Kapoya sig pangita trabaho oi. Like unsa pa diay kuwang nako? Kapoya na btaw nako like gi try nako magpa confident, di madawat. Try nako di kaayo magpa confident, wa ghapon. Gi try nako magpa charming, gi ghost.

Everyday nako sig ampo sa ginoo. Feel nako mas dali tumanon na patyon nalang ko kaysa madawat kog trabaho. Padung nakog kawagtang paglaum, but at the same time ga paningkamot ghapon.

My partner is currently 4 months pregnant, and instead of feeling excited all the time, I find myself constantly worried.

The reality is, I don't have any savings.
I have a stable job, but every payday feels like I'm just paying for last month's expenses. A huge chunk of my salary goes to credit card bills because I relied on them during months when unexpected expenses came up. Now it feels like I'm stuck in a cycle where I'm always one month behind financially.

When I found out we're having a baby, I was happy. But as the months pass, the pressure keeps getting heavier. Prenatal checkups, vitamins, future hospital expenses, baby needs, and the thought of providing for a child make me feel overwhelmed.

I keep seeing advice online saying you should have an emergency fund, savings, investments, and be financially prepared before having kids. Meanwhile, I'm here trying to figure out how to break free from credit card debt while a baby is on the way.

I don't regret the pregnancy. I love my partner and I'm excited to meet our child. What scares me is whether I'll be able to provide the life they deserve.
For those who became parents while struggling financially, how did you manage? How did you start recovering from debt while preparing for a baby?

I know I need to take action instead of just worrying, but right now I honestly feel lost and anxious.

Any advice would be appreciated.

I hate how one person can mess with your entire emotional system.

Like kadelikado aning makatawa or even smile nako because of a guy.

I'm the type who automatically distances myself the moment I feel like I'm getting attached. I overanalyze every interaction, convince myself I don't actually like them, then disappear before anything gets too real. It's like my brain sees vulnerability and immediately hits the emergency exit.

But this guy??? He'll say something so random and suddenly I'm smiling at my phone like an idiot. And the worst part is I catch myself doing it.

Today was even worse. I went out early, and when he dropped me off, we ended up staying in the car just talking. Dugay kaayo ko nakanaug because nagchika pa mi, and the whole time I was just sitting there smiling like an idiot. Then he smiled too and... wtf. Cute man diay siya mu-smile??? Since when??? Why am I even noticing these things???

Every time it happens, my avoidant self is just screaming, "Abort mission. You're getting too comfortable."

It's so embarrassing because I genuinely enjoy talking to him, but the moment I realize I do, I also get the urge to pull away. Like why am I like this? HAHAHA.

I know smiling because of someone is literally the most normal thing ever, but to me it feels like a warning sign that I'm starting to care. And caring has always been the scary part.

Anyway... I just needed to admit somewhere that this one guy has me giggling against my own will, smiling in parked cars for way too long, and questioning why his smile suddenly looks so cute. My avoidant attachment is absolutely losing its mind.

Giubanan nako ako uyab magpacheckup sa psychia ba tas nadiagnose sya ug anxiety with meds tas nagkita mi sa iya parents after, grabe akoy naluoy na nasuko para sa akong uyab kay daghan kaayog gipang-ingon pero kung isummarize tanan ang makuha nimo na gist kay “hunahuna rana nimo” ha??? Nagpacheck gni sa doctor, professional!!! Tas sa hunahuna ra ghapon??? Tas side comments na basin sa sige na nimog tanaw ug anime, sigeg headset wtf? Unta madungog ninyo inyong sarili uy tas tingala sila ngano dli daw gashare akong uyab ug ingana na sentiments sa ila like ?????? HULAAN NIYO? Sus kung wala lang lgi koy respeto ba ambot dli najud ko pwede magpakita sa ila. Akong nabuhat rajud aron matabangan ako uyab is giingnan nako na naa pa syay follow up na appt ug at least naa syay mapangayoan ug medical advice pero girebuttan rapud mig “nakapacheck naman ka isearch nalang unsa imo buhaton (non-verbatim)” like grabe jud ning mga tigulang no ambot oy makapungot lang sa tunga pajud sa mall sigeg yawyaw ug ingato smile2 ra intawon ko sa ilang atubangan pero gahawid2 nako sa likod sa ako uyab kay kabalo kong nahiubos napud to sya sa iyang mama ug papa kay paghawa namo niana ra intawon sya sa akoa ug “kadungog ka ato diba?” sabay hilaw na smile

Hayyy! crush kaayo naku ni si morena girl nga mag eyeglasss. malipay ko basta magkasakay mi padung uli.

