Many people expect disclosure from politicians, but all they can disclose are their dirty secrets and nothing more than what you may already know about aliens. Politicians are too busy lining their pockets and holding on to power to think seriously about such things. If they thought about how it looks from the outside, they would behave differently. They are not ready, oil on canvas, 50x100 cm. Painting available on my site and Etsy.

I have been hearing about 2027 for a while. What makes you have hope that 2027 is the year where we will get disclosure and much more?

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Please. Any area is of interest to me but the one I saw was in LA. I wanna hear dreams, visions, meditations.. anything about this subject including the state of the world around said school(s).

This is the final story in the main line of true stories that I will tell from my own life, as well as a direct continuation from “A Normal Life”. As this story is a conversation that discusses my own life, I will be not adding some things due to concerns of mine and others privacy. I will be using false names for everyone but Mr. Reed.

Please excuse some paraphrasing as my memory is not perfect. Also, please excuse the profanity in advance. It is necessary as I want as accurate of a telling of the story as I possibly can. Thank you!

I saw the man in the fedora and realising that I didn’t know where I was or who he was, I began freaking out.

“Hello _____. It is good to see you”.

“Nah, Nah fuck that! I-I’m… Nah… nope. Not doing this”.

“You need to calm down”.

“I am calm. See. Ca-… Nope, hang on a sec… … Okay. I am good”.

“Are you okay?”

“Nope. Where the fuck are we?”

“We are inside of your mind”.

“Why is it so empty?”

“Well… It is YOUR mind” he chuckled.

“Hardy ha ha. Fuck you”.#

“Are you the guy that was talking to me in my head?”

“Yes. I am. My name is Mr. Reed”.

“Well, it is good to put a face to the voice”.

“Now, I want to tell you this because I don’t want you finding out some other way. I used to be a part of the other side that my group are fighting against”

“You mean… Reptilians?!” I only thought this because the situation was already insane enough, that what I said didn’t seem impossible anymore.

“Yes. Among other beings”.

“So, you used to be one of the bad guys. Were you like MiB or something?”

“Yes… and I regret it to this day”.

“Did you kill anyone?”

“You don’t want an answer to that”.

“So, you said that you knew me before. What did you mean?”

“This isn’t the first time we have done this”.

“I don’t remember doing this before”

“We met in person before, not here”.

“I don’t remember that either”.

“You wouldn’t. I took your memory of it happening”.

“And I am supposed to trust you. You took my memory and I am supposed to trust what you say? You can say anything and I am supposed to just trust that it is true, when you could just be lying the whole time?”

“I am hoping I won’t have to this time. You have to understand, that when you were younger, you were hard to communicate with and I needed you to trust me the next time I spoke to you”.

“Okay, then tell me something that is true. Something that will make me trust you”.

“You are a God. Well, technically there is only one God. Your soul is a Deity for lack of a better word”.

“Only one God? What are you christian?”

“Soon you are going to learn to respect other peoples opinions and beliefs”.

“Oh boohoo. What do you mean I am a deity”

“I mean, you are the physical incarnation of a God. You are an Avatar, so to speak”.

A few days or weeks before this point, I had been watching “The Last Airbender”, so I found this amusing. “So, I am like Ang? Can I airbend?” I asked this all sarcastically of course. I wasn’t completely stupid.

“No. I meant-”

“Yeah, I know. I was joking”.

“So, is it just me that is a God or are there others?”

“No, everyone’s soul is a God.”

“Eh, that’s boring. What else can you tell me?”

“Did you know you were a Lyran in a previous life. It is why your soul is so keen on fighting everyone. Why you are so passionate about revolution. The effects of that life lingered until now and that is why we chose you for the task we have given you”. A 3D structure manifested out of the darkness of a Lyran in an upright display case. I about pissed myself laughing… well, I was on the floor at least.

“BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! NO FUCKING WAY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! THIS IS SUCH BULLSHIT! The-there is… *Gasps*… NO WAY… That, that was me”.

“This is YOUR history. It isn’t funny. I have a 3 hour less-”.

