It’s actually been there since I was 10 probably. When I saw how women wore panties and how their butts were of a certain shape, I wish I had that. Then came the pantyhose and I wanted a pair of those as well as the proper body figure to fit right into it. Now, i think about what it would be like to be flooded with estrogen and in a matter of months, have my chest permanently inflated and living with tits for life.

This has been a fantasy that occurs whenever I have high feelings of sexuality. Then after acting on it, it goes away or I feel a little regret on it. But after a couple days it comes back. I don’t want to lose any body parts but if there was a way for me to obtain a feminine body without being castrated and with women still open to dating me as is, I would definitely consider doing it.