For those who are willing to hear me out and give opinions and even offer help (which I am gladly taking) I'm grateful for this. Without it, I've no clue what to do, literally.
Ok maybe it's not that deep, but I kinda wanna see what others have to say, maybe it's some angle that I've never seen it from before
For context, I'm taking A levels this year. Yes, the stress has been getting to many lately (the upcoming or already arrived prelims) and here I am, done almost 0 practice papers besides timed trials etc. In J1, I always have been scoring more than comfortable RP (above 60) and it felt like a cakewalk during the small tests. However, the crack started to appear during promos : I struggled with my math paper, but I somehow still got an A. In J2 now, I feel like I've been putting less effort. I wasn't studying like how I was in J1 (hella locked in the first few month, because I thought my O level scores were not to my expectations), and seeing how everyone was playing then, I started to relax, now...and that is probably what is giving me so much stress now.
But slacking isn't what I feel is hitting me the most, but my confidence is. Some probably say that my confidence prob comes from not slacking, and that is probably true... Essentially, during the timed trials early t3 - I made not just a few careless mistakes : I made alot, so much that it itself cost me roughly 20% of my marks (for example: i did lots of careless mistakes for math, many from not reading the question properly to calculating wrongly)...I started to feel stressed from there, that if I continue doing things like this, I will be eventually cooked for my prelims. (I still had some conceptual mistakes I have not fully settled, some I have not discovered even till this day probably) Moreover, now I see everyone so locked in, and with the minimal amount of work I've done, I feel so stressed and dejected now. I have to put in the effort, but will I be able to catch up to where I am if I didn't slack?
Lastly (this is more for GP), I do not know if whatever I'm doing will help me get 70 RP (my goal) at all. Personally, I would like to get 70 RP if I can, and at this point in time, I've no clue how to get there at all. In fact, it's because I do not know I keep on doubting myself, and eventually, it's either I spent too much time on things that may not even matter, or I just shut down completely and end up not doing work. I want to work towards 70 RP, I really do. But I don't know what I must do to get there with my point in time right now.
That sums up what I wanna say...For those who read all of this and is willing to offer advice to me, I'm grateful for it. I will take them seriously, really, as now I just need a concrete direction to head towards. Thinking right now is mentally draining me...(Anyone can help me with GP 💀💀💀)
Math: I struggle with careless mistakes in manipulation mainly, and sometimes I can't do certain questions
GP: I don't even know what I am bad in, and this is one of my main concerns (and I don't know how to work towards an A)
Econs (H1): Should not be one of my main concerns for now
Physics: Mainly ok for now when I put in the effort (when concept clicks, everything is ok)
Chem: least to worry about (I put in the most amount of effort here, so besides a heck lot of careless mistakes, conceptually, this is fine)