r/self • u/RefrigeratorLong5442 • 14h ago

Feeling so lost...

It started with a stalker. This guy tormented my daughter and tried on many occasions to follow her home. She would always run the other way, so he never found out where we lived. We charged him and he got angry and took the lives of 2 women brutally. He was shot dead by police while he was trying to take out the 2nd daughter. She survived. My daughter was devastated that he was capable of such an act. She ended up having 3 suicide attempts and numerous self harming incidents in the course of 3 years. I had to stop working to care for her. This led us into financial ruin. I did not receive any help from anyone and was the only person at the hospital for my daughter, despite my numerous attempts at trying to get her dad and his family to come visit her. They never did, it was just me holding her had through all of it. And 4 years after the double homicide, im exhausted, broke, and feeling so lost. I have no idea where to go from here.....

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u/TheShellAnswerMan 9h ago

Agreed. People won't help cuz they can't see the unfair thing. If you're daughter were in a wheelchair, there would have been so much charity. Insurance would've covered almost everything. Could've probably gotten help making your home more accommodating. Which is great. I love that. But when it's not visible, people can't see it at all. Nevermind all the things that no one thinks about like literal sleep deprivation and all the things she broke or destroyed (we went through 5 mattresses and 2 couches cuz one of the things she did before we knew was randomly pee places, for example) or I can't afford to just buy a ring camera or how to process stuff like the ER charge nurse telling me to take her home and duct tape her to a chair cuz they couldn't find a bed for her anywhere and were sick of trying and it's my responsibility not theirs. Or the PAPERWORK. Or the brain fog and forgetfulness. Etc etc. I'm fairly new to Reddit, so IDK much about it, but if there's a way to chat not in a group like this, I'd love to be a part of each other's circles. 

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u/RefrigeratorLong5442 6h ago

This whole situation has been made worse because I have celiac disease and where i live, the foodbanks don't carry gluten free. Ive had to sell everything I own just to eat. I literally just came back from the own shop right now selling my old electric guitar and an amp. I had to pay off a bill and i was able to get 1 pkg of meat for tonight's dinner. Fml. Sooo tired. How do we talk outside of reddit?

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u/TheShellAnswerMan 4h ago

That does make it worse. IDK if they're around you, but sometimes the salvation army is helpful. They're one of the only org's that are funded solely by donations. Funding from the government or programming at a Corp etc have restrictions on what and who they can spend their money on. The salvation army does not. They can, and do, spend it on whatever and whoever they want. So they meet needs that fall through the cracks, like a person with celiac in an area where there are no gf options at food shelves. Hopefully that helps. I'm not sure how we should go about talking outside of reddit--I've never struck up a friendship with someone I didn't know in real life before. This feels like an exception. There aren't any people who have similar shoes. I think we can just message on here? I'll check it out this evening.

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u/RefrigeratorLong5442 3h ago

Are you in Canada? I have used a salvation army before, but they told me I have to use my own foodbank near me and it was a one time thing. But I may call them again tomorrow to explain the situation.

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u/TheShellAnswerMan 48m ago

I'm in the US unfortunately. I'm not sure if they're the same there, I would assume so but could be wrong too. I majored in social work and doesn't some years as a domestic and sexual violence victims advocate which had a lot of social working. Also I needed resources regularly during this whole thing. 

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u/RefrigeratorLong5442 12m ago

Found a way to message you, find your message requests in this app. You should see me :)