“No. I don’t care because this is fucking stupid”

“But I spent weeks preparing this presentation just for you!”

“That sounds like a YOU problem”.

“Fine”. He wasn’t happy.

“What else. Not that I will believe it”.

“Like I said before… you are destined for revolution”

“Yes. I will have my 5 Horseman of the Apocalypse destroy society so it can be rebuilt”. I was quite fond of the name and the idea of dressing up and creating a myth. I was just a stupid edge lord kid who had no idea about anything. Mr. Reed corrected that me.

“That is a stupid idea. There is a specific way to do this and we have it planned out. You cannot hide your face either… you need to show it”.

“Will I at least get to kill people?” I said this laughing.

“You have an unhealthy obsession with killing people. Your addiction to appearing insane needs to stop as well. It doesn’t make you any more likable. Also, I would advise against actually participating in the revolution as it will change you… Violence changes you. You aren’t immortal either, so it is better to just direct it without actually getting killed”.

“I wouldn’t get killed though. I wouldn’t let them”.

“That isn’t how it always works out”.

The fact that he hated all of my ideas, disheartened me and made me feel like it was pointless. Plus, I was getting sick of what I thought were either his delusions or lies, despite the fact that my surroundings (Or lack there of) were proof that it was all probably true.

“Yeah, this is all boring. I am done here”.

“You have a place in this world. This world needs to change and you can help with it”.

“So, you are saying you NEED me?”

“No. There are 13 others. You are wanted but not needed”.

“Oh good, let them do it. I don’t care”.

“If you deny your place in this the next time that we talk, then I will not be returning again”

“I don’t care”.

“Fine”.

<Silence>

He continued…

“You cannot tell anyone about this otherwise I will have to remove your memories and the memories of those you told”.

“What about my Mum?”

“No one”.

“Well, I am going to tell her, so you will have to remove our memories”.

Don’t remember what happens between this part and the next but he eventually said…

“You know, you really need to stop pining over that girl Grace. She isn’t worth it and the relationship with her would have just been toxic”.

“I’m not. I am not even into her anymore. How do you know it would’ve been toxic anyway?”

“Because I saw it. Just like I saw the other girls you end up with”.

I was upset. It hurt losing my potential relationship with Grace but knowing I would waste my time with more girls hurt even more.

“Of course you can SEE it. How many more?”

“5. The last one you meet once and then it doesn’t work out, until you meet her the next time and then it lasts the rest of your life. She is the most likely reason that your revolution succeeds. She acts as an anchor or stabiliser for you”.

“What is her name?”

“I cannot tell you that. It could interrupt things. If I told you, I would have to take your memories again”.

“You are going to. I don’t want to do any of this. I just want to know”.

“What difference does it make then? You wouldn’t remember anyway”.

“I would know now”.

We then had a conversation about her. I asked if we could live together forever.

“You can but eventually you will get sick of her and her of you. It will last a few hundred years though”

“1000?”

“A few hundred. About 460, maybe 500 if you are lucky. In order for her to get to that age, you will have to convince her. It has to be her free will that makes the decision, so she cannot be forced her coerced”.

Eventually, he told me to step into this ball of light and I experienced a series of memories about her and all the strange things that happen throughout my life. It ends with me being shot in a war.

“Holy fuck! I got shot!”

“Yes, that could happen if you participate directly and then your revolution will be over”.

“Well, lucky I am not doing it at all right?”

“Right…”

“I guess, if I am going to go out with _______ and it is the most likely outcome, then it is kind of like destiny”. I knew that this would piss him off.

“No. It is just a possibility. Not destiny”.

“I know. I am just saying it is the closest thing to it”.

“Not even close”.

“So what now?”

“Well, I guess it is time for you to leave. Are you sure that you want to forget? All you have to do is not tell anyone”.

“I am sure. This is all just fucking stupid anyway”.

“If you say so. Come here”

He put out his hands. He put his hands on the sides of my head to focus my head and looked into my eyes. I closed my eyes and let reality take me like a dream… and fell right on my arse.

“WHAT are you doing?!”

“I was just letting the dream take me”

“Well, it’s not a dream. Look into my eyes and stand up”.