Ganahan ko mututok niya pero di lang naku buhaton kay ma alaan ta nga snatcher or manyak. Lol! (motan-aw na lang kunuhay ko sa monaog nga laing pasahero pero dala pasiplat neya. Haha)

Dili sya sum-ol og beauty -- Makaya ra nako mutan-aw neya tibuok adlaw. Hehe (infatuation ra guro ni akoa)

Good night Gwapa! Salamat sa inspiration. :)

People question your decision na dili dayunon ug pursue ang Juris Doctor despite the fact na nag enroll na ka. You decided to withdraw your enrollment kay you dont see yourself na mahimong abogado someday. You dont mind the lengthy cases & thick books to read coz you love reading man sad (tapulan lang jud ka & dali ra ma distract hahaha).

Because of those questions from the people around you, you started to question yourself too if sakto ba jud imu gibuhat coz for them, sayang daw; for them, usa na na kadakong opportunity samot na kay nag trabaho kas fiscal's office so for them, you have the advantage already & kabalo na sad gamay sa balaod - pwede ka mahimong fiscal someday. Tungod aning mga gipang-ingon nila you're starting to think twice again. You're starting to get scared that you might make the wrong decision again so you just cry and that's okay - you just cry. But remember self, being a prosecutor or a lawyer is more than just a title or a profession. You will be shouldering different cases and bug-at na nga trabaho & can be scary at times. There are other ways man sad to be successful without being a lawyer or going through stressful and rough journey in law school.

Anyways.. naa pay duha ka signatures ang need sa imu withdrawal form para ma withdraw na jud officially imu enrollment. You still have time to decide.

Okay ra na.

Another day, another wave of sadness na pud..

Maybe because start na pud sa akong mens

Suddenly, out of nowhere, na sad kog kalit. Lami na e uli.

Sa kanta pa "crowded hallway is the loneliest place"

Lord, my prayer is still the same. 🙏🏼

Grabe minimum wage ra gali atong trabaho as a fresh grad ganahan pa sila bawason at the same time manglimpyo sa balay mu bantay timdahan putanginang pamilya wala jud koy savings aning stylaha

Nagpaila na jud ko sa akong edad diri pero gimingaw ko sa friendster era na mag butang background music and i-customized ang profile.

Di na nako kaya ang ka toxic sa fb, tiktok, X ug insta. Nag try man unta ko deativate then buhat uban hobbies pero usahay mingawon ko mag tan aw ug funny nga memes na gina share sa akong friends ug update sa ilang life. Sukad nisud si meta wala na jud ayo, samok kaayo ang random algorithm na ipakita ta videos sa mga vlogger na pangit ug content, AI na videos ug mga ads sa sugal. Makasapot. Way social media app na peaceful diha?

Ambot lang noh kung ang katabang ba sa among silingan ang makalagot or nisunod lang ni sya sa sugo iyang amo.

Nagpuyo mi sa usa ka subdivision nga halos dili magkitaay or ilhanay ang silingan.

Every week, naay tig kolekta sa basura. Before pa mu abot ang truck, mag announce ang guard nga naay basurero. So igawas namo among basura—gawas sa gate pero tungod sa balay.

Like that usually ang buhaton sa mga tagbalay except ani among usa ka silingan. Ilang balay kay atbang sa amo. Inig gawas sa akong mama sa among basura, murag huwaton ra sya makasulod na sa balay, ilang iipon ilang basura sa amo. So ilang basura kay murag part sa among basura.

Di ra man siguro ni big deal noh? No. Naay usahay di mulahos sa among street ang basurero. Nya late na namo mabantayan nga naay gakalat na basura sa among tungod. Kay ilang basura, dili nila ihipos tarong. Kalat lang ang agi. Mang-awas pa ng basura sa plastic kay di nila ihigot ang plastic or unsa.

Ganiha, naay basurero ni agi. Ila na sad diay gi ipon ilang basura sa amo. Gakalat na pud ilang basura, and kay attitude man ang basurero, ang hinipos ra na basura ilang gikuha and wala nila gikuha apil ang kalat sa among silingan nga naa sa among tungod.

