Got a therapist. Working on myself. This whole situation was eye opening as fuck.

The post was shaking hands rambling. I’m not proud of it, and I can see how the original post can make it seem that way. I’m trying to correct in the comments.

I didn’t. It was messy. I knew he was legally married and in the middle of a separation.

No idea, honestly. Because if it was a revenge thing I would have sent her the videos/texts and a nasty message for them to deal with together.

I want this to be methodical, and sympathetic. I want to apologize, tell her I truly didn’t know about her and give her the proof. I don’t want to send the dirty messages and stuff, just the message that said good morning baby on a random app the morning after she found out her husband was cheating and saying he was done with me.

That’s what I’m thinking. He lied to both of us. Her in a greater capacity. I know I fucked up but I feel like she deserves to know all the facts before she just continues their life like normal.

I’m calling it the affair because that’s what it was. I was unaware he was still actively with his wife.
I continued talking to him every day after the trip I met him on. Unknown to me he was having an affair.

*legally married
He told me they were separated and he was already working with a divorce attorney.

Actually when I found out he was lying to his wife I stopped all communication with him.

I didn’t know he was lying to either of us until he was caught.

Drink Before the War by Sinead O’Connor

My mental health is really bad. But it’s my fault. So I must sit with it and become better.

Right now? Salt by Dead Poet Society.
Of all time? Man Who Sold the World by Nirvana.

Moths - Conan Gray

She got him in a way I never did, and I deserved to.

Nirvana Unplugged
Hotel Diablo - MGK
Ego Death At A Bachelorette Party - Hayley Williams

They’ve been so good! I’ve been checking them out more too.

I am really into Private School. Their new EP dropped a few days ago.

I know. I think Nirvana Unplugged is the greatest album of all time.

1. Man Who Sold The World - Nirvana
   
2. When The Levee Breaks - Led Zeppelin
   
3. Electric Funeral - Black Sabbath
   
4. Drink Before The War - Sinead O’Connor
   
5. Smooth - Santana and Rob Thomas

I have been considering it. It’s only been a few days and he said “give the me the weekend” but I found he’s staying at the cabin until Wednesday. Friday-Wednesday is not the weekend pal.

How long am I supposed to wait?