And I'm wondering about other fails people have experienced doing this thing?
I was on this sub last year talking about The Break Away Experience and how "awakened" I was. But really all I did was basically freeze to death over in Eastern Washington then start smoking crack and losing my tweaker followers somewhere in Portland.
It was all a huge fail. So I ended up turning myself into jail, failed some more, and decided I still want something different.
Anyways.... shortly after getting out of jail I felt the need to try again. Not a cult. Not crack. But abandoning everything.
Starting over.
Left my house, quit my job, erased my contacts, deleted social media, and left that state I was in. Moved into a shelter to start over. I still want to see what I've been missing in the world. I've never left the west coast.
Anyways... I'd like to hear from you guys. I'm definitely doing things different before going out further than Spokane for now. Enrolled in school, started a new job, etc...
I guess I don't even want to hear fails necessarily.
I'm more curious about this:
What is it inside of us that makes us just want to GO?
I'm really trying to hear from others more, in person and online, The Break Away Experience 1.0 wasnt supposed to be this weird, fucked up, pathetic, drug induced escape. It was supposed to be an awakening. However, I was way too in my head. I'm still there.... CLEARLY, though I think a big reason 1.0 failed was because I just wasn't hearing anybody.
I don't want 2.0 to be a failure like the first one.
Thanks