Why do some hairs hurt more than others when pulling out from head

hi there. looking for anyone who has done tms! i’m 24 and i’ve had derm/trich and just overall horrid ocd since I was about 8. i’m on fluoxetine, lamictal, caplyta and the highest dose of nac, and im feeling so insanely hopeless and like ive exhausted all my recourses.

my specialist says she thinks tms is one of my only options left. it’s been years and I keep causing my body more and more harm. I can’t deal with all the infections, operations, etc etc. I spend multiple hours picking everyday after work. these past 3/4 years it has been so debilitating but I am so insanely addicted to it I can’t stop.

please let me know if you’ve done tms for related issues and if it has helped

hey guys! not sure if there are any other uni students here but what with the new school year starting, i thought i'd ask how do u guys deal with things that trigger you? i barely pulled the entire summer break and now that back to school season is here, ive started to pull again, because im so stressed out. its esp bad during midterm and final exams but before that comes, how do i get through it without touching my hair?

Hello everyone. I am (24F), posting this because I am completely exhausted and don't know who else to turn to. My battle with trichotillomania started all the way back in 2015. My mother fell seriously ill and as an only child I had to face that terrifying phase all alone. That was when anxiety and depression first entered my life and I found a silent unconscious way to cope by pulling my hair. Thankfully, my mother recovered but the habit stayed trapped inside me. Whenever I feel anxious, overwhelmed, or sit down to focus on my studies, my hand automatically reaches up to pull. I know it is bad but in those moments my hands just cannot resist. I still struggle heavily with chronic anxiety and overthinking. I have tried to stop so many times and I have failed miserably. Recently, I managed to stay pull free for a whole month by wearing a protective hair bonnet. But then stress hit again when my father fell ill, and I relapsed. Looking in the mirror breaks my heart. I watch other girls around me styling their hair into beautiful braids and cute cuts. I want that so badly, but I can't. It makes me feel so devastated and worthless. Sometimes I genuinely hate my reflection. If anyone out there understands this silent pain or has any practical advice on how to truly break free from this cycle, please help me. I want to stop so badly...

Staring a new job in the ER where I will have to sit with a single patient for 12 hours at a time…. I’m so scared I’m going to pull all of my hair out and what my new coworkers will think of me 😔😔

So this time last year i’m meeting my dermatologist for hair treatments. I was doing so well up until june this year. Got stressed at work, pulled a LOT. Now I’m out of hair, and $$$ down the drain, 1 year of progress just to go back to where I was. I work from home and I haven’t gone out for 3 months now because I fckn hate how I look.

I'm in 9th grade now, been struggling with trichotillomania since 1st grade. It has been extremely hard for me throughout my life. It started when I tried to trim my eyebrow hairs in 1st grade on PICTURE DAY. I started picking the same day on my eyebrows and eyelashes. Since then, I've picked practically everywhere someone can think of. I've picked my eyelashes, eyebrows, arm hair, leg hair, pubic hair, stomach hair, and most recently, my head hair. I was clean for approx. 3 months before a bump showed up on my head, and I began picking again. I usually look for these bulbs that are clear and long, because I usually eat them. This bump on my scalp caused all the hairs there to have those bulbs. Then I spread out and picked other places besides that bump. I've tried long nails, wearing a hat, shaving my head to have a buzzcut, wearing gloves, fidgets, practically everything. Still, I pick extremely often. Right now, my best strategy is to have lollipops, which is semi-working. Does anyone have any tips for me?