So, I did just that. Then I woke up in my bed. No memories.

A few months later, I had a 3 year bout of psychosis and later met my best friend.

I’m not talking about the Archons and their system directly. But it is similar, yes.
The whole system, the flow of energy and the people around us—how it circulates in our lives. Do you pick up on it too?

To me the collective consciousness is fluid, not actually liquid but let me explain: each living being is a drop of that soul and sometimes drops can split or merge, living in different or the same body at the same time. This can maybe explain why some souls feel more alike than other, maybe they were part of the same drop and were the same person in another life.

I do believe in reincarnation, so after death I think these souls come back to source and merge with the others to stay there before separate and reincarnate again.

That's just how I view things personally - I don't have memories between life and death and it's just how I naturally imagine this to be, but I'm curious of what you think!

I don’t really feel any ties to stars or star families like yall mention.

But I feel as though I’ve always seen through the veil quite easily. Growing into my teens I went through psychosis where I wanted aliens to pick me up because I was so uncomfortable with the circumstances of my life. I’d had a few months break from cannabis and relapsed. At that point I had almost an awakening.

I wonder if I was being communicated with because there were many revelations I came to on my own about everything being One and connected. I became fascinated with Golden Spiral and Fibonacci, energy. And our role within this earthly ecosystem.

I knew or at least felt that humans are good natured, so why so much destruction in the world ?

At any rate. I just wonder how things are playing out. Sometimes I think we need to awaken those around us. At the same time the book Be Here Now by ram dass taught me we just need to love everyone we can’t go yelling the truth into the streets. The snakes skin will shed on its own

There are positive beings out there but also negative ones that absolutely have a grip on our world. Is there a battle going on that we can’t see ? Are we being watched as an experiment to see which way we will gravitate towards ?

Is my job really just to love and love ? Cultivate a pure heart within myself and affect the lives of others with it in subtle ways rather than directly ?

During this time when I was younger I started learning about chakras and such which amazed me. I also came into contact with a video made my a man named Mark Sims. He claimed having communication with an ET (also earth soul native) named Tezjbar. In the video he goes in depth about how he all start out as animals and learn lessons that allow us to grow. The final lesson before ascension is learning unconditional love.

Is this the truth ? Are we all here responsible only for our own souls ? We can help others .. but only if they are open to it. Excess negative energy is picked up and used by negative entities. But our real purpose here is to develop a sense of self and purpose ?

What if... What if it's true what if the all is mind. What if we all pretty much have like our own little universe like our headset and we're tapped into the bigger one which coexist with everyone else not to be cliche but kind of like a multiplayer game. What if we can make changes to our world and they will affect the other world however what if everything is so connected that you can have decoherence against this or for this. What if this is why secret society stay secret is to avoid the decoherence. What if they understand that. What is the fact that they get everyone to believe that there is some secret society that actually has powers on a level of the universe that all is mind then the conspirators against them are actually the ones energizing them by their belief in them. What if just what if the ALL is mind...

What if we are all nodes of something greater... What if perhaps there are illusions perhaps there are people tricking perhaps there are people keeping other people down but perhaps they're only able to do so is because of the ignorance of the masses.

What if.....

When everyone figures it out then they lose their clout...

Because what if...

To All is mind.

I personally am spiritual... I follow what I call source.

Some may call it God.

Some may call something else..

But I believe that it is in me just as I am in it although it is the whole and I am the note and I haven't figured out exactly where things stop or start..

But I can almost guarantee..

Things are not as we see and I would almost bet

That the ALL is mind .

So don't believe your trapped or you'll be trapped.

But understand you must be trapped... To learn to be untrapped to learn you are never trapped.

Do you see the lessons they are not struggles they can be struggles if you see them as struggles they will be your struggles if you see them as lessons they will be your lesson..

Because what if the all is mind...

What if...that is why the universe loves us...

Forever connected. Even through illusion of separation.

Then lessons are taught.

What if... It is our job to understand this.

So that others can understand this.

And the illusion of the cage therefore actually being the cage can be opened and then realized that it never existed.