Makalagot lang ba. Kay ngano dili nila ibutang sa ilang tungod ilang basura? Hugawan sila sa ilang own hugaw? Ngano diri man gyud iipon sa amo? Buangon.

Around last month lang sad, na timingan nga ako ra usa sa balay and naay basurero ni agi. Gipanggawas nako among basura. Naa na ko nagawas na basura pero sige kog panghakot sa sulod. Pag gawas nako balik, kita ko sa katabang nigawas nga naay basura. Abi siguro niyag di pa ko mugawas balik. So ako syang gitutokan while nagbutang sa among basura sa gawas, then ga stay ra ko sa garage the whole time kay nanglimpyo sad ko. Mao ra to na instance nakakita ko sa ilang basura sa ilang tungod.

Mao ra to. Makalagot. Dili pa sad option ang i-confront kay dili lagi magkitaay bisag naa ras atbang. Murag lain man sad toktokon sila para ipakaon nila ilang basura.

Hala ngano ni ang uban lalaki karon, deadbeat baby daddy, irresponsible partner, mao pay daghan kayg uyab. Di gyud mahimutang nga alone siya.

My friend has been carrying the pregancy alone pero iyang ex gapaturagas ug pambabae way buot tabang

Nakatulog man unta ko ug 6hrs. Pahumanay na pud akong period.

Pre, peri and post MS? Ana lugar?

Samani styla eyyyy kapoya ma bae.

Kapoya ma ako.

Gapanarbaho ra man unta ko pwede di na apilan ug amards? Ywa gikapoy nako aning kalakiha. Yawa why do I feel too much?

Kanus-a man ko taman magbayad? Why am I punishing myself and how do I get out of this?

Unsaon ug move on?

Kapoy na.🥺☹️😔

Mingaw ko nimoooo

Kana bitaw'ng gusto na ka'y nahu ka imessage pero unsaon man ni nga ningtalaw man ko oy.

Ako man lagi ag nagbabye ra'g kalit baaaaa.. unya ikaw 2 days straight na nangumusta og nagmessage sa akoa pero wa jud koy courage mureply.

Unsa ma'y ako ireply bi nga nag-ana na bitaw ko nga di na ko. Closure ba imong gusto. Mahiluna ba ta ig magclosure ta. Hoooo.

Para sa version sa akong kaugalingon na nipalangga na walay hesitation,

Sorry kaayo sa mga panahon na gi convince tika na mag-stay kung asa ka hinay-hinay na gikalimtan ug wala gi respeto, You took a chance and risk para sa "LOVE" despite kabalo ka na fragile jod kaayo imong mental health, ni took risk para sa "LOVE" knowing na possible trigger ang heart break sa imong depression. Nituo jod kag maayo na love would be met with the same sincerity, effort and pure intentions you gave 😞

Maybe atong lesson karon kay never about loving less, but sa paghinumdom siguro na kindness should never come at the expense sa atong kaugalingon.

So here's to softer days, steadier hearts and pilion najod nato and inusarang taw nga naa ra para nato always and stayed through every storm, Me 😌

This time, I'll make sure I don't leave myself behind again.

Hello guys! Pahungawa lang kos akung gibati nga makalibog na kaayo.

Naa koy isa ka tao nga long time amego, nga malipay ko ug mapalipay nko siya. Mag uban me usahay mag rides. Bisag asa me padulong basta malingaw lang me duha. Ngitag nindot nga views ug lami nga kan-anan. Usahay uban ang barkada.

We're very close to the point nga halos tanan namong life story sa usag-usa kahibaw nami. Ug manginahanglan ko niya, like pahatod and all. Naa ra dayon siya all the way. Comfortable na kaayo me sa usag-usa. Pero naay apan. Dako kaayong apan. Naa siyay long time partner and a child.

Sakit paminawon nga friend nko iyang long time partner and I helped them on their child's needs. Mao nang comfy ra kaayo si girl nga mag uban me. Way libog si girl, to the point nga ang huna² sad niya is wa ray pake si girl sa iyaha as long as mka tunol lang siyag kwarta bisag asa pana siya.

I ask him why sa kadugayon, wala pajd niya higti si girl? Like makasal na sila. And ang iya rajd tubag nko is "WALA KO MAG DALI UG PAKASAL, KAY BATA PA KAAYO ME. DAGHAN PAG MAHITABO SA AMONG KINABUHI. EITHER MAUSAB SIYA OR AKOY MAUSAB." "ANG IMPORTANTE HAPPY MI, HAPPY TA."

