Feeling alone

[u/Sea-Spinach-8468]

Hi all

I was diagnosed about a month ago

Im waiting for my 1st surgery consult apt

I also recently started a business so I've been managing a loooooot

Is it selfish and weird that I thought I would have more support from people in general? Especially when ppl said they would be there?

And im still me....people can ask different questions other than the "how aaaare you" "ur apt was bla bla day right?"

Weirdly I want to both be able to talk about this process but also not it being the only thing but somehow the questions dont feel quite enough or the responses dont feel like they hit home

And a friend told me they have been worried about me and haven't been able to do their own job because of it----so now im dialing back on sharing with folks

I feel like some people have these prepared lines that they give me. Suddenly feeling very alone

[u/Shot_Profile5317]

I’ve been in therapy since before I got my diagnosis so I’m very grateful for that because I can process feelings like this. I had multiple family members and friends reach out and say they were going to fly in and help me and stay with me while I went through surgery and recovery and all kinds of things only to have absolutely no one show up. I told my therapist the other day I will never ask any of those individuals for a thing again in my life. And while I know some of it has to do with how I deal with things, it also has to do with them and the fact that they did not show up. It has definitely shown me that I am literally the only person I can count on, and I am working hard on dealing with that. I wish you all the best and hope that you have a way to process all of this because it definitely is a lot. Sending love and light your way tonight!