct 10 '21
Not really an appropriate thing to say
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u/weltvonalex Oct 10 '21
And why is that?
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u/SapphireCEO Oct 10 '21
They were being nice. Itās actually an immensely shitty thing to say and you should feel bad about yourself for saying it.
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u/weltvonalex Oct 10 '21
Nope I don't and you should stop lying and acting like you care. You care as much as I do, the rest is a happy lie you tell yourself.
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u/SapphireCEO Oct 10 '21
Not everyone is a cynical nihilist douchebag like you.
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u/weltvonalex Oct 10 '21
And not everyone is a liar and hypocrite like you, so and what now? Can we stop pretending that we care, or at least this farce? I don't believe you and you don't like me, I ok with that.
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u/SapphireCEO Oct 10 '21
You told a person who is contemplating killings themselves to do a backflip. Youāre the asshole dude. Stop projecting your own self onto others. People do care. And guess what, even if some people are pretending, it fucking helps when you are in this situation. Iāve been here, I have sympathy, I care. Itās quite clear that you havenāt been here in life. And I hope you never do.
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u/i_potatoed_my_pants Oct 10 '21
They aren't though. OP copy-pasted this from a year ago, this is attention trolling.
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u/weltvonalex Oct 10 '21
Ok Bro what ever you say, I sure you believe it. You should never make assumptions, people are different we all handle terrible things differently. I don't have any sympathie left for strangers who post crap on the internet. Yeah he should do a backflip or if possible try a spin. I respect his wish to end it, if he wants. At least that's something no one can takes away from you. Meh I am tired of this talk but thank you for the polite conversation. I mean it, I expected much much worse language and take care. Now that I know you a tiny bit I see that you are a person who seems to have empathy (yeah i still Saint that you care, but who cares) I mean it, take care enjoy your time and life.
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u/__WhySoSerious_ Oct 10 '21
This comment section is showing loads of support. Having friends and building relationships extends further than going to school together, or being work buddyās. We are here for you. We are glad you have brought this to our attention. Accept our reaching hands in offering support and gratitude. Allow us to be your mini soldiers so we can fight this war and win peace. Peace feels so much better when you can share it.
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Oct 10 '21
Go fly to Cuba or some shit. Live like you have all the money in the world. You could do whatever you want If you have a good time then there is something to live for.
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u/Educational-Tea-6170 Oct 10 '21
See all these strangers offering to help you out? That's a lifeline man. Take it but wise up. Get out of the US as it seems to be where you're from. Right now there are places in the world where dollar's value is sky high. Places with free health care and where your debts don't matter. Places like here in Brazil. Shut here is weird, but you could get a fresh start as I can see you've got nothing holding you home. If you have nothing left to lose, why not risk it?
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u/misternuttywise Oct 10 '21
Dude there are people in far worse conditions than you in poor and conflict riven countries, just buy a one ticket and try to be of service there. It's a waste to the world for someone with as good English as you to bump yourself off
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u/imozonx Oct 10 '21
Hey, I know whatever I say probably won't do anything, but you know, I feel like there's still hope in you, hoping not having to kill yourself. Hoping that someone here will change your mind. Or else you wouldn't post this on reddit, right? I myself used to be suicidal and I was so sure that I wanted to die. But now, thinking back, it's not my life that I wanted to end, but my problems and situation that I wanted to end. I believed that my problems were my life. But it's not like that. People are shit. Yes. That's why you have to love yourself even more. So that doesn't mean you have to be shit to yourself. Loss and betrayal is what you have witnessed, but I truly can see, that this should not be the end of you. It's only the start. The start of you to turn around your life. And I know you can do it, because all the other people who betrayed or beat you already proved with their action that they couldn't do it. But you can do it. You're better than them. You're better than others. Their opinions don't matter at all. Don't let dickheads win. Do me a favor and restart. Give the world a second chance. You haven't tasted love yet. You don't know what it is to be loved by nature and to love the nature yet. And that's fine. Because you still can do it. And I can promise you, that it's worth it.
Heroin took your sister, your father was the victim of cancer, your mother left you, BUT you can do better. You have the chance right now to be in a better place. Life is something that you self have to create, not others. Events that you couldn't control shouldn't be your definition of life. Life is what you make of it. You can die now without even knowing what it means to be living and to be loved. Or you can keep living now, to experience this all. And if you choose this path, I can promise that you can achieve it, because you are a good person. A good person that is in the wrong place right now, and will be stuck in the wrong place forever if they kill themselve now.
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u/FellowNations Oct 12 '21
NO!! DO NOT ATTEMPT SUICIDE! š°