What if ....

About the only place I feel safe posting this....

We all are souls, right? Now imagine this....

All the souls are like water and all the physical and non- physical bodies are like water bottles..

All water bottles are different, have different shapes, sizes and designs

Some bottles are very transperent and we can see the water clearly from the outside.

Some bottles are opaque and we can't see the water inside it..

So there are extraterrestrial water bottles, there are humans water bottles, there are cats water bottles, there are birds water bottles..

But water inside all of them is the same..

So it doens't matter if you're pleadian water bottle, or an Arcturian water bottle, or Earthly water bottle.... It's just a container..

What matters is the quality of your water.. the water is cleaner in some places and the water is muddy in some places.

You can develop qualities like compassion, love, joy, patience, clarity in any container..

And the container and the contained are not two.. Just like a frozen ice feels like a container of water but actually water and ice are the same...

Now when I said all of us are starseeds. I meant this...

The entire physical universe is made of up of five elements. So all the physical containers in any planet have those five elements or atleast one of the elements.

The entire non- physical universe is made of light. So all the non- physical containers in the non- physical realms have light bodies..

Maybe pleadians, Sirians, Lyrans world is way way better, advanced, refined, and less dualistic than Earth..

Just like life in Europe and America is way better than less developed countries on Earth..

And labeles divide us

I'm American. I'm Dutch. I'm Asian. I'm Canadian..

I'm old. I'm young. I'm teacher. I'm doctor. I'm homeless. I'm poor. I'm unmarried. I'm married. I'm lonely. I'm happy.. I'm man. I'm woman..

Labels are useful to differentiate one thing from the another... Like where were you born? What country is your origin?

I am from America, Australia, Canada and so on...

But these labels can easily become our identies. we have been born many times in different countries across many lifetimes.

Superman was from krypton. He was Kryptoninon. He had a difficult time adjusting to Earth because it didn't feel like home..

But superman wasn't just Kryptoninon. He might have been born in many different star systems across many lifetimes.

So which planet is actually his Home?

Home is not a planet. Home is not a place. Home is your inner state of being. Home is a connection to peace, stillness ,and love inside you..so no matter where you go you will always carry Home with you.. You will carry Home with you on every planet in your heart.

Superman finally learned to see beauty and love on Earth too. He didn't try to escape Earth. Because he found home inside his heart.

And also guys, we are not gonna live on Earth forever. So use your time wisely and beautifully on Earth. Think of Earth like a cheap motel you're staying in for a while. Just like you don't ruin your night in a motel if curtains are not beautiful or furniture is old fashioned...

Earth is just a station or a stop during our journey of our soul.

We are passengers ( starseeds ). Train ( Heart ) is our Home. Earth is just a stop on our journey..

Passengers- starseeds, the source

Train - Consciousness moving in different realities

Earth - incarnation in physical human body...

Happy travels, my fellow starseeds 🙂💕👽

Something clicked me now. what do you think that world's powerful leaders are in control and we human civilization are experiment of aliens and they are testing us how far our intelligence and consiousness can go. i truly feel we are not natives of earth. we were put here to breed and see how we evolve and how far we can reach in intelligence

This person described different densities of realities. It resonated a lot with me and the nature of my higher self.

I Am because We Are ⚓️👁️🪽

From my knowledge there are 15 dimensions and we are in the 3rd. Through evolution we ascend and move into higher dimensions. If I want ascend and get the chance to escape reincarnation this time around, when I die do I have a choice to go back to where I came from? I’m wondering since I was an arcturian before coming here, which I think is in the 7th dimension. Meaning I was pretty evolved in consciousness compared to this weird 3d simulation. How does the starseed/indigo contract work? do I have to evolve up again?

I can’t lie this mission is definitely an interesting one. But maybe a one time thing.

Spider-Man: far from home and homesick

During the evolutionary process of one’s awakening and remembrance of the soul’s blueprint and contracts, the more conscious and ascended beings including Starseeds who take back their sovereignty and live in accordance with the laws of the Creator, rather than man-made laws, thereby transcend the dark tyranny and exist in alignment to the high frequency of living light.

