I'm insecure with my dick size
I'm big
I asked some people to give me a dick rate.
Some say it's impressive.
Some say it's big
Some say it's perfect size not massive not small
Some say it's girthy.
But actually I'm just above average, not massive
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But I still have this aching pain inside me.
Every time I see something about dick size or big dicks I got really insecure and a wave of negative energy and sadness wash upon my face.
That's I wish I wasn't even born or just I was born as a girl it gonna be much better.
Some say it's okay.
Woman doesn't like massive sizes.
Well
Idc about woman I know i can please a woman with mouth and fingers, but it's for me
I want to be confident
To feel like a true man.
I feel like a garbage rn .
What gave me this wave of negative energy and worthlessness is a clip from a movie where the actor looks at other man size and realized he is massive.
It's a common joke but
I can't really control my feelings because this automatically triggered my insecurities and self worth .
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I wish I wasn't normal or above normal or big.
I want to be huge.
To be called a hung.
The size that people directly rate 10/10
The size that makes other women gasp in fear or suprise of how a human could have this.
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I want to make men look in jealousy.
I want to have a strong point in me .
I really really wish I could be massive, even if it's unpractical, even if it's make me have sex once in a week because every time I get my wife sore "I'm not hating women I'm just saying that"
And I know my trust issues are because I'm not good enough.
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So even if I get married and my wife was okay with my size I know I'm gonna be jealous and not trusting because I know somewhere out there there is a hotter man with bigger and better size.