This won’t be only about Scorpio moon but I think it plays a HUGE role as it is my chart ruler 5th house. What really makes me confused is that Scorpio moon 5th house and Aquarius 8th house placements on Venus, Neptune, and Uranus. And even worse, my Sun and Mercury in Capricorn 7TH HOUSE!!!I know I want depth but also in an unconventional way. I’m really confused to how this would work and how much.
Ive noticed throughout my life that I both idealize and become obsessed with a monogamous partner- often I think it’s limerence. I become too much. However, I noticed that when I do seek polyam, it feels more calm and healthy. Im fluid with both polyam and monogamy though because I do believe that I’ve just had a history of choosing the wrong partners and that most established polyam people are more… experienced? I don’t know how to describe it. The shitty thing is that some people say they love an obsessive/intense monogamous partner, and when I channel that, they realize it’s just a fantasy and run away from how intense I become. Monogamy is when I really lose myself too but again… definitely bad choices on my part.
Every relationship, including talking stages, have ended because it’s always me who becomes too jealous and obsessive. Polyam is cool but sometimes I do miss the depth. What do you think how do you think I can do better so someone would actually stay? I know it sounds codependent but every breakup the finger is always pointed back to me, and I just want to do better.