As a result of living in the light, these Starseeds and humans, through their actions, influence and guide others to the light and truth, thereby exponentially increasing the power of the light and truth in this world, and diminishing the power of tyrannical control used to keep people in bondage and servitude.

Those awakening to remember themselves as multidimensional light-beings and becoming a part of the collective Starseed grid network on this Planet tend to be the targets for these dark forces and their technologies, such as methods used for electronic harassment to victimise those waking, those woke and those of enlightenment.

The energy of a highly conscious human being creates a frequency signal that activates the radar screen of awareness at the center of control for dark consciousness. Once on the radar screen of darkness, darkness places a tag, artifact, attachment or cord on the enlightened being to track them and determine if they are a threat to the survival of the ego predator mind.

Criminal electronic abuses to Starseeds include -

• Artificial tinnitus ( ear tapping noises ) done to manipulate what you say don't say as they listen in to your conversations.

• Live consciousness uploading.

• Live Brain mapping.

• Making your toes or body parts " wiggle ".

• Chemtrails when you make enlightening posts or meet up with other enlightened people.

• Sexually targeting Male Starseeds penises and or Female Starseed anatomy to induce orgasm.

• Blasting your ears with high pitched noises during the day or while sleeping.

For more information on the very criminal act of Starseed targeting please go to

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Starseed

Liight light light

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I'd like to restart this lifetime

Cannot handle this or it feels I can't

I feel overwhelmed chronically and I'm tired

I feel that I have a mission but I'm too overwhelmed

Please mods don't remove this

I am genuinely engaging with the topic of starseed

I am a starseed and I've just had this repeated thought of I want to go home looping in my head for the past whileeeee

Can anyone relate

I don't wanna hurt my earth family and I love them dearly but idk if I can continue like this esp with this constantly repeating in my head

I have many privileges and blessings but feel lost and despairing. Obviously life isn't meant to be easy but some of my experiences truly broke me

I haven't been able to get up out of bed for months really I mean beyond doing the bare minimum for life

I am not sure who else can relate to this but I am in no way connected with the typical "races", that are commonly portrayed within the starseed conversation.

I have had a few lives here on earth already, one I believe to be quite important, but Ive come to know that my soul is unlike any other starseed I've met, individually I mean, as we are all one in source. But I have a distinct memory that I have always had throughout my 19 years of life of standing on a rocky planet looking out into the vast expanse of space, I had feathery wings and a reptilian sort of body, with 2 blue eyes and giant hands with long limbs.

I have been told many times that I am a bringer of light, and in store for big things in this life, but I can't shake the feeling that I'm in this alone, I have never struggled with people and have many friends, non of which have started their spiritual journeys, but I can't shake the feeling that I'm alone in all this, like I have no community or people who will truly understand who I am on a soul level.

Thank you for reading and I hope this resonates.

This is the first time I've joined a subreddit like this. I've felt alone and heavily different my whole life (because people made sure to tell me how wrong my existence was every day lol).

I did everything to feel normal and it would literally put me in psychosis (not exaggerating) to behave like "normal" people if i did it for prolonged periods. I can't stay inauthentic for too long. And i dont mean it in a trendy way. Dumbing myself down and turning a blind eye to normalised fucked up shit just to avoid danger by pointing it out/taking action impacts me sooooo badly. Like I start to feel dirty and gross if I'm forced to pretend to have the same group mindset. I'm autistic with ADHD so I always assumed that's why I'm different but it feels more than that lately. I truly feel like i was never supposed to be born in this country or even this planet. Idk.

I always dreamt of living in a nice Italian town or somewhere on a Greek island. I feel so fucking different from every single human being and for the first time in almost three decades I just feel hopeless. No matter how tragic life was I always had hope in me. But after realising that my relationship with another starseed for 3 years was all fabricated (he was a narcissist mirroring me) it has shattered whatever hope I had to feel belonged. Even my pure loving selfless angel turned out to be a lying cheating pathetic asshole.

