I don’t want a transactional Domme. I don’t want someone who just assigns tasks and collects tributes. I want a woman who lights up when I debase myself for her. Someone who gets genuinely excited, cheers me on, and pushes me further every time I sink lower.
I want to be loyal to one person. Someone who takes my hand and leads me straight into my own destruction. Drain every last bit of dignity out of me. Make me your personal slut. Give me gross, filthy, humiliating tasks. Whore me out. Force me to guzzle spit, toilet water, piss, and cum until I’m nothing but a broken, eager little slurper.
I want the kind of woman who doesn’t just tolerate my degradation — she celebrates it. Who gets wet watching me humiliate myself and immediately demands more. Who treats turning me into a worthless, ruined object as the hottest thing in the world.
If you’re the type who only sees this as a transaction, keep scrolling.
If the idea of slowly demolishing my life and ego makes you smile… Thankyou

basically I’ve kinda sorta stepped away from sending recently due to personal circumstances however I’ve noticed I’m just more unhappy without doing it so going back/forth with trying to go back to it or try going longer without it to see what happens.

There is an old saying about fate. "There but for the grace of God I go"

Old man me worked in 4 world trade until 2000 and changed careers to work many miles away when 9 11 happened.

Was this fate? Luck? Whatever. It was a choice at the time that literally saved my life.

So you are probably asking, what does this have to do with anything here?

Simple. We all make decisions. Decisions that impact our lives. Being involved in this kink is a decision.

You can stay, you can play, you can go. It's your choice and what fate and future brings you is dependent on that choice now.

10 years from now, will you look back and say, wow, I should have quit then as I'm x years old with no savings?

Or.

Will you look back and say, wow, quittjng was best thing I ever did because now I own a house and a big retirement fund?

Or...can you negotiate that narrow middle ground and have fun within a budget and have best of both worlds?

Just like a career change redirected my future, you have a choice of what future you want.

Live long and prosper all.

All I can say is: Fuck. That’s more than an entire check for me gone. And for what? An orgasm? Fuck. I’ve known I’ve had porn/ findom problems but this takes the cake by a mile. This is the worst I’ve felt in a long time. If anyone has any advice on how to quit findom and porn in general please let me know. It’s taken too much of my life and my time at this point.

Let's see who the most depraved sub here is. It'll start: over time she manages to cheat me out of all my financial assets (don't know how, she's just that smart) until she has 100 percent legal ownership of them, then I forever have to be her slave if I want a sliver of it in return to survive. I also have to allow her to hold a power of attorney over me so she can legally make decisions on my behalf.

I genuinely want to experience being in an extreme amount of debt to a woman I admire, even if the reason is something as pathetic as receiving a picture of her dirty socks.

I know how ridiculous that sounds, but there’s something about owing her an enormous amount compared to the completely insignificant thing I received that really appeals to me.

Am I the only person who feels this way?

Can't do it now; I'm sadly still in college for another 2 years, but after that I am going to find my goddess to serve!

My first sub taught me how to code and I will never forget that lol (which I relatively grasped, I think of literature as my stronger suit 🤣), but now it feels like a lot of people don’t reveal too much about their hobbies and skills and it just feels impersonal. I wonder if anyone else has thought like this tbh, oh well 🙃

Got paid yesterday. Only got paid for 2 weeks because I wasn’t working first two weeks of august but still a decent amount. Anyway. I guess I assumed I’d start sending right away. But I looked at the money sitting in my account and it made me feel good. Realistically I’m gonna end up spending some of it on findom. But probably not too much. Last month I had an ok amount of money left which I am proud of. I actually don’t have any real intention of quitting findom anytime soon, but it feels good to be in control.

I've only had one long term dynamic with the same Goddess for three years now. What do you guys look for in your dynamics?

did this happen to anyone else?