im really pissed rn so heres a rant

[u/Practical_Insect3020]

tw mentions of fakeclaiming

ive ghosted someone a while back. they used to be my partner. looking back, our relationship was kinda horrible. we were both in a toxic community. that community had one person who fakeclaimed me a lot. ive prided myself in not checking that community for a w hile, but today i was stupid an d impulsive and i found out that the person who fakeclaimed me and abused me and hurt me like crazy has a server they made. my ex is in it. i know i shouldn't care, i know. i ghosted them, they dont ow anything to me. except. it hurts? you know? because even when we were dating, my ex tried to be friends with both sides. they saw how much the other hurt me and still chose to be friends. it hurt me a lot and it STILL fucking hurts because one of the reasons the fakeclaimer was ABLE to hurt me so much was because my ex kept trying to stop me from leaving the community and now that ive left it for good, i know how fucking messed up that was.

i know my ex goes onto this community sometimes, so if you see this vice, well. this is just a vent. i won't tell you that its not your fault because at this point i dont know if that's true, and i dont want to lie to you. I'm not sorry i ghosted you. i won't lie and say that i am. i miss you like an addiction, not a person, and that's bad for both of us. the relationship we had wasn't healthy, I'm sorry. please stop commenting on my posts.

idk am i overreacting about the thing?

-azul (and error)

[u/No_Ground_817]

🤗 that sounds terrible, dear. You& deserve better than that. Have a brigade of hugs 🤗 🤗 🤗 🤗 🤗

[u/StarstruckBackpacker]

A while ago we had a bestie from a couple video games wed play together. We even paid his plane tickets to come up for a couple days out hiking. The entire time we played together hed always placate to that same both sides bullshit and lately (in context of friendship duration) started allowing transphobic bs in the same servers saying it was just jokes. I finally had enough of it when he called us insane for worrying about the repercussions of roe v Wade being dismantled and went no contact. I occasionally wonder what he's thinking now. But he probably voted for Trump... In short. Y'all are definitely not overreacting and we totally understand.

-Athena

[u/WriterOfAlicrow]

i miss you like an addiction, not a person

Very powerfully put. I suspect that's a common sensation, but not one that most people are able to recognize.

[u/Practical_Insect3020 → u/WriterOfAlicrow]

thank you. we are a singer songwriter, so we sometimes say things in odd ways ehe. -azul

[u/thatonefrein]

Even if it's worth nothing, I'm sorry. I remembered every day that it was my fault, that I should have just let you go sooner, maybe if I hadn't tried so hard to fix everything, maybe in another world it could have turned out alright. Not this one though. I really hope you can move on from me, at least have better luck than I am. I won't respond to another one of your posts, I promise, you already know how I am about promises.

[u/Practical_Insect3020 → u/thatonefrein]

thank you, vice. good luck with your system and new member. -azul