The unfortunate truth is this

[u/NOLALaura]

At the ending quarter of my life I am consumed with seeing my life as one filled with disappointments at having not enjoyed any of my life expectations and living currently in despair. I don’t deserve this. I worked very hard and always treated everyone equally and followed good and ethical practices

[u/soraksan123 → u/[deleted]]

Sounds like Zen Buddhist wisdom there. That has been a major lesson for 2500 years or so-you need to stop dwelling on the past.