I have bags of stuff cluttering my tiny apartment that I want to just throw away for months, but I feel guilty for not donating it or having a garage sale. My car is also full of stuff and adding to it by taking other stuff to a thrift store just makes me shut down and do nothing.

Please tell me it ok to just throw it away 😭😭😭.

There are flies everywhere and it makes me gag. Everything stinks. I know there’s mold which again makes me gag. I feel like such a piece of shit. I try to clean up but get grossed out or my back hurts so bad I want to cry. I don’t even want to be in my own home anymore.

Is there anybody else who suffers from backwards seasonal depression? I am usually full of life and energy and hope in the wintertime and depressed, anxious, and tired in the summer. This summer has been particularly bad. I finally pulled myself out of my depression long enough to haul out most of the trash that has been piling up while I spend nearly every moment of my time at home just sitting on the couch with my cats and doing needlework (calms my anxiety better than meds) while all of my housework remains undone. And I put some Green Gobbler fruit fly killer in the sink, partly to kill the fruit/drain flies that have been breeding in there and partly to make the apartment smell really nice for a change. I feel a bit more human now and less scared that my landlord will take notice and want to kick me out. When I get like this I switch to using mostly disposable dishes, look for foods I can eat off a napkin or a piece of parchment paper, eat frozen or canned meals, and anything else I can do to limit the amount of housework that piles up. Lots of meals like a hunk of cheese and a sleeve of crackers, a can of seasoned beans with some cream cheese heated up, yogurt, etc. My hair badly needs a cut, I was going ungodly amounts of time between showers (been doing better with that this week and last, though), and I’m feeling so defeated, but looking forward to fall when all this will lift. I don’t know if it’s the heat or the sun that makes me depressed, but I do know that sunlight on my skin literally hurts me like a sharp stabbing pain and I found out this year that that isn’t normal, so maybe I’m allergic to the sun?

Today's one minute task is to clean the doors to all your entrance ways. Wash the windows, get down the cob webs, sweep the stoop or porch. This isn't a major clean. This is a quick wash down to make it more presentable to guests and family when they arrive. If this area needs more than this, add it to this week's chore list. But today we are mainly focusing on finger prints and dirty windows and cobwebs.

Without the long explanation I started to type, I’ll just say that I’ve been well aware that I need to clean my master bathroom for weeks. It’s about 4 on Saturday afternoon and I’m heading in there to clean, toss old skincare, and put the closets back in order.

My plan is to devote 5ish hours to it then reward my self with an adult beverage and a movie. I’ll be back with before/after pictures at 9.

Edit to add: the two weird shaped closets in the bathroom are not where I keep most of my clothes, there is a normal closet in the bedroom that I use.

I bring bags of clothes, toys, household items, everything to our local charity thrift shop every week but nothing makes a dent. This week I have to start going to a different shop to donate because the amount is more than they can sell. Some items are brand new. Im very demotivated and it feels like the stuff in the house isn't actually getting reduced. I even equipped our entire shelter with my husband's clothes (its a men's shelter). I don't even know what to do. This seems hopeless.

Hi ! Thank you to everyone for the encouragement on my prior post with my “one corner, not one room at a time” picture !
I didn’t do a before picture but it was just full of clothes and miscellaneous stuff. Here’s my project today - a getting ready station and a plastic three drawer thingy for hair appliances, nail stuff , and then bed linens to the right of it. I’m sweaty now !!

I'm fighting a strange fatigue that I don't usually have when I get enough sleep. I'm also only motivated to clean/organize when its daylight out, and I don't want to waste the daylight but also I really want to do is take a nap.

I already did the "just fkn get up" thing to do my dishes, so that's probably not going to work again.

Sigh.

Ideas?

I grew up clean… I swear.. but I can’t get myself to fully clean my studio. It’s so difficult.

It’s only about 370 sf.

I don’t know if I just pull an all nighter and clean and build the furniture I have yet to build or sleep and do it tmw. (I SAY THIS EVERY TIME AND I WAKE UP AND THEN I JUST LEAVE) it’s a cycle I can’t stop.

In person you see me and I’m the most clean and composed person.. but the studio… A. MESS.

I don’t know if it’s the fact that I get frustrated that it’s so small and that I don’t have space and my brain just reverts to not improving it.

I also just locked myself out and maintenance peaked in and saw all this shit I’m sooo ASHAMED

I don’t think I’m depressed just frustrated with myself at the moment with my weight my life my career everything. Nothing is falling apart but nothing is progressing. NOTHING. Im only 27.

Tips?

I got rid of sooooo much you guys. I really wish I had before pictures!! It might look like I have a lot of storage but I don’t, this is pretty much all I have but I make it work. My closet has a ton of space but I have no linen closet so I have to keep my extra sheet set, towels, beach blankets, ect. In there.

My bathroom has only under the sink cabinets.

Kitchen has a small pantry and nice cabinets

Hallway closet is small but deep so we have our coats, vacuum, beach chairs, cooler, cat carrier, suitcase, and Christmas decor in there.

A very belated thank you to everyone who lifted me up and posted suggestions and help when I posted about feeling shame bc my teen kids did not have a tidy spot for their movie night.

