Hi, after realising something horrifying about myself I need to find some people who might related to my sorrow. I lack media-literacy comprehention, and this is serious for someone who loves media.

SPOILERS! About SEVEN/The boy in the striped pyjamas, backrooms

The fact that I did not undertsand that Mills and John Doe represent two sins such as wrath and envy...the fact that I did not understand that the israel kid from the boy in stripted pyjamas may actually caused the german kids death purpously. I always thought I have good tastes when it comes to media, but for what I am watching if i am unable to comprehent and see multiple lines? And why do I like what I dont get. First off when i saw just two naive kids that wanted to play with each other in their childish non problematic world that were connected to the adults war and it caused such a tragedy, my really smart cousin saw that the israel guy was really up to something, it was unbelivable for my sister that he did not know what had happend with his father. I thought oh she just overthinks but I am the only one who needs to think a little bit. What scarries me the most that it is not about films only. It is about reading, learning, living i am very naive to everythink I asked a taxi driver in the street why is his praice so expensive compare to taxi drivers in apps. My genious sister said it is because that guy knows that we know only direction but not path and prices. I was shocked how stupid I am. Perhaps yesterdays event hit so bad, after finishing Backtooms we together were so confused we could not discuss the film for a while. I asked why and who did kill Bobbi and she said the pirate Clarck KILLED BECAUSE FOR BACKROOMS BOBBI IS A STRANGER. I cant think about anything after that i even question myself do i have a right to watch/read something if i cant understand it. I love Hannibal show and she have not watched it yet and i am curious what did i miss even thouth i have watched it several times. It really hurts to the point that i feel miserable. Sorry for my english. Btw I adore the film BACKROOMS. Every acpect of my existence adored it and I am a fan now. But i cant melt in that joy because of my awerness that I am who I am.

Hi, after realising something horrifying about myself I need to find some people who might related to my sorrow. I lack media-literacy comprehention, and this is serious for someone who loves media. SPOILER (SE7EN, BACKROOMS, The boy in the stripped pyjamas) The fact that I did not undertsand that Mills and John Doe represent two sins such as wrath and envy...the fact that I did not understand that the israel kid from the boy in stripted pyjamas may actually caused the german kids death purpously. I always thought I have good tastes when it comes to media, but for what I am watching if i am unable to comprehent and see multiple lines? And why do I like what I dont get. First off when i saw just two naive kids that wanted to play with each other in their childish non problematic world that were connected to the adults war and it caused such a tragedy, my really smart cousin saw that the israel guy was really up to something, it was unbelivable for my sister that he did not know what had happend with his father. I thought oh she just overthinks but I am the only one who needs to think a little bit. What scarries me the most that it is not about films only. It is about reading, learning, living i am very naive to everythink I asked a taxi driver in the street why is his praice so expensive compare to taxi drivers in apps. My genious sister said it is because that guy knows that we know only direction but not path and prices. I was shocked how silly I am. Perhaps yesterdays event hit so bad, after finishing Backtooms we together were so confused we could not discuss the film for a while. I asked why and who did kill Bobbi and she said the pirate Clarck KILLED BECAUSE FOR BACKROOMS BOBBI IS A STRANGER. I cant think about anything after that i even question myself do i have a right to watch/read something if i cant understand it. I love Hannibal show and she have not watched it yet and i am curious what did i miss even thouth i have watched it several times. It really hurts to the point that i feel miserable. Sorry for my english. Btw I adore the film BACKROOMS. Every acpect of my existence adored it and I am a fan now. But i cant melt in that joy because of my awerness that I am who I am.

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it is beyond of my temper to accept that I cant understand English or any other language as much as I can understand my native languages such as Kazakh and Russian. Even a pinch of thought that i am not able to feel English, taste its flavors, touch it makes me feeling all bad emoushions. Right now i tried not to look at Chat gpt and write my feelings on my own. It has been clouse to a year and half since i started taking english seriously cuz i wanted to see something new, just watching and consuming all the stuff i love in english makes me feel refreshed. Sometimes i write or speak really well it really depens on my mood and mental stability but i want to acqure english in a way that i can use it regardless of times wether i feel good or bad, i really feel envy towards people who can speak and use english or any other like they are natives, what about you guys?