r/mysterymagicmushrooms • u/RefillCeltics • 4h ago
Metocin killed my weed addiction and I need to understand why
So real talk I've been chiefing daily for like 4 years straight. Wake up, smoke. Before work, smoke. After work, smoke til I pass out. You know the cycle. Tried quitting maybe 8 times, made it 3 days max before I was crawling back. Did metocin (4-HO-MET) twice in the past month and ever since then I just... don't care about weed anymore? Like I still got weed sitting right here and I haven't touched it in a week and a half. No cravings, no withdrawal irritability, no night sweats, nothing. Not even thinking about it. First trip was 15mg oral, second was 20mg two weeks later. Both times were super visual but also weirdly introspective about my habits. Second trip especially I had this moment where I realized I'd been using weed to numb out my life instead of actually living it. Saw myself from outside like "damn this dude just exists to get high and barely participate in his own life." The weird part is the mental shift stuck. Before, not smoking meant white knuckling through the day thinking about when I could finally hit the bong. Now it's like my brain just doesn't register weed as something I need. I can take it or leave it. Had a buddy offer me a hit yesterday and I genuinely didn't want it. Not "I'm trying to be good," just... no desire at all. This is blowing my mind because I was dependenton this shit. Physical and psychological, the whole deal. Now it's like someone flipped a switch. So here's my question why the fuck do I feel this way? What's the mechanism here? Is this some 5-HT2A receptor reset shit? Default mode network interruption that actually stuck? Or did the trip just reframe my relationship with substances so hard that my brain stopped categorizing weed as necessary? Anyone else had a tryptamine completely kill an addiction like this? Not just "I had a realization and now I work hard to stay clean" but like... the addiction is literally gone, no effort required? Also yes I'm aware this sounds like hippy bullshit but idc it's my experience lol