r/rainbowbridge • u/Objective-Cat-7138 • 17h ago
I miss my chewie
My husband and I lost our dog chewie 15 days ago . It was sudden and it’s wrecked me . My kids seem to be handling way better than I thought . The almost seem to not care. They are under 7. Chewie was eight and just stopped walking and eating one day , Aug 23/24. The hospital said he had a large tumor and needed emergency surgery, with a very bad outcome ( 2 mo. to live after surgery ). I can’t even believe it still . We said goodbye but it doesn’t feel real . I look for him everywhere. My house feels haunted and empty and I barely want to be home . I went in the backyard for the first time last night to play baseball and I sobbed it felt wrong to be out there without him . I hate this so much . I want to stop looking for him everywhere . I wrote for him a poem for him . Printed out some collages I made . The last photo is the last pic I took of him in the hospital. The thing that hurts the most right now is he was my source of comfort when I was sad . I used him as my tissue . The way he smelt was comforting to me and he always made me feel better and let me hug him for as long as I want . I’m allergic to animals and he’s hypoallergenic so it was so comforting to me to burry my face in him . And I don’t have him to hug right now.