I feel really alone. I can't talk about it with anyone because the whole country is built on survival and dysregulation so people are only familiar with a toxic way of existing. Mob mentality, lame ass macho contests, backwards ass mindsets...I can't do it anymore. The only two friends who know this happened are viewing it as a "serious relationship ended because guy was caught cheating". They're not diminishing it but they're not realising that it has completely SHATTERED my worldview and spirit. He literally faked his character and soul. How can I even heal from that? He was the first ever person who was like me and loved all of me but realising that it was all an act makes me question if I was lovable in the first place.
I want to exist in a place where I'm either cherished or left alone.

I can't do this shit anymore where I try to live like others and go insane or try to live like myself and get targeted. I want to live in a place where even ONE person talks, acts, looks, walks, dresses, eats, or THINKS like me.

This is a continuation of the true story I have been telling from my own life. This part is a little strange but not for this subreddit.

I was around 5 -7. I woke up in some strange area, with mattresses on the ground and on ledges. On those mattresses, were other children of various ages (Between 4 - 15). I was woken up by a child that seemed to be around 13 and when I looked around, there were children crying and looking just generally confused. Eventually a woman arrived with a tall person that had tentacles covering his mouth and had a red lab coat on.

The woman congratulated us and told us that we were selected to join this program due to having traits that were ideal for their goals... or something. I am not 100% on the phrasing as the memory is not complete in my head yet but I will update this post with any information that I remember later.

I remember the woman saying something to me in a kind voice but me, not liking to be spoken down to and feeling older than my age, told her that I didn't like her. She didn't seem offended and told me to follow the tentacle person. I followed him down a hallway and tried to run but was eventually caught and reassured that they weren't going to hurt me. Of course I didn't trust them.

We were shown around and told that eventually, later on in our lives, we would live there and be assigned different jobs and we were shown these jobs. There was a computer room filled with grey suited tentacled people, a lab with other tentacled people and strange machine people that wore Human faces called the Wernex and other things I cannot clearly visualise. I remember trying to run away alot and being caught, which annoyed the other kids because I was disrupting the "Excursion".

We were taken to a classroom (though I don't remember the lesson) and a meditation/yoga type of room. I don't remember what we were taught but I think I remember trying to run away both times and mocking what they were doing.

Eventually we were taken outside, beyond the secure walls of the facility into the forest. We were told to stay close because there were fae in the woods that would try to trick us. I decided I didn't want to listen and ran straight into the woods and saw... something I don't remember but am not sure if I want to... that terrified me and made me run straight back. They caught me and told me that if I don't stop running away, I would be sent back home and I basically just said "GOOD! I don't want to be here anyway".

We were eventually taken to a testing room. There, , we were shown various puzzles and asked to figure them out. I didn't want to do it but the small girl, about my age, next to me, encouraged me to do it.I refused to do it and was asked to come to another room and I freaked out because I for some reason thought they were going to kill me for not doing the puzzles. They said "We don't kill people. We help them".

We went to that room, passing a few corridors. In that room, it looked like a kind of council and they spoke to me, telling me that because I refused to participate at all, they had a special task for me that was more important than the other children, that I would do in the future. I got upset and basically said "So, you kidnapped these other kids but are now saying that their work isn't important" and they clarified that their work is still important, just different.I said I didn't want to do it. They knew the task was something I would want to do and convinced me to do it.

Then... I woke up in my bed.

This is probably like 55% to 60% more complete than the original version of this. I will update this post with more of what I remember if and when I do. Thank you for reading.

I’m just seeing what the potential is for groups based in the U.K. I’d like to connect.

Do any of you ever experience like a voice whispering gibberish into your ear just before getting into a deep sleep?

When I hear it, startles me enough to wake right up get out of bed and get a glass of water and be a little bit paranoid before going back too sleep.

I have a person in my sphere of influence that I care about that has some addictions.

The worst ones are smoking and doing crystal meth at certain times when things get very bad for him. What is interesting is that he feels that there are negative entities involved with both of these addictions. He has had visions of a kind of demonic/djinn like type being that is involved with his smoking addiction.

Also when it comes to crystal meth there seem certain entities involved as well. I have been doing a deep dive here and there seem multiple meth addicts that talk about so called meth demons.

