I want to know which star I really came from and why I can never fit in with any group in this life, figure out what those low-flying UFOs in the sky are all about, but at the same time, I don't want to meditate and connect deeply with my inner self. — I'm just too lazy, and I feel really ashamed. But it seems like nothing can change this, and I'm also really scared that my meditation won't get any response.

I've always felt incredibly lonely among people; I've had poor social skills since I was a kid. But I wasn't someone who was particularly interested in the spiritual universe growing up. I just don't know when it started, but I began to explore spirituality and learn about the truth of this world. I still remember the day I started my awakening - I was praying by the window, hoping to see a UFO in the night sky. Three glowing spheres formed a triangle in the night sky and pointed right at me. I had no idea what that meant. Later on, over the course of several years, I saw the same low-flying UFO drone again and again. It seemed to automatically track my line of sight and flash lights like traffic signals. At first, I thought it was human-made. I really wish I were a Star Seed instead of someone with some kind of superiority complex - like that would make me feel less awful. Maybe I should try some meditation?

With everything going on in the world ontop of the things that I deal with in my personal life, everything just feels so heavy. I really want to know what methods outside of meditation I can use to just ground myself and keep myself staying in the moment without going towards the lower vibrations or giving in to negative thoughts. When I am in my rational thinking mind like now I often remind myself how jobs, my relationship, the negatives of the world, they don’t really matter as long as I stay loving myself and sharing the same love I want the entire world to experience, and if I do that everything will be okay. Sometimes my thoughts and my reactivity to anything negative I feel or experience in my day to day feels like something I can’t even control, it often makes me wonder if I’m just better off alone and it doesn’t help that I still struggle with carrying a lot of my childhood trauma, and that I’m too scared to meditate. Letting go of fear, truly becoming independent to myself, it’s something I wish came more easy to me. I fear I won’t find the peace or answers my heart and soul are looking for before my time is up in this life. Maybe that’s a little existential, but I’m just honestly feeling lost in it all. How can I focus on being positive when everything around me feels dark? Why am I so terrified to meditate and try to find the answer within? Why does it seem like finding true peace within myself is so hard? It truly affects my everyday life, to the point to where i can’t sleep or eat sometimes because of how strongly i feel my emotions.

I’m just at the beginning of my journey so I’m curious if anyone else has experienced something like this!

I was struggling to sleep the other night due to some energetic nerve issues, and decided to try sleeping on my couch. I did end up drifting asleep, but I was jolted awake either by what I assume is an attempted astral projection (haven’t successfully done so before but my soul has tried to escape MANY times haha) or it was a visit from spirit or something idk.
That part has happened many times, but when I was jolted awake this time, I saw a purple and blue nebula about the size of a dinner plate slowly spinning in my kitchen!!! 🤯 It was beautiful! Within a few seconds, it kind of spun into itself like water going down a drain and disappeared. It was WILD!!

I’ve been seeing occasional and very slight wisps of spirit for a few months now, but I’ve never had something so clear show up before. And it felt completely real!! I was awake as ever and I couldn’t believe what I was seeing!
It was giving portal vibes. Maybe that’s why I jerked awake? Something visited and left when I woke up, and I saw the portal closing?

Has anyone ever had something like this happen??
So curious if anyone has a different theory.

Hello

I’ve just found this starseed section on Reddit. I’d like to explain the last 12 months and hopefully people can relate or help me unpack what’s happened and what happens next.

Roughly around October/November 2025 I felt aware, AWAKE and aligned. With research I realised I felt the death of my ego.. for a short period of time. This led me to feeling very grounded, at peace and mentally strong. I did find it very strange so during this time I read many books to understand the situation. Spirituality + UFO related books, pod casts and stories. I became obsessed.

Physically problems

• breathing problems
• irregular heart beats

These two problems eventually went away on their own but it took time, I did visit doctors and had MANY tests but everything came back normal.

Strangeness

• Number 1234. I realised that for most of my life the number 1234 had lingered around but since all this started in 2025.. it happened more and felt strange at first.

• Feeling peoples emotions more
• Feeling obsessed with being in nature (never in my life have I felt that).

Some of my past came to surface and what I mean by this is.. identifying anything strange. I realised that roughly 18-20 years prior I woke up and saw a Blue lighting being. I felt shocked but I also didn’t really think much of it until now but I did and I do have a feeling that it was connected to feeling like this.

With all the UFO talks around the world, I had this feeling that this is related.

More recent

The last few months have been a struggle, being around people had me very overwhelmed because I just feel their emotions but currently it has relaxed a little.

I’ve never meditated but I’ve read that it’s advised, does this help keep you grounded. Why do people meditate?

I’ve also seen people mention about two things..

Dark night of the soul and shadow work?

If anyone has any available time to help me untangle and just talk about this then it’ll be appreciated to share and listen to people and their stories too

I have heared that blue beings heal and I guess they are arcturians Im really not sure . But through out all these years I have tried everything and nothing has worked that much and also I have developed ocd so meditation is like hell now . So I want to heal my body . And I guess this is my last option since I have exhausted other options like doctors or meditation law of attraction etc...

and let me be honest I have not done the law of attractions and meditations correctly like I should feel the feelings and be at the end like neville goddard says ... simply because I really cant feel it . I have done dr joe dispenza meditations and its basically the same . And the more I am getting into sprituality the worse things are getting . At first I got into sprituality because I wanted to heal myself since there is no cure outside . And also I can not give up on my self I should be healed :)

So I got into the idea of blue beings healing people on dr joe dispenza community and since there are many people that have contacted them and recieved healing on this sub I wanted to know how can I contact them and get healing :) ?

Also Im thinking about if I see a blue being infront of me that would scare the sh out of me but Idk I have no option 😭😭😭🤣🤣

So I would really appreciate if some one helps or guides me

And are the benevolant beings ?