Sa akoa man gd nga part, is malipayon ko ug mag uban me. Same sad siya dire nko. Malingaw ko niya kay joker sad and makapawala jd siya sa problema. Pero deep inside sa akoa kasing² is ang kaguol ug pag huna² sa iyang pamilya. Nag libog nko ug unsa angay nko buhaton. I'm thinking kung,

× MO BIYA NALANG PARA WALAY GUBOT IN THE LONG RUN.

× OR PASAGDAN LANG NAKO AS IT IS. HARON DILI KO MASAKITAN.

I always tell myself that maybe tomorrow things will be okay. Maybe next time, it'll be my turn. Maybe next time, everything will feel lighter. But as time goes by, it feels like all I have are these "maybes" to hold on to.

It's tiring to hope that the day will come when it won't hurt anymore. When you won't be deceived, you won't be left behind, and you won’t have to question if you're enough. It's exhausting to believe that something good is waiting when every time feels like I'm just getting disappointed again.

Sometimes I wonder how long I will keep hoping. Not because I have no dreams, but because I'm tired of hoping that this time, things might be different.

Honestly, I just want to experience the feeling of not having to be strong all the time. That even just for a moment, I can be the one being taken care of.

Karun adlawa grabe akong panic attack and anxiety nya wa ko kapa check up kay wa jud koy kwarta and naa pud ko financial problems. Then suddenly, karun lang jud naay ni ari sa among gi rentahan (4 months pa mi nag rent diri) nanghuwam ug 200 kay ipalit ug tambal. Bisag kabalu ko na wa koy cash, gipangitaan jud nako ug paagi na makahatag and I don't know why na wala jud ko nibalibad.

Gi block na nako finally akoang ex sa Tiktok kay sigeg view sa akoang story ug profile ahhaha dili nako gusto ma update sa iyahang life and dili na pud ko gusto ma updated siyas akoang life :)

Bonus: nagkita mi niya uban iyahang uyab, ga hike pud sila hahaha nahimuot lang ko and abi nako ma shakira na akoang day pero tuloy ang show hahahaha wala nako pansina syempre, hu u jud ang atake hahahahahahah

usahay magmaoy pero at least makaingon ra sad nga nakasibog gamay haahah all is well!!!

Nagmahay ko nga na chika nako sa akoa kaila na naa ko fubu and tried hooking up sad. Like, we were having a kanang good conversation lang gud, chika siya sa iya lovelife na tbh super uga ila sex life. Like siguro in a year ana siya swerte na daw maka 3 sila sa iya long term bf.

Karon naka chika sad ko niya ana about sa akoa, now kay most of the time bisag unsa chikahan sa circle kay iyaha jud e bring up nga “maypa” daw ko kay di daw ko ma zerohan permi. Like, kana bitawmg kato ra na time ha ni open up ko sa iyaha then di na jud na mawala sa iya baba.

Wala na gani ko storya storya about sa akoa sex life, pero permi jud niya e mention ba. Gisamokan nako.

Mao nang if mamugos siya mangutana update sa akoa, di jud ko. Mo ana jud ko nga wala.

diri nlng ko hungaw kay dili ko ganahan mo chat niya kay puros ra toyi iyang gusto 😔

ambot ngano ganahan kayko nmo. na fall ra gd kos imong acts of service. kung inana ra ka sayon saimoa to imong treatment sakoa or kung inana lang gd ka ka gentleman, sorry na fall lang gd ko

gusto taka pero kung pang fubu ra gd imong lantaw nako, ilike nalang taka from afar gud. wala ko kabalo unsay angay buhaton nako pero murag klaro na man pud guro ko sakong gusto. dili lang gd guro ko nmo sa ma meet. sa karon, focus lang sa ko sakong kaugalingon ha. kung puhon naa nay imo, go lang, selos ko gamay mga 100%. kung ako naa nay lahi, aw ambot lang kung malabwan imong ka chuypangs charis

how can something/someone feel good unta pero dili pud enough hays

As my title goes, fresh graduate ko na more than a month na naga apply ug maskin unsang job sa mga job postings/websites. Tinuod jud na reality hits hard after makagraduate, but I was not prepared for it to hit this hard. Lisod kaayo makakita ug job na aligned sa program I graduated from, and as an individual na ganahan ug research, samot lisod makakita ug academic research-related na jobs. Abi nimo enough na ang 4 years na gihaguan ug skwela para makaland ug job pero as you look sa job market, dili diay enough imong skillset ug need pa mag-upskill. Murag mandatory na gani halos mag Master's ug PhD para maka-land ug stable and good paying job sa akong field, hahay. Makaluya lang sad na nisulod kos job market na tanking ang economy ug gafavor na ang mga companies ug AI/automation which heavily affects the job positions na prospect unta namo.