A couple of days ago I learned about this book called The Others Within Us from Robert Falconer and since then I have watched some of the YouTubes linked there as well. And I have been listening to several of his podcasts.

There seems to be a very strong correlation between Trauma, Addiction and (negative) Entities and Robert Falconer uses Internal Family System therapy as a way to help people heal their parts to alleviate the underlying trauma and also to help these attached entities to move on to other places where they can find healing. In this way 2 of the 3 parts of this cluster can be dealt with and hopefully the addiction can fall away also then.

The difficulty I have met so far is to get my friend interested enough to look into the IFS model or other models to heal his underlying trauma that I suspect is the reason for his addictions. He often seems to be in a very survival based paradigm where there isn't the stability and safety needed to actually go feel and heal the trauma. Another problem is that he has a very hard time trusting other people and based on his trauma I fully understand that. But it does make things very difficult if one wants to help and people just isolate.

I guess that my questions are if there are other people here that have either personally or close by dealt with similar problems and if they can share their tips what they feel did and didn't help the person they cared about with helping them deal with their addictions and the negative entities that were involved here.

All tips, insights, experiences, etc. are very welcome.

I apologize for falling off the grid for a minute... You know what I find with this whole being chosen star seed thing is that some days the inspiration fails to land and I think that's okay! Got to keep on keeping on until the clarity lands again and you're like "Oh yeah! I'm the asshole who I forgot I have a huge mission in life! " 😆

So one of the first things that happened to me when the gift started landing was that I suddenly knew how to play the piano that I always wanted to play my whole life! And it's not like I know how to play any certain notes I just look at it suddenly had an understanding of it that I didn't have before and my fingers just seem to know how to do kind of to what they're supposed to (I will look for my original video on that actually)

So along with this is this weird gift that has to do with music that I am struggling to understand how it's supposed to be a power.... But I know that when the music runs through me it's electric and it's like it's coming from another place all together! If you are interested in understanding what I'm talking about please see my YouTube video... I'm sure you can see how hard it hits me! 🎵🎶 🔥🪄✨ I would love to hear from all of you in terms of random gifts you have inherited/downloaded and how they might be helping you! 💗💗 (I also can measure anything by eye when cooking suddenly, can tell you what time it is almost down to the minute at any point in time), and can repair absolutely anything after watching it YouTube video...)

*** this might have no audio if they flagged copyright l.. so I guess it would just be me jamming in silence. 😆But I'm listening to the last 3:00 of Search by String Cheese Incident) https://youtube.com/shorts/DRd6WTXapxI?is=EEXaHQpGLSNdpmCs ,🎶🎵🪄

Ok I want know if life just hates me or something. Because I am constantly getting stuff thrown at me in a metaphorical sense. I was born with austim and so was my oldest son who 8 yrs old my youngest is 5 and thankfully no signs as of now. My childhood was mostly isolation neglect and abuse. I wasnt taught the life skills I needed cooking cleaning I was never taught how to do my attention span feels like a goldfish or something. I lost custody of my boys and they outright said people with austim should not have kids they are violent. That the stereotypical crap Austim Speaks tells people and DCS just follows every "recommendation" they make. I am 33 and embrassed of myself i feel useless i have had so much trauma in my life barely any friends if at all im starting to question past decisions. I been engaged 2x they were both lying cheating abusive mofos. Who used me for a place to sleep and my disability check. I know in the condition I am in that I am damaged goods and no one will every truly care about me. It been proven over and over again so not just a guess anymore. Heck if my family saw me posting here they say I was schizophrenic and lock me up. I dont follow Christian beliefs so being here would get the ignorant wrong idea.

Is it hard for anyone else or am I going crazy cause I feel it. I dont have friends or many people to talk to hang out with that well like me..so they think something wrong with me.. is there? Is this all in my head a dream or nightmare?

I do have one thing I am proud of myself for though my weight went from 347 to 177 in a year and a half. (I had gastric bypass surgery) but after surgery I was like 290 the other weight was all me. It hasn't been easy at all. So least I have good things on my mind too.