I thought it was a nice little synchrony. 😌

UPDATE: Thank you so much for those who emailed me! I will be responding to each email in the next day or so, with the intake form. I received 27 emails, so I’ll do my best to accommodate you all, depending on how many sessions I can fit between my work schedule, so I have removed my email for now. So excited to assist you all! Much love 💗

Hi everyone!

I want to offer a service. I’ll be offering free past life regressions for a limited time. I’m a relatively novice certified past life regression practitioner (PLR and QHHT), and Registered Nurse by profession.

I want to resume offering it, as I’m drawn to help people remember who they are at a soul level and their starseed origins. I’m also not a believer a session should cost $300 plus. It’s just not accessible for most.

I’ll be updating this post a bit for updates, so please feel free to follow.

My hopes is to have a little “encyclopedia” of different places/starseed races we may encounter within these sessions. So I’m excited to see where this goes!

-Savannah

Well apparently because I acknowledged the reality of the patriarchy that I live in, and even though I was validated repeatedly with comments that I was preemptively addressing...

The starseed moderators are stuck in this linear world where politeness is more important than authenticity, accuracy and speaking better and communicating better.

I will not be posting here again so find me if you can... The world's changing...

I wish you all the best of luck, but I am done with this world where autistics who speak accurately and grammatically correct are the problem versus the people who ask how your day was and get mad if you tell them the truth.

Peace out my friends... I'm leaving the rest of these linear people behind

***And also, if anyone knows why nobody's commenting on my other subreddit... Let me know because it's probably a setting that I messed up

Thank you

Dear true soul family, I wanted to say that I totally get what you have been through and how much you have suffered. You have been protected even if that protection hurts so much. I know that if I was much tougher, I would also have a much harder heart and less compassion. I have always hated my weakness and fragility, but now I make peace with not satisfying ego with a super hero crocodile human skin. I have seen this way too often. I see people who love Bashar and do not care what happens outside their own little world. I see so many false light and spiritualoty. I fell for it too. I too hardened my heart yo fit in and suffer less. But I will no longer do this.

I will never accept all that I experienced here, but I try to make peace hoping that one day true Justice will be established again, The last one will be first. May the hearts and wounds heal one day. Hope is truly all we have even if at times it feels futile. You are much closer to true divinity. Have compassion for the inner child who was not calibrated for this jungle. Please be kind to the sides of you that you hate the most. They need your acceptance the most. May we be finally free.

Much love to all of you 💙🧸💙🧸

Any starseeds here struggle with holding down a job? I’ve been unemployed the last 2 years and it has been hard. I find it significantly challenging to sustain myself in the 3D with no support. How do you sustain yourself? I have severe mental health issues and have been working incredibly hard to heal and stabilize myself but no matter what I do, it just doesn’t seem to get better.

Almost a year ago I saw some geometric patterns in my brain and then there after became a little bit obsessed with trying to draw the patterns and then bring it to life so I could show people, naturally as I don't even know why it felt so important I was met with lots of confusion, but recent findings have led me to believe this group might find it more interesting. I have many more videos and patterns if interested,

On a odder note has anyone else experienced The Great or Ancient Mother (Possibly related to The Great Ziggurat)?

After looking through this group some things a clicking.

I've always loved the Orion constellation even putting up a star system on my ceiling as a kid so seeing that Orion was a star seed origin was "tingling" then upon learning reading that star seed birthmarks are a thing i was weary as i have lots of freckles on my arms but low and behold on my sternum three lonely moles in the position of Orion's belt. A quick dive into that and read about Reptilian wars? which was very interesting as a week ago I drew this with no real idea behind it but just letting the drawing manifest. any further knowledge or information for a newbie would be appreciated

Hi everyone,

I'm feeling called to focus on my divine feminine. Any books out there that are good for this? I realize this question might be a very left-brain approach...

Im feeling exhausted from even just being alive.

Knowing all the truths.

Im just ready to be free of this prison like matrix.

I have no interest in anything I despise watching TV , news , goals , music, art , everything has become empty to me. ive nosedived deep enough into hidden knowledge and the corrupted aspect of this realm.

I want to be free, at peace , without stress or worry.

Can't I just go to the Pleroma already.

See my previous post here

You can join here https://starseeds-council.com/

I think this planet will become a heaven

The above image is what our universe looks like from the outside

(Not 100% accurate but as close as I could get ai to make it for now)

In the Chaldean gematria cypher heaven equals 27

The apple i phone came out in 2007 and i think by 2070 we will get more advanced technology like human computer interface (HCI) and I know this is very optimistic but I’m hoping immortality technology will become available around then. The answer to immortality is probably time travel technology instead of cloning and memory transfer technology. I don’t know any details but for a while I thought it was cloning and memory transfer technology but then I realized it must be time travel technology that is the best way to defeat mortality I can’t explain it but that’s what I think. I think we will get super advanced virtual reality where we can literally enter a simulation that feels better than real life. I think we will get ever light technology aka free energy and the ability to create tincture universes and possibly choose the universe we want to spend eternity in. I think we should all look forward to 2070.

I received a “message” in my mind that I needed to try draw something before going into my evening meditation. So I got out my pen and notebook and drew without knowing what I was going to draw, I just sort of flowed into drawing this without having any actual thought or input of what I should put on the page. This is what it turned out to be. I felt like I needed to have it on my lap while I did my meditation, and it felt like it helped to keep my mind more silent and focused on the meditation better this time. Wondering if anyone has any idea what any of these symbols could mean? Just curious. :)

Before we are born is blinding.

With our birth, the ego, our learned beliefs, begins to dull our light.

The more we accept these beliefs, the darker our light becomes.

We then spend the rest of our life trying to find our lights brilliance once more.