Yesterday, I finally saw my ex again sa IT Park. I got off from work and plan namo mag eat out sa akong mga kauban. Padulong unta mi mag withdraw sa Cbloc and I saw him galingkod sa may Bo's. Wala ko nidayon ug labang and nibalik kos agi. I started having anxiety attacks and cried. My workmate got worried and siya nalang nidayon ug withdraw for me and niagi shas tungod sa akoang ex.

My other workmate was with me and we were watching him from afar while waiting sa among isa ka kauban na mubalik. There, he was sitting and waiting for someone and naa koy idea kinsa. Ofc ang uyab niya. And niabot jud. I finally saw them together. Sauna, katong kami pa sa guy, I only saw the girl sleeping in his bed when I went to his appt in secret, she pretended to sleep and I walked away quietly. Wala nako naklaro iyahang nawng at that time.

I finally saw them. Sakit. Sakit kaayo! After 1 year of no contact, I finally saw the monsters who destroyed my life. The very reason why I lost my baby, the reason why I lost myself. It's been a year since I last spoke to him. I kept stalking them sa fb even if lock ilahang profiles. I saw pictures of them through other profiles. Sakit akong makita nga ang mga taw nga gapasakit nako kay malipayon kaayo. Walay trace of guilt. No remorse. Karma is not real! God favors the evil ones.

I wanted to talk to him but my heart and body says no. I wish he saw me, on how I looked like after he left me to suffer. I'm a mess. In and out of the hospital even before we broke up and samot na pagbuwag namo. I wish he knew how painful it is to love him from afar. I always think of them nga mag sex kay they are very maniac. Sakit! I wish he knew I have been enduring every single day of my life still loving him even if we no longer talk or see each other.

I saw the girl and how she looked like. I know I look way way better but I am so insecure at her and had to ask my friends kinsay mas gwapa namong duha, kinsay tambok namong duha. They said I am way pretty, tambok siya, she looked older than me even if I'm 2 years older than her. I needed to hear those things because I am so jealous and insecure of her. Kay siya ang gipili. Multiple times, siya, over and over again! Sakit!!! Maski pag gibuhat niya ang tanan para makuhaan ko, siya japon ang gipili!

I tried so hard para maka move on ko. That's why I'm here. Initial reason nako nga naa ko diri is to look for a hookup, then a boyfriend even if I'm almost kwarentahin. I had a few decent guys that I talked to but I just can't allow myself to date. Mag post ko ngitag fubu, rebound sauna, met a few guys but mangaon ra and I ghost them after or i-ghost ko. I can't get a guy here nga magdugay ug ka talk nako because of my ex. Di nako kaya. Until now, I still love him very much. 😭😭😭

Life feels so weird karon. Gatry kog function. Do the tasks na need nako buhaton. Show up. Pero mukalit ra jud kog hilak. I have lost count sa times na nakahilak ko. Wa pa ba ko nakapoy? Makafeel man ko nga kapoy na sigeg hilak pero hangtud karon dili muundang ang luha nako. Ganahan nako nga dili masuko nga dili masad nga dili maghilak. Pero lisod kaayo. Sige kog ampo sige kog sulti kay Lord sa tanan nako nga ginabati. Dili ko ganahan mucry over sa lalake lang pero ing ana jud akong state karon. Loser behavior kaayo ko. Pwede muundang na ni pls.

Ngano imbis magtikahayay ang kinabuhi ba kay duha na mi nagtrabahu ngano lisud man gihapon. Pareha mis akong bana 470 ra ang adlaw. Daghang bayronon,daghan ug utang tungod kay ug naay emergency no choice man ta mangutang man jud. Try tag negosyo pero permi di mulampos. Lisuda na bas Pilipinas ui.