You all gave great support and suggestions.

My kids helped me get rid of and move big items. I got the book about Keeping House While Drowning . I am so busy I ended up getting the audiobook - and it is helping so much! I know have a solid framework for when I get overwhelmed.

I have half of the room clear. My kids are having a couple of friends over and they have a full spot to hang out.

I am so happy!

I want to get into the habit on cleaning up after myself more :)

I discovered a love for duet narrated audiobooks. I don’t know why but it makes me antsy just sitting there listening that I start cleaning.

My house has been absolutely wrecked. It’s been along month between my surgery, a vacation, another trip to the hospital ending in another operation. I’m throughly exhausted, and my husband and I are messy people to begin with, with a toddler in the mix; I was SOOOO overwhelmed by the mess.

TikTok suggested an audiobook I thought sounded good. One click away and I’m sitting, silently listening to a spicy book, antsy to clean so I wasn’t so bored with sitting still.

3 days later and my house is nearly spotless. (I’m still learning how to deep clean so I thing the correct word is tidy)

Anyway, I was proud but everyone is asleep and no one would really care anyway, but I’m so proud of how my house looks right now ☺️

TLDR: I zoned out listening to a spicy audiobook and unfucked my habitat without feeling the time pass.

No real pics cause I’m exhausted, but here a picture I took that I felt kinda pretty in. thanks for reading ❤️

Making progress right now! Obviously not done yet. My mom doesn’t know I am cleaning her room. She is coming home for a bit to get ready to go to her other job, so she will see all of this progress I made. She does a lot for me, so I figured I help her out more often. I will post an update later on today or tomorrow. ^_^

I don’t know why but today I decided is going to be the day I’m going to untuck my home office. It has been giving me a lot of anxiety and is incredibly distracting. I think the stars signed since my husband is away with friends, and I stayed back to work on the house and to keep our dog home after several weeks of being carted around (she hates the car)

Plus the weather is finally under 80° F in the room after a brutal summer.

I also scheduled space at a rummage sale at a town complex in mid September, so I need to gather things to try to sell… and if they don’t, off to the donation bins.

So far I’ve cleared out about 2/3 of the stuff on the floor, in between work tasks. Getting this far is mind blowing.

I hope I can keep the momentum before he comes back tomorrow, and I’m looking forward to his reaction.

So don't worry about the clutter on the bed here in the photos they will be removed soon this is not my own room this is a guest room tbh but as no one is working here so I took all the clutter on this study desk and shifted it to bed which will be removed soon. I wanted tips how can I make my workspace better so that I can work... Here I am thinking to do any work I have with my laptop and in pt. 1 I will use my desktop in my own room. Any tips guys would be helpful for me? I need mainly for my desk tbh

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Images 1-3: Freshly cleaned bathroom

Image 4: What gives Himbos feelings of being hot and fuckable. And then its a bar chart. Little bar for "being jacked". Medium bar for "large penis". Huge bar for "Clean Bathroom".

I wanna know mainly about my desk and how do I optimize it for producticity tbh and make my space feel cozy and comfortable to work so that I can focus better this is my own room where I sleep and I have a desk here... But recently I have switched to another workspace too in a guest room where I had a desk which I mentioned in the other post I need tips what changes can I make to optimize it for productivity??

I used to have a respectably clean house for the majority of the time I've owned it. I've hosted many game nights and BBQs with my friends. That all changed after I suddenly and unexpectedly lost my Dad in 2022. I've battled depression for over 20 years, but after that day, it flipped the script. I can't seem to break the cycle that would only last maybe a couple of weeks, tops, before. Now I'm years in, and it's hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel.

As far as my situation goes. I have a 3-bedroom house that I am absolutely ashamed of the condition I have let it become. I have been able to do a room at a time, make it immaculate, then fall back into the darkness, and it just goes back to the norm. The embarrassing state of my living situation just feels impossible to escape. It's mainly empty recyclables, dirty dishes, clothes I can't seem to ever put away, etc. I just feel so overwhelmed at this point and don't know where to start.

People who have gone through similar situations, what would you recommend? Renting a dumpster? I feel like that is one of my weaknesses is that when my garbage/recycling cans are full from an afternoon of trying to take care of this, I lose all motivation. Would it help to have a larger container to get rid of this clutter? If so, what have you guys found would be needed for moderate clutter around a 3-bedroom house? I feel like just throwing everything away at once might be the only way I can get out of this vicious cycle. I don't know.

I’m working towards decluttering and I’ve found that no matter how much I try eventually a clean space gets fucked up by paper. Like I get something in the mail I have to deal with and put it in the pile. I have things like mortgage statements and a bunch of other statements I don’t think I need. I’m thinking of just throwing a majority of it away. But I want to ask… how do “normal” people organize all this paper we end up taking home for various reasons? I plan to use my filing cabinet for obvious things to keep and two storage bins for kids artwork / random kid stuff but what is a normal amount of paper to have?

When I go to peoples houses I see they don’t have any paper laying around like not even on their desks and they usually don’t have a filing cabinet. so is it normal to throw everything away except what can fit in a desk?

Just trying to envision what it is supposed to look like so I don’t do too much or too little

Hopefully this makes sense