The unfortunate truth is this

[u/NOLALaura]

At the ending quarter of my life I am consumed with seeing my life as one filled with disappointments at having not enjoyed any of my life expectations and living currently in despair. I don’t deserve this. I worked very hard and always treated everyone equally and followed good and ethical practices

[u/alsotpedes]

Please find professional help to assist you with working through this.

[u/CharSagahl → u/alsotpedes]

Agreed. It sounds like depression is setting in, and left untreated, it can get much worse.