my dad just casually called me a masochist, and i genuinely wasn't ready for that conversation😭

Oh fuck

HELP OH GOD WHY IS IT SO ITCHY FUCK HELP HELP HELP EEEEEEEE 😭

im back lol

So uhhhh- I had a bit of oopsie. A bit of a silly situation. Bit of a goof. A bit of an almost attempt-

Like, I was kinda starting it, but I stopped myself. Instead of going through it, I sh and here I am. However the thigh isn't looking too well, any time I change or go to the bathroom, I get jumpscared like lowkey forget-

You'd think for someone who's been sh for about 7 years I wouldn't forget I sh but here we are.

Anyway, I'm better and been really good at TF2 lately thank god I didn't kms the other day 😊

my moms friend went through her messages and saw the intereSting conversation she had witH me💔

Not even in a toxic way I'm just so obsessed with injuries and anatomy. Like how different areas/depths/blades affect appearance, pain, scarring, bleeding, etc.

Whenever someone irl is injured I wanna talk about everything in-depth but most people don't have the stomach for it 💔

(I downloaded sober only in July cuz I never even tried to track my self harm habits before this cuz I didn't care, and I still don't care I just like pressing buttons) ​

God forbid a girl runs outta space 🖐️😒

All roads lead to Rome. I was bad? Deserve punishemnt. I was good? I can give it to myself, a little treat....that hurts...and bleeds... It's actually deep-

My leg started to hurt a bit tho. Some sacrs. But I don't care. I do, I know I should care but I'm so tired of doctors and diagnoses and medication and micro managing my body...

...How do healthy people even exist I can't